Sometimes when I come and take my washing out, if it's a sunny day, I'll just come and sit in the sun for a little bit.

有時，當我來把我的衣服拿出來時，如果是一個晴朗的日子，我就會來在陽光下坐一會兒。

Just have a a little sun cleanse also at the back of my mouth is huge.

只是在我的嘴的後面有一個小的太陽清潔也是巨大的。

Oh my God, Good morning.

哦，我的上帝，早上好。

It is saturday.

今天是星期六。

I'm making noodles.

我在做麵條。

She's kind of like a nostalgia thing.

她有點像一個懷舊的東西。

You're really craving it lately.

你最近真的很渴望它。

But when I was a kid, my mom, it's just the easiest thing to make.

但是當我還是個孩子的時候，我媽媽，這只是最簡單的東西。

It was noodles, baby peas and pink salmon.

那是麵條、小豌豆和粉紅三文魚。

As a kid.

作為一個孩子。

I found a very plain taste.

我發現味道很平淡。

So I'd always add like, oh, it adds so much tomato sauce.

是以，我總是會加入這樣的內容：哦，它添加了這麼多番茄醬。

Um the pink salmon in japan is actually really expensive.

嗯，日本的粉紅鮭魚實際上非常昂貴。

So I just wanted a normal salmon today and it looks really intense.

所以我今天只想吃一條正常的鮭魚，它看起來真的很激烈。

It's like all bones all just mushed up in there.

就像所有的骨頭都擠在那裡一樣。

I mean, hopefully it tastes good because you know, that would be great if I could save money here.

我的意思是，希望它味道好，因為你知道，如果我在這裡能省錢，那就太好了。

Welcome to vlog Miss.

歡迎來到vlog小姐。

Uh Miss.

呃，小姐。

I'm just doing week long videos.

我只是在做一週的視頻。

I did film yesterday.

我昨天拍了電影。

Yesterday is technically the first day, but I had an audition and stuff and I couldn't even really feel comfortable filming there.

嚴格來說，昨天是第一天，但我有一個試鏡之類的活動，我甚至無法真正感覺到在那裡拍攝的舒適。

And I don't know, it just, it didn't work out so well, but today was my first day off.

我不知道，它只是，它沒有那麼好的效果，但今天是我的第一個休息日。

Well, it's not off.

好吧，它沒有關閉。

I have to do work, but my first day at home in a couple of weeks.

我必須做工作，但我在幾個星期內的第一天在家。

So it's really nice.

所以這真的很好。

It's I'm just cleaning, doing my laundry.

這是我在打掃衛生，洗衣服。

All this kind of stuff.

所有這類東西。

Just, just getting back into my body and like being a human again.

只是，只是重新回到我的身體裡，像重新做人一樣。

I might try some of the salmon.

我可能會嘗試一些鮭魚。

Oh my God.

哦，我的上帝。

It's mostly bones?

這主要是骨頭？

Mm hmm.

嗯，嗯。

I mean, I'll use it today, but I don't think it's very good.

我的意思是，我今天會使用它，但我認為它不是很好。

It's so much cheaper than the pink salmon.

它比粉紅鮭魚便宜得多。

That's so disgusting.

這真是太噁心了。

It's actually gross.

實際上，這很噁心。

But yes, so today I'm just doing a bit of home stuff and I'm also just gonna be editing.

但是，是的，所以今天我只是做了一點家裡的事情，我也只是要進行編輯。

I have a video that needs to come out today.

我有一個視頻，今天需要出來。

Um That's a sponsored video.

嗯 那是一個贊助的視頻。

So I gotta edit that, send it off in the evening.

所以我得編輯一下，晚上把它送走。

Just a bunch of noodles and vegetables.

只是一堆麵條和蔬菜。

And I'm gonna just chill for a little bit before I get down and start working.

在我坐下來開始工作之前，我只想冷靜一下。

Also.

還有。

Probably gonna call my my boyfriend has been some Visa problems.

