Imagine this.

想象一下。

You wake up with 200,000 subscribers that you achieved by shooting vlogs in other words, making content out of your life.

你一覺醒來就擁有了20萬用戶，這是你通過拍攝vlogs實現的，換句話說，就是用你的生活來製作內容。

People tell you that you don't upload enough, but you don't blame them After all, demand is a form of praise.

人們告訴你，你上傳得不夠，但你不怪他們 畢竟，要求是一種讚美。

It's only natural for people who like your content to want more of it.

喜歡你的內容的人想得到更多的內容是很自然的。

And even though you would technically like to make videos more often, the issue is that it's not just about not being lazy and picking up a camera because you're not a character in a show.

即使你在技術上希望更經常地製作視頻，但問題是，這不僅僅是為了不偷懶，拿起相機，因為你不是一個節目中的角色。

You're just you.

你就是你。

That's the thing about being real in front of a camera because sometimes real people don't feel like going anywhere on the weekend or sometimes they just don't feel the need to take a video of everything.

這就是在攝影機前真實的事情，因為有時真實的人在週末並不覺得想去任何地方，或者有時他們只是覺得沒有必要把所有東西都拍成視頻。

But if you don't feel like going anywhere, there's suddenly no content because your life is your content.

但如果你覺得哪裡都不想去，突然就沒有內容了，因為你的生活就是你的內容。

And even though you could record a bunch of videos in your room, it wouldn't bring you any fulfillment because it's never been about getting consistent views.

即使你可以在你的房間裡錄製一堆視頻，也不會給你帶來任何成就感，因為它從來都是為了獲得穩定的觀點。

It's always been about sharing new experiences and stories and capturing moments, real memories but surprise that means that you can't fabricate your content.

它一直是關於分享新的經驗和故事，捕捉瞬間，真實的記憶，但驚訝的是，這意味著你不能捏造你的內容。

You can't just pump out real moments one after another.

你不可能一個接一個地抽出真實的時刻。

The best ones always happen naturally and you never know when you've been led to believe by people and Youtube itself that getting the bag is what matters the most, but what if you don't want to play the Youtuber game, you never sought to become an influencer.

最好的總是自然而然地發生，你永遠不知道，當你被人們和Youtube本身引導相信，得到包是最重要的，但如果你不想玩Youtuber遊戲，你從來沒有尋求成為一個有影響力的人，怎麼辦？

You just like having your own nook of the internet where you can share ideas and experiences I guess recently I've just been like feeling really weird about making videos here in Japan because I would spend like days sitting in my room thinking about how to make an interesting video where I could go to like show you guys, you know, and while doing so I like forgot to enjoy Japan myself if that makes sense.

你只是喜歡在互聯網上有自己的角落，在那裡你可以分享想法和經驗。我想最近我只是對在日本製作視頻感到非常奇怪，因為我會花幾天時間坐在我的房間裡思考如何製作一個有趣的視頻，我可以去給你們看，你知道，在這樣做的同時，我喜歡忘記享受日本自己，如果這有意義。

Like I haven't posted a video for like two or three weeks now and I like felt bad.

就像我已經有兩三個星期沒有發佈視頻了，我就像覺得很糟糕。

I was like funk, I need to, I need to figure something out.

我就像funk一樣，我需要，我需要想出一些辦法。

I need to like film something, talk about some interesting topic or something and I realized, wait, why am I spending my time thinking about how to showcase my life.

我需要像拍攝一些東西，談論一些有趣的話題或東西，我意識到，等等，為什麼我把時間花在思考如何展示我的生活。

It's like, I feel like I'm putting pressure on myself for nothing.

這就像，我覺得我在白白給自己施加壓力。

Like imagine if I spend this entire day just thinking about what to make a video about in my room instead of just like going somewhere.

想象一下，如果我花了一整天的時間，只是在我的房間裡思考要做什麼視頻，而不是像去什麼地方。

Today was really nice weather.

今天的天氣真的很好。

So I prayed for my family in the shrine.

所以我在祠堂裡為我的家人祈禱。

I saw the beautiful night scenery of Kyoto and explored another part of the city where I hadn't been before anywhere I go nowadays.

我看到了京都美麗的夜景，並探索了這個城市的另一個部分，在那裡我以前沒有去過的地方，如今我去的地方。

I think about what sort of vlog or Youtube short I could make at that place because I keep telling myself that I don't want to waste the potential of me being in Japan, which is probably not the healthiest way of thinking about my year of study abroad here.

我在想我可以在那個地方做什麼樣的vlog或Youtube短片，因為我一直告訴自己，我不想浪費我在日本的潛力，這可能不是我在這裡留學一年的最健康的思考方式。

But at the same time I can't seem to get rid of that mindset because I actually love making videos.

但與此同時，我似乎無法擺脫這種心態，因為我實際上喜歡製作視頻。

I love how it allows me to capture memories in a way that photos never could.

我喜歡它讓我以一種照片永遠無法做到的方式來捕捉記憶。

But I think when you're making content out of your life, the balance between capturing memories and living in the moment is incredibly fragile.

但我認為，當你用你的生活來製作內容時，捕捉記憶和活在當下之間的平衡是非常脆弱的。

But yeah, anyways, what do you think and how have you been?

但是，無論如何，你怎麼想的，你過得怎麼樣？

Hooker thoughts are a little less chaotic than mine.

胡克的想法比我的要少一些混亂。

Wait, am I am I just overthinking fug?

等等，我是不是想多了？