and this is that story.

這就是那個故事。

- My name is Quenlin Blackwell.

- 我叫昆林-布萊克威爾

I go by Quen Blackwell on the internet.

我在網上叫昆-布萊克威爾。

- (sings) It's Ms. Juicy, baby.

- 是Juicy小姐，寶貝兒。

And you might also know me from this meme.

你可能也知道我從這個備忘錄。

- That's me, yeah.

- 這就是我，是的。

Do y'all want the long story or the short story?

你們是要長篇還是短篇？

(winding up noise)

(發條噪音)

(screams)

（尖叫聲）

Okay, so I became a really big personality

好吧，所以我成了一個真正的大人物

on Vine and Twitter.

在Vine和Twitter上。

Would anyone like some stew?

有人想吃燉肉嗎？

16 is a young age.

16歲是一個年輕的年齡。

I was still finding myself as a teenager,

我還在尋找少年時的自己。

I was experimenting, doing crazy things,

我在做實驗，做瘋狂的事情。

while trying to juggle, like, be an internet personality,

同時又要兼顧，喜歡，做一個網絡紅人。

horrible thing to do.

可怕的事情。

If you're a teenager on social media, get the fuck off

如果你是一個青少年在社交媒體上，得到了他媽的關閉。

and go, you know, make a mistakes without the world seeing.

去，你知道，犯錯誤 沒有世界看到。

But I didn't.

但我沒有。

So my family independently owns a skincare company

所以我家獨立開了一家護膚品公司。

and wanted to like capitalize all my audience

並希望像大寫我所有的觀眾

on the internet.

在互聯網上。

And I was like, "Oh cool, you bet."

我當時想，"哦，酷，你打賭。"

So it (laughs) it didn't work.

所以它（笑）沒有成功。

There was the main tweet of me like promoting the like,

有我喜歡推廣喜歡的主要微博。

"Hey guys, I have the skincare brands, like coming up."

"嘿，各位，我的護膚品牌子，好像快到了。"

My parents were like, "Can you post this product?

我父母就說："你能不能把這個產品貼出來？

I'm like, "Yep."

我想，"是的。"

Let me just do a little bit of face.

讓我做一點面子。

You know like, you know how Proactive

你知道喜歡，你知道如何主動

does like the skin thing really like just

不喜歡的皮膚的事情真的很喜歡只是

make the skin look extra perfect?

讓皮膚看起來特別完美？

I can't fucking do that from my house.

我不能他媽的從我的房子做。

So I was like, yeah, let me just get this all good.

所以我就想，是啊，讓我把這一切都做好。

I'm like posting it, like, eh.

我喜歡發，喜歡，嗯。

And then I wake up the next morning

然後我第二天早上醒來

and it has so many fucking retweets, like 200,000 retweets.

它有這麼多他媽的轉發， 像20萬轉發。

I'm like, oh yes, like.

我很喜歡，哦，是的，喜歡。

But everyone was making fun of me.

但大家都在取笑我。

People were like, this is a scam.

人們都說，這是個騙局。

She's looks fake in her pictures.

她的照片看起來很假。

The skincare actually worked

護膚品居然有效果

and it's my family skincare bread.

而且是我家的護膚品麵包。

And then there was a tweet where someone asked me

然後，有一條微博，有人問我。

about the product and I'm in the car with my friends like,

關於產品，我在車上和我的朋友喜歡。

"Yeah, let's go to our (indistinct)."

"是啊，我們去我們的（緲）"。

Like trying to deal with like this internet the shit

像試圖處理像這樣的互聯網的狗屎

at the same time and respond to the wrong tweet,

同時，並回復錯誤的微博。

and they're like, "What will this do to my skin?"

他們很喜歡，"這會對我的皮膚有什麼影響？"

And I'm like ingredients from around the world will like

而我就像來自世界各地的食材會喜歡

it literally made no sense.

它從字面上看毫無意義。

I was tweaked out of my mind tweeting that

我在微博上發了一條微博，我被弄得暈頭轉向。

but I couldn't come out and say that

但我又不能說出來。

because I was a child.

因為我還是個孩子。

And I didn't even put out the product

而我連產品都沒有推出來

because I knew in my heart, if these people think

因為我心裡清楚，如果這些人認為... ...

I'm like evil and scamming, I'm not going to put it out.