可能會給我的男朋友打電話，他的簽證出了點問題。

So he can't arrive when we thought he was gonna arrive.

所以他不可能在我們認為他要來的時候到達。

But he should be arriving sometime this month.

但是他應該在這個月的某個時候到達。

So that's gonna be the big thing of vlog Mazz.

所以這將是vlog Mazz的大事。

Just waiting to find out when he's going to get here because he should arrive sometime this month.

只是在等著知道他什麼時候到這裡，因為他應該在這個月的某個時候到達。

He's got him, Yeah, let's go on an adventure this month because I've got some really exciting stuff happening in a big change in the future.

他讓他，是的，讓我們這個月去冒險，因為我有一些非常令人興奮的事情發生在未來的一個大變化中。

So that's what you guys about.

所以這就是你們的事。

But first I'm gonna chill and need these noodles.

但我首先要冷靜下來，需要這些麵條。

Alright.

好吧。

Sugar, butter, vanilla, egg, flour soda and chocolate.

糖、黃油、香草、雞蛋、麵粉蘇打和巧克力。

Okay.

好的。

Six.

六。

Oh, this is great.

哦，這真是太好了。

Alright, I'm just gonna film myself mixing stuff.

好吧，我只是要拍下我自己混合的東西。

I wanna maybe include audio.

我想也許包括音頻。

Would you rather be quiet?

你願意保持安靜嗎？

Well, it just depends like I don't mind?

嗯，這只是取決於像我不介意？

Including your voice.

包括你的聲音。

Yeah, I mean, I can just not be weird.

是的，我的意思是，我可以不奇怪。

Be weird.

要怪異。

How many servings?

有多少份？

How many cookies?

有多少塊餅乾？

This is too much.

這也太過分了。

I was like one egg.

我就像一個雞蛋。

This will be fine.

這樣就可以了。

Why do I, why did I measure it by?

我為什麼，我為什麼用它來衡量？

How many eggs were in it?

這裡面有多少個雞蛋？

This 48 cookies you with me?

這48塊餅乾你和我一起嗎？

No, I can't eat 28 cookies.

不，我不能吃28塊餅乾。

I can't, I'm gonna use the fun thing because I want to see if it works.

我不能，我要用這個有趣的東西，因為我想看看它是否有效。

It's like, it's like, I don't like this too much.

這就像，這就像，我不太喜歡這個。

It's too thick.

它太厚了。

One more cup.

再來一杯。

Mhm.

嗯。

Okay.

好的。

I made some cookies.

我做了一些餅乾。

So what are you going to tell the Youtube world that I was delayed?

那麼你打算怎麼告訴Youtube世界我被延後了？

I said it was starting this vlog.

我說這是開始這個vlog。

Alright, that sucks.

好吧，這很糟糕。

It was such a short thing until it wasn't, yep.

這是一件很短的事情，直到它不存在，是的。

If if we get it this week, like the start of this week, we can do the 16th If it's later than that.

如果我們在本週得到它，比如本週開始，我們可以在16日進行，如果比這晚的話。

Well we can do the 23rd after that You'll be the 28th visit.

好吧，我們可以做23號，之後你將是第28次訪問。

So I just got off the phone with my bye friend after we chilled for a bit.

所以，我剛剛和我的再見朋友通完電話，我們寒暄了一會兒。

It was really nice because we don't actually get the chance to to talk like Skype and stuff very often.

這真的很好，因為我們實際上並不經常有機會像Skype之類的交談。

So it's really nice to just chill and now I have to edit.

是以，只是放鬆一下真的很好，現在我必須要編輯。

It's my job for the day.

這是我今天的工作。

I got to, it's going to be here editing for awhile.

我得，它將在這裡編輯一段時間。

So it's not gonna be very exciting.

所以這不會是非常令人興奮的。

But I'll check in with you guys occasionally.

但我會偶爾向你們報到。

Maybe go up and get my washing soon and just relax because it's pretty chill today and I don't have to be in school.

