I want, like, yeah, a timeline.

我想，像，是的，一個時間線。

So first day of school, Newtown, After my dad died.

所以第一天上學，新鎮，我爸死後。

First time I saw you was right after Sparrow's introduced me in front of the class.

第一次見到你是在麻雀在全班同學面前介紹我之後。

You must be doing welcome class.

你一定是在做歡迎課。

I'd like you to meet Mr Dillon Hoffmeyer.

我想讓你見見狄龍-霍夫邁爾先生。

He's new here, so please don't be yourselves.

他是新來的，所以請你們不要自作主張。

Be nice.

乖一點

Yeah.

是啊。

Yes.

是的，我知道

It was a good first impression.

這是一個很好的第一印象。

A few weeks later, I saw you at the moonlight and when Jed tried wrapping his arm around you.

幾周後，我在月光下看到你，當傑德試圖用他的手臂摟住你時。

Oh, and then on the day after the election Mm.

哦，然後在選舉後的第二天，嗯。

Mara, why are you wearing that?

瑪拉，你為什麼要穿這個？

Which is a motherfucking breathing?

哪個是他媽的呼吸？

You got detention for the profanity, Mother.

你因為說髒話被拘留了，媽媽。

Fucking worth it.

他媽的值得。

Yeah, it's cliche.

是啊，這是老生常談。

But you wrote a poem last spring that made me feel like you understood me.

但你去年春天寫了一首詩，讓我覺得你懂我。

Even though we really talked.

雖然我們真的談過了。

I friended you on Facebook.

我在Facebook上加了你的好友。

Afterwards, I looked at your picture.

之後，我看了你的照片。

Sometimes I even gave you my number.

有時我甚至把我的號碼給了你。

But I think you forgot or never saved in your phone.

但我想你應該是忘了或者從來沒有在手機裡存過。

I hoped we'd run into each other during the summer, but never did.

我希望我們能在夏天碰到對方，但一直沒有。

And then it was senior year.

然後就到了高三。

And I thought, Why try?

我想，為什麼要試？

We're going to college, and that made me sad because you seemed so cool and original.

我們要上大學了，這讓我很難過，因為你看起來很酷，很有創意。

But then when Caitlin died, I didn't see you anywhere.

但當凱特琳死後，我沒有看到你的任何地方。

Yeah, you had two backpacks.

是啊，你有兩個揹包。

One of them was hers.

其中一個是她的。

Are you okay?

你還好嗎？

Uh huh.

嗯哼。

I don't know how to do with this.

我不知道該怎麼處理這個問題。

I can take care of it for you.

我可以幫你處理。

Mhm.

嗯

Yeah.

是啊。

When what happens again?

什麼時候又會發生什麼？

Oh, mhm.

哦，嗯。

And when you said it might happen again, I thought, Whoa, Maybe I've been wasting my entire life preparing for a year.

當你說可能會再次發生時，我想，哇，也許我已經浪費了我的整個生命準備了一年。

That may never come from me.

這可能永遠不會從我這裡得到。

So fuck it.

所以，他媽的。

I'm gonna tell you how I feel.

我要告訴你我的感覺。

I'm gonna spend my savings on a car.

我要把我的積蓄花在汽車上。

I'm not going to be scared anymore.

我不會再害怕了。