My teenage years, I think the first woman I ever loved.

我的少女時代，我想是我愛過的第一個女人。

We had big break up and that breakup sent me down in depression and suicidal planning.

我們鬧了個大分手，那次分手讓我陷入了抑鬱症和自殺計劃中。

And it's tough to dispense advice to people other than get help.

而除了得到幫助之外，很難給人發放建議。

And I'll share why?

我就分享一下為什麼？

Because that time in my life I had so many people coming up to me, you know, my friends would come into my dorm room.

因為那個時候在我的生活中，我有很多人向我走來，你知道，我的朋友們會來到我的宿舍。

Brennan.

布倫南。

Let's go do something and you just They're just the hope is lost.

讓我們去做一些事情，你只是 他們只是希望失去。

And what people I think the mistake of trying to do is height people up.

而人們我認為想做的錯誤是把人抬高。

Everything's gonna be okay.

一切都會好起來的

Great.

厲害

The most important thing is when you are super down outside of finding that emotional reasoning for where you are is to start getting momentum because with momentum comes hope.

最重要的是，當你超級低落的時候，在找到自己所處的情緒理由之外，最重要的是開始獲得動力，因為有動力就有希望。

With momentum comes motivation.

有了動力就有了動力。

With momentum comes, uh, you know, that feeling that there's a reason for tomorrow and so it's a simple is just saying, Okay, what are three things I'm gonna do today, dude, Sometimes that first goal is I'm gonna shower today.

有了動力，嗯，你知道，這種感覺 有一個明天的原因，所以它是一個簡單的 只是說，好吧，什麼是三件事 我今天要做的，夥計，有時，第一個目標 是我今天要去洗澡。

I'm really in shower today.

我今天真的是在洗澡。

Uh, I'm gonna walk to the library on, Come home on.

呃，我要去圖書館走走，回家吧。

That's all they got way literally.

這就是他們得到的全部方式，從字面上看。

That's all they got.

這就是他們的全部。

And you gotta honor that struggle when you're in that place.

當你在那個地方的時候，你要尊重這種鬥爭。

Like know that where you're at it is okay that you're there, and now you're gonna need help.

就像知道你在哪裡它是好的，你在那裡，現在你會需要幫助。

And now you're gonna have to set up some daily practices just everyday win a little bit.

而現在你要建立一些日常的做法，只是每天贏一點。

Not like when your dreams not like, crush through goals.

不喜歡當你的夢想不喜歡，通過目標粉碎。

Not like me.

不像我

That ass Not like no, just Momenta, man.

屁股... ...不像沒有，只是Momenta，男人。

Mhm, gloomy and bad.

嗯，陰沉沉的，不好。

Dark days.

黑暗的日子。

Trust that those are going to be there, they'll get less and less and less is you learn how to cope but they're gonna be there.

相信這些都會存在，他們會越來越少，越來越少是你學會如何應對，但他們會在那裡。

And so when they're there, it's one of the e outside of teaching people to bring the joy in my life e teach people honor the struggle Honor the difficulty when we honor the struggle instead of hate the struggle waken really achieve extraordinary things because our mindsets in the right place in your hands this very moment is your journey the journey that allows you to be someone fueled by your potential Take the risk that allow you to become something more that allow you to change your view on life that allow you to look through a different pair of eyes, one that grants you the power to see something.

所以當他們在那裡的時候，這是在教人們帶來快樂的生活之外的一個e教人們尊重鬥爭尊重困難當我們尊重鬥爭而不是憎恨鬥爭時，喚醒真正實現非凡的事情，因為我們的心態在正確的地方在你的手中這一刻是你的旅程這個旅程讓你成為一個被你的潛力所激發的人承擔風險，讓你成為更多的東西，讓你改變你對生活的看法，讓你通過不同的眼睛看，一個賦予你看到一些東西的力量。

And they know how to change it, to look at life as an opportunity, an opportunity to feel like somebody knew someone with the potential that can keep moving forward.

而且他們知道如何改變它，把生活看成是一個機會，一個讓人感覺到有人認識有潛力的人，可以繼續前進的機會。

Set yourself your own rules.

給自己定個規矩。

Like why play by someone else's rules when you consent?

比如你同意了，為什麼要按別人的規則來玩？

Rules that help you become the best version of yourself rules that don't hold you back but rules that pull you forward.

幫助你成為最好的自己的規則規則，不是讓你退縮，而是拉你前進的規則。

Be grateful for the position you're in and be grateful for the chance to give it one more go.

要感謝自己所處的位置，感謝自己有機會再給一次機會。

This opportunity could be wasted, but being here gives you the drive to put any effort for your future.

這個機會可能會被浪費，但在這裡，你就有了為自己的未來付出任何努力的動力。

She's so many people, um hmm, stuff in the same routine and they hate it.

她這麼多人，嗯嗯，東西在同一個套路里，他們很討厭。

They hated they're not happy in life.

他們恨不得自己的生活不快樂。

They're not happy with whatever they're doing.

他們無論做什麼都不開心。

You know, Andi, if you advise from me, if that's your lie right now, go find something else.

你知道，安迪，如果你從我這裡得到的建議，如果這是你現在的謊言，去找別的東西。

Just try.

試試吧

Try something else out.

試試其他的東西。

You know, if you're miserable in Alive and Andi, I've actually been miserable people, people can.

你知道嗎，如果你在《活著》和《安迪》裡很慘，其實我一直都是很慘的人，大家可以。

Naturally, even though they have everything, you know, you see super successful people in life, and you think there's no way they are miserable.

自