也許很快就會上去洗衣服，然後放鬆一下，因為今天很涼爽，我也不用上學了。

Yeah.

是的。

The moon.

月亮。

Holy crap.

我的媽呀。

It's so big.

它是如此之大。

And it's right there.

而它就在那裡。

I'm just uploading a video to send to get it checked.

我只是上傳了一段視頻，準備送去檢查。

Two minutes left till it's uploaded.

還有兩分鐘就要上傳了。

Come on.

來吧。

Focus on my growth face When I'm stressed, I like scratch and touch my face.

關注我的成長臉 當我有壓力時，我喜歡抓撓和觸摸我的臉。

I know I shouldn't do that.

我知道我不應該這樣做。

But that's just a habit that I am currently trying to stop.

但這只是一個習慣，我目前正在努力停止。

It's really bad.

這真的很糟糕。

But yeah, I'm gonna get this done.

但是，是的，我將完成這個任務。

I'm going to go have a shower, get ready for bed and go to sleep.

我要去洗個澡，準備睡覺了，然後去睡覺。

Happy sunday everyone.

大家週日快樂。

I'm just going to clear out some drawers so that my boyfriend can, you can have some places to put his clothes.

我只是要清理一些抽屜，以便我的男朋友可以，你可以有一些地方來放他的衣服。

This was supposed to be like a fun day where I like organized the whole house, get it ready for a for him.

這本來應該是一個有趣的日子，我喜歡整理整個房子，為他做好準備。

But because things have been delayed, it's a bit of a difficult day where I'm feeling, it's hard to get motivated and do stuff.

但是因為事情被耽擱了，這一天我感覺有點困難，很難有動力，很難做事情。

I'm still gonna keep looking forward to the future.

我仍然會繼續期待著未來。

And so I'm going to clear out the drawers that he's got somewhere to put his, put his stuff.

所以我打算把抽屜清理出來，讓他有地方放他的，放他的東西。

What's in there in these drawers.

在這些抽屜裡有什麼。

So much crab.

這麼多的螃蟹。

He's so cute.

他太可愛了。

I have so many of these like tiny plush ease that I don't want anymore.

我有這麼多像小毛絨一樣的輕鬆，我不想要了。

Um and I don't know what to do with them.

嗯，我不知道該怎麼處理它們。

Okay.

好的。

I got the drawers cleaned out.

我把抽屜裡的東西都清理出來了。

You now have to find a place to put all of this stuff.

你現在必須找到一個地方來放置所有這些東西。

Mm hmm.

嗯，嗯。

Yeah, I'm sorry if I get mad, I'm just going to be really scared and like I'm not going to know what's going on, how to do it.

是的，如果我生氣了，我很抱歉，我只是會非常害怕，就像我不知道發生了什麼，怎麼做。

You're gonna fall down a lot.

你會經常摔倒。

But that's okay.

但這也沒關係。

I'm really scared.

我真的很害怕。

I'm like a very gentle hill.

我就像一座非常平緩的山。

It's too bright also hurts so much and I'm just dying in bed.

太亮了也太疼了，我在床上就要死了。

I can't get up.

我起不來了。

It's really hard right now.

現在真的很困難。

I know this is supposed to be fun and everything and it will be, but like just right now it's just waiting.

我知道這應該是有趣的，一切都會是的，但就像現在，它只是在等待。

Just not knowing when my boyfriend's gonna get here.

只是不知道我的男朋友什麼時候會到這裡。

Mhm.

嗯。

I know I'm going to get on with my own life and everything, but we had plans and I have like a holiday still booked that.

我知道我要繼續我自己的生活和一切，但我們有計劃，我好像還訂了一個假期。

We might be able to make it for, He might not, we don't know.

我們也許能做到，他也許做不到，我們不知道。

You know, we're supposed to have all this time to like help him get used to Japan and like I have a bit more of a holiday before going to school and everything, But yeah, at this point we don't know if he'll make it for christmas and I'm trying to think about it.