我像作惡多端，又像詐騙，我不會放出來的。

And I didn't hear the end of it for like two years after.

我沒有聽到它的結束 像兩年後。

Every time I would tweet it would be like quotes

每次我發微博的時候都會像引號一樣。

(indistinct).

（緲）：

It'd be like ingredients from around the world.

這就像來自世界各地的食材。

It was the sentence I tweeted when I was tweaked out

這是我在微博上發的一句話，當我被吐槽的時候。

of my mind.

我的思想。

So then the internet hated me, very, very badly.

所以後來網絡上的人都恨我，非常非常的恨。

And I became extremely anorexic.

我變得極度厭食。

This is like, it's so delusional.

這就像，它是如此的妄想。

But I thought all these people don't fucking like me.

但我以為這些人都他媽的不喜歡我。

Maybe they'll like me if I'm skinny.

如果我瘦了，也許他們會喜歡我。

That's what my brain told me.

這是我的大腦告訴我的。

I've suffered with eating disorder in the past.

我過去曾患過飲食失調。

But it just like, re-triggered it, like.

但它只是喜歡，重新觸發它，喜歡。

During that time I was delirious and delusional.

那段時間，我神志不清，妄想不斷。

It happens when your brain isn't getting nutrients.

當你的大腦得不到營養時，就會發生這種情況。

I went on a car drive,

我去開汽車了。

because that's what I usually did when I felt overwhelmed.

因為當我感到不知所措的時候，我通常都是這麼做的。

And I was like, "Hmm, I think today I'm going to drive

我當時想，"嗯，我想今天我要開車

into oncoming traffic because everyone fucking hates me

進入迎面而來的交通，因為每個人都他媽的恨我。

and I hate me too."

我也恨我。"

And then something in the inside of me

然後在我的內心深處

told me not to do that,

告訴我不要這樣做。

but I was just sobbing and sobbing.

但我只是抽泣著，抽泣著。

And then I went home and I don't know what wire

然後我就回家了，我不知道什麼線。

in my brain got singed the fuck off because of the internet,

在我的大腦得到了單打獨鬥他媽的關閉 因為互聯網。

but I think to record it.

但我認為要記錄下來。

Put up the camera, I'm like, my mom always tells me,

把相機，我喜歡，我媽媽總是告訴我。

"Scream it out, scream it out."

"叫出來，叫出來。"

So then I just do that exactly.

所以，那我就完全按照這個來做。

And I'm like (screams).

我很喜歡（尖叫聲）。

No, I'm still sad. It didn't work.

不，我還是很傷心。它沒有工作。

People do what Twitter people do,

人們做微博的人做的事。

after I posted that video and they quote tweeted it

後，我發佈的視頻，他們報價推特它

and related it to themselves.

並將其與自己聯繫起來。

And then like a year later.

然後像一年後。

- [both sing] Ms. Juicy, baby.

- Juicy小姐，寶貝兒

- (laughs) And I love Ms. Juicy so much.

- (笑)而且我很喜歡Juicy小姐。

- I am Juicy and you just might know me

- 我是Juicy，你可能認識我了

from Little Women: Atlanta.

從小女人。亞特蘭大。

(upbeat music plays)

（歡快的音樂播放）

Born and raised in Corsicana, Texas.

在德克薩斯州的科西卡納出生和長大。

Always been in entertainment.

一直在娛樂圈。

Growing up as a little kid,

小時候的成長。

because I was different from an average size person,

因為我和普通人不一樣。

they wanted to stare, so I had to give them

他們想盯著看，所以我不得不給他們。

a reason to stare.

盯的理由。

I've never been shy, but I have the gift to gab.

我從不害羞，但我有滔滔不絕的天賦。

So why not get paid to do what you love to do?

那麼，為什麼不拿錢去做自己喜歡做的事情呢？

I think I was born a Dallas cowboy fan, honey.

我想我是天生的達拉斯牛仔迷，親愛的。

It runs through my blood.

它流淌在我的血液裡。

As a matter of fact

事實上

if I cut myself right now, you will not see red.

如果我現在割了自己，你就不會看到紅色。

You will see blue and silver.

你會看到藍色和銀色。

So I got to watch my Cowboys.

所以我可以看我的牛仔隊了。

It doesn't matter where I am.

