I’m scared. I’m scared that my abilities are gone.

我很害怕我害怕我的能力消失了。

I’m scared that I’m going to fuck this up.

我很害怕，我要去他媽的這一點。

And I’m scared of you. I don’t want to start, but I will.

我很怕你我不想開始，但我會的。

This is an invocation for anyone who hasn’t begun, who’s stuck in a terrible place between

這是給那些還沒有開始的人的召喚，他們被困在一個可怕的地方，介於兩者之間。

zero and one.

零和一。

Let me realize that my past failures at follow-through are no indication of my future performance.

讓我意識到，我過去在跟進方面的失敗並不能說明我未來的表現。

They’re just healthy little fires that are going to warm up my ass.

他們只是健康的小火苗，要溫暖我的屁股。

If my FILDI (fuck it let’s do it) is strong let me keep him in a velvet box until I really,

如果我的FILDI（他媽的，讓我們做到這一點）是強大的，讓我把他在天鵝絨箱，直到我真的。

really need him. If my FILDI is weak let me feed him oranges

真的需要他如果我的FILDI軟弱無力 我就喂他吃橘子吧！

and not let him gorge himself on ego and arrogance.

而不是讓他大吃大喝，自負自大。

Let me not hit up my Facebook like it’s a crack pipe

讓我不要把我的臉譜網當做裂縫管來打

Keep the browser closed.

保持瀏覽器關閉。

If I catch myself wearing a too-too (too fat, too late, too old) let me shake it off like

如果我發現自己穿得太過（太胖、太晚、太老），讓我甩掉它，就像。

a donkey would shake off something it doesn’t like.

驢子會甩掉它不喜歡的東西。

And when I get that feeling in my stomach — you know the feeling when all of a sudden

當我肚子裡有那種感覺時 你知道那種感覺，當突然間...

you get a ball of energy and it shoots down into your legs and up into your arms and tells

你得到了一個能量球，它射到你的腿上，再射到你的手臂上，告訴你

you to get up and stand up and go to the refrigerator and get a cheese sandwich — that’s my

你站起來，站起來，去冰箱裡拿一個奶酪三明治--那是我的。

cheese monster talking. And my cheese monster will never be satisfied

奶酪怪獸說話。我的奶酪怪獸永遠不會滿足

by cheddar, only the cheese of accomplishment.

由切達，只有成就的奶酪。

Let me think about the people who I care about the most, and how when they fail or disappoint

讓我想一想我最關心的人，當他們失敗或失望的時候

me… I still love them, I still give them chances, and I still see the best in them.

我... 我仍然愛他們，我仍然給他們機會， 我仍然看到他們最好的一面。

Let me extend that generosity to myself.

讓我把這種慷慨的態度推廣到自己身上。

Let me find and use metaphors to help me understand the world around me and give me the strength

讓我找到並使用隱喻來幫助我理解周圍的世界，給我力量。

to get rid of them when it’s apparent they no longer work.

當它們明顯不再起作用時，就把它們扔掉。

Let me thank the parts of me that I don’t understand or are outside of my rational control

讓我感謝那些我不理解或不在我理性控制範圍內的部分吧

like my creativity and my courage. And let me remember that my courage is a wild

比如我的創造力和我的勇氣。讓我記住，我的勇氣是一個野生的。

dog. It won’t just come when I call it, I have

狗。它不會只在我叫它的時候來，我有

to chase it down and hold on as tight as I can.

去追趕它，並儘可能地緊緊抓住它。

Let me not be so vain to think that I’m the sole author of my victories and a victim

讓我不要妄自菲薄地認為我是唯一的勝利者和受害者

of my defeats. Let me remember that the unintended meaning

的失敗。讓我記住，無意中的意義

that people project onto what I do is neither my fault or something I can take credit for.

人們把我的行為歸咎於我的過錯或我的功勞。

Perfectionism may look good in his shiny shoes but he’s a little bit of an asshole and

完美主義也許穿上他那雙亮晶晶的鞋子很好看，但他有點混蛋，而且

no one invites him to their pool parties.

沒有人邀請他去他們的泳池派對。

Let me remember that the impact of criticism is often not the intent of the critic, but

讓我記住，責備的影響往往不是批評者的意圖，而是......。

when the intent is evil, that’s what the block button’s for.

當意圖是邪惡的，這就是阻止按鈕的作用。

And when I eat my critique, let me be able to separate out the good advice from the bitter

當我吃到我的責備時，讓我能夠把好的建議從苦澀中分離出來。

herbs.

藥材。

(There are few people who won’t be disarmed by a genuine smile

(很少有人不被真誠的微笑所打動的)

A big impact on a few can be worth more than a small impact)

對少數人的影響很大，可以說是價值連城，而不是影響很小)

Let me not think of my work only as a stepping stone to something else, and if it is, let

讓我不要把我的工作只當作是通往其他東西的墊腳石，如果是，就讓

me become fascinated with the shape of the stone.

我對這塊石頭的形狀很著迷。

Let me take the idea that has gotten me this far and put it to bed.

讓我把這個讓我走到現在的想法付諸實踐。

What I am about to do will not be that, but it will be something.

我將要做的不會是這些，但會是一些事情。

There is no need to sharpen my pencils anymore. My pencils are sharp enough.

我的鉛筆不用再削了。我的鉛筆已經很鋒利了。

Even the dull ones will make a mark.

即使是呆板的人也會留下痕跡。

Warts and all. Let’s start this shit up.

疣和所有。讓我們開始這個狗屎了。

And god let me enjoy this. Life isn’t just a sequence of waiting for things to be done.

而上帝讓我享受這一切。生活不只是一連串的等待，等待事情的完成。