你知道，我們應該有這些時間來幫助他適應日本，而且在去學校和其他地方之前，我還有一點假期，但是，在這一點上，我們不知道他是否能趕上聖誕節，我正在努力考慮。

Trying to just like, just get on with it and be like, all right.

試圖就像，就像，就像，好吧。

You could just not make it for christmas and that's okay.

你可以不為聖誕節做這件事，那也沒關係。

It's just tough right now.

現在的情況就是很艱難。

It's like, it's so hard to get renovated do anything because it's like, I don't know when like to do anything.

這就像，要讓裝修做什麼都很難，因為這就像，我不知道什麼時候喜歡做什麼。

I need a deadline to get projects done.

我需要一個期限來完成項目。

I need a deadline to get anything done.

我需要一個期限來完成任何事情。

I need like a pressure otherwise I get nothing done.

我需要像一個壓力，否則我什麼都做不了。

And so not knowing when he's gonna be here, it's like, what's the point in doing anything?

所以不知道他什麼時候會在這裡，就好像，做什麼都沒有意義了？

What's the point in preparing?

準備有什麼用呢？

What's the point in like I know what christmas tree I want to buy.

像我知道我想買什麼聖誕樹有什麼意義。

We're going to put it up together.

我們要把它放在一起。

So I'm gonna cry for better.

所以我要哭得更好。

Then I'm gonna go get groceries.

然後我就去買菜。

I don't need to do my dishes, but I just I just can't get up right now.

我不需要洗碗，但我只是我現在不能起床。

I'm stuck.

我被卡住了。

My mouth hurts so much.

我的嘴很疼。

Yeah, you can't even see it as clearly as I can in real life.

是的，你甚至不能像我在現實生活中那樣清楚地看到它。

But Fuji is right there.

但富士就在那裡。

Okay.

好的。

Happy Tuesday.

快樂星期二。

I didn't record yesterday because I left my camera at home.

我昨天沒有記錄，因為我把相機忘在家裡了。

But a lot of stuff happened.

但是發生了很多事情。

I need to get a wisdom tooth removed.

我需要拔掉一顆智齒。

I'm about to head to Yokohama for a shoot today.

我今天就要去橫濱拍攝了。

This is gonna be a really cool one and I can't actually say anything about it because it's got a really strong uh no, like a silent agreement, whatever it's called.

這將是一個非常酷的項目，實際上我不能說什麼，因為它有一個非常強烈的呃不，像一個沉默的協議，不管它叫什麼。

But I think I don't even think I'm allowed to see what I'm doing today.

但我認為我甚至不認為我可以看到我今天所做的事情。

I don't think I'll be able to film anything if I can let it be cool.

我想如果能讓它涼快點，我就不會拍什麼了。

If not, I will see you tomorrow.

如果沒有，我明天會去看你。

I look tired.

我看起來很累。

I look ill.

我看起來病了。

I like piste off.

我喜歡滑雪道關閉。

I'm all of those things.

我是所有這些東西。

Everything is going wrong.

一切都在出錯。

Stop the music, stop it.

停止音樂，停止它。

This is not the life I want to live.

這不是我想過的生活。

Uh, Everything's going wrong and everything is building up and up and up.

呃，一切都在出錯，一切都在積累，積累，積累，積累。

I don't think my boyfriend's gonna make it for christmas.

我不認為我的男朋友會在聖誕節時趕來。

I just started to make macaroni and cheese, but I've run out of milk.

我剛剛開始做通心粉和奶酪，但我的牛奶已經用完了。

I didn't know that.

我不知道這一點。

I don't care anymore about the dairy ology.

我不再關心奶製品的奧祕了。

I'm just going to eat cheese and ice cream and a bleep out.

我只是要吃奶酪和冰激凌，還有一個嗶嗶聲。

That swear word was still a family friendly channel.

這句髒話仍然是一個家庭友好頻道。

I scratched my face and I blend in my sleep.

我抓了抓臉，我在睡夢中融合。

I had blood all over my sheets.