我在哪裡並不重要。

I love football parties, but when I'm watching

我喜歡足球派對，但當我看球的時候

mu Dallas Cowboys, I need full concentration.

畝達拉斯牛仔隊，我需要全神貫注。

Look at this meme.

看看這個備忘錄。

Baby, I was in deep though.

親愛的，我是在深雖然。

I don't need no company when it comes to my Cowboys.

我的牛仔隊不需要人陪。

I have to feel myself because I go live,

我必須自己去感受，因為我去現場。

so I can interact with my fans while I'm watching a game.

這樣我就可以在看比賽的時候和我的粉絲互動。

Believe it or not some of you guys was there

信不信由你，你們中的一些人在那裡。

when this meme happened

當這個備忘錄發生時

because I was on live talking to you.

因為我是在現場跟你說話。

Oh my God.

哦，我的上帝。

Sometimes when the Cowboys playing, oh, they get me on edge.

有時候牛仔隊打球的時候，哦，他們讓我很緊張。

They had got tackled.

他們已經被擒住了。

One of them had got tackled.

其中一人被擒住了。

So I was very concerned because we needed to win that game.

所以我非常擔心，因為我們需要贏得那場比賽。

And honey, look what done happen. A meme.

親愛的，看看發生了什麼。一個備忘錄。

After this meme went viral, I was just on the internet

這條新聞傳播後，我就在網絡上。

and somebody sent it to me and they say,

有人把它發給我，他們說，

"Girl, look at you."

"姑娘，你看你。"

And you know what? I say, "They done did it again."

你知道嗎？我說，"他們又做了一次。"

- So the first instance I've seen the two pictures

- 所以第一例我看到了這兩張圖

being brought together is from this Twitter user in Mexico.

正在一起的是來自墨西哥的這位推特用戶。

- This meme is everywhere.

- 這個備忘錄無處不在。

- It's artwork, I've seen it used for hospital ads

- 這是藝術品，我見過它被用於醫院的廣告

in like Columbia.

在像哥倫比亞。

Oh, I saw me in someone's homework.

哦，我在別人的作業中看到了我。

I was explaining a math problem.

我在解釋一道數學題。

Even though I did want to kill myself that day

雖然那天我確實想自殺

it turned into such a cool thing.

它變成了這樣一個很酷的事情。

- I would love to meet the young lady by the name

- 我很想見見這位名叫的小姐。

of Quinn because honey, you have changed my life.

因為親愛的，你改變了我的生活。

Thank you.

謝謝你了

Thank you Quinn.

謝謝你，昆恩。

I really appreciate it.

我真的很感激。

- Ms. Juicy, before our meme existed with us together

- Juicy小姐，在我們的備忘錄存在之前，我們在一起。

I loved you.

我愛你

I knew you and I would love to meet you in real life.

我認識你，我很想在現實生活中見到你。

After this whole pandemic ends.

在這整個大流行結束後。

Humans are imperfect and we all have struggles

人類是不完美的，我們每個人都有掙扎。

and if you have an eating disorder,

如果你有飲食失調，

it's a really common issue.

這是一個非常普遍的問題。

It's the highest mortality rate of any mental disorders.

這是所有精神疾病中死亡率最高的。

So I would say take it seriously.

所以我想說認真對待。

Reach out to someone.

伸手去找人。

You'll feel 10 times better healthy than you will skinny

你會覺得健康比瘦身好10倍。

and cold and frail and dying.

又冷又虛弱，奄奄一息。

- I would say anybody. that's going through something,

- 我想說的是，任何人。 這是經歷的東西。

always think of the positive, make any negative situation

往好處想，往壞處想

turn it into a positive situation.

將其轉化為積極的局面。

That's the way I go with my life.

這就是我的生活方式。

- This is the best thing that could ever exist.

- 這是最好的東西，可能存在。

And I'm so grateful for it all.

而我很感激這一切。

So cool.

好酷啊

It's so cool.

它是如此的酷。

Like my kids are gonna be like, "Mom, what did you do?"

就像我的孩子們會喜歡，"媽媽，你做了什麼？"

I was like, "Be a cool-ass bitch."

我當時就想，"做一個很酷的婊子。"

That's all your mom did.

這就是你媽媽所做的一切。

Your mom was a meme.

你媽媽是一個備忘錄。

(trumpet music plays)

(小號音樂)

(continues to play)

（繼續播放）