I realized something about my life and myself and the way I react to certain things and I realized it was part of past trauma and big can of worms open, have a lot of stuff to figure out and deal with and that's all part of life's journey and it's just, it just takes a long time, but it's been interesting, I'm tired, but you know, I had to take a little break and now I'm back, I don't want to come back and just be like, hey, if I'm into it also everything's fine, you know, I am fine, it's just part of life, I think, you know, everybody has certain things that maybe at some point it will come up and it's like, oh this is like a really big life thing, that to be the best version of myself and to be somebody who I wanna be, I gotta get through this thing and like figure out myself more, you know, it's all about learning myself, it's a journey, blah blah, blah, mhm, mm, mm.
我意識到關於我的生活和我自己的一些事情,以及我對某些事情的反應方式,我意識到這是過去創傷的一部分,大罐子打開了,有很多東西要弄清楚和處理,這都是生命旅程的一部分,只是,只是需要很長的時間,但這很有趣,我很累,但你知道,我不得不休息一下,現在我回來了,我不想回來,只是像,嘿。如果我投入其中,一切都很好,你知道,我很好,這只是生活的一部分,我想,你知道,每個人都有某些事情,也許在某些時候它會出現,就像,哦,這就像一個真正的人生大事,要成為最好的自己,成為我想成為的人,我必須通過這件事,像更多地瞭解自己,你知道