我的床單上都是血。

I've got an infected face.

我的臉被感染了。

I look disgusting.

我看起來很噁心。

I look tired.

我看起來很累。

I can't walk probably because I pulled all the muscles in my legs yesterday from the job.

我不能走路，可能是因為昨天工作時拉傷了腿上的所有肌肉。

I can't tell you anything about the job I need to eat so I can take my antibiotics and painkillers.

我不能告訴你任何關於我需要吃的工作，以便我可以服用抗生素和止痛藥。

And then I got to go to the hospital and see if they can remove the tooth from my face and knowing it, it's probably gonna go wrong.

然後我得去醫院，看看他們是否能從我的臉上拔掉牙齒，知道這一點，可能會出問題。

And I'm gonna have a disfigured face.

而我將會有一張被毀壞的臉。

Oh my God.

哦，我的上帝。

Well by I'm in so much pain, but I can't take my pain medicine without food and I have like no food in the house, so I have to eat before I can take my pain medicine and then I'm gonna go to the hospital to see if they can take my tooth out because this sucks.

我現在非常痛苦，但不吃飯就不能吃止痛藥，而我家裡沒有食物，所以我必須先吃飯才能吃止痛藥，然後我要去醫院看他們是否能把我的牙齒拔出來，因為這很糟糕。

But but I'm gonna go there and they'll be like, all right, we can take it out in like a week and a half or two weeks time and I'll be like, no, I need it now, I'm dying.

但我要去那裡，他們會說，好吧，我們可以在一週半或兩週後把它拿出來，我就會說，不，我現在就需要它，我快死了。

I'm gonna fail school.

我要掛科了。

I think that's definite now I've already skipped three days.

我想這是確定的，現在我已經跳了三天了。

Mhm.

嗯。

Um One of them I went and then my tooth hurt too much.

嗯 其中有一次我去了，然後我的牙齒太疼了。

Mhm.

嗯。

And I had to go to the dentist and the next one was yesterday and I had the job and then today I I can't, I just can't do it.

我不得不去看牙醫，下一個是昨天，我有工作，然後今天我我不能，我就是做不到。

I have to go to hospital.

我必須去醫院。

I'll show you my favorite cakes, that chestnut chestnut cakes, I look like I've killed a man.

我給你看我最喜歡的蛋糕，那個栗子栗子蛋糕，我看起來像殺了一個人。

I can't smile because it hurts too much.

我不能笑，因為它太疼了。

Okay, let's sit down.

好吧，讓我們坐下來。

Yeah.

是的。

Ah Oh yum.

啊，哦，百勝。

Okay.

好的。

So the hospital turned me away because I'm not a registered member of the hospital.

所以醫院把我拒之門外，因為我不是醫院的註冊會員。

So I have to go back at 8:30 AM tomorrow two to become a member.

所以我必須在明天上午8:30回去，成為一名會員。

Um And it was all in japanese and it was really stressful.

嗯，而且都是日語，真的很有壓力。

So so I sat and cried while the rudder helped me over the phone.

是以，我坐在那裡哭了起來，而舵手在電話裡幫助我。

I called my boyfriend's university and yeah, he has to book a ticket for The 26.

我給我男朋友的大學打了電話，是的，他必須訂一張26號的票。

And even then it's not certain if it's all gonna be okay, what a crap day, what a crap week.

即使如此，也不確定是否都會好起來，多麼糟糕的一天，多麼糟糕的一週。

I'm going to go to see my therapist now.

我現在要去見我的治療師了。

Hope she's ready for me in the video.

希望她在視頻中為我做好準備。

You can you can do whatever you want.

你可以你可以做任何你想做的事。

It's thursday.

今天是星期四。

I look like a hot mess.

我看起來像一個熱的混亂。

But there is no way that that hot Emma is appearing this week.

但是那個火爆的艾瑪不可能在本週出現。

It is just Emma in a mess.

它只是艾瑪的一個爛攤子。

And today I'm going back to the hospital.

而今天我又要去醫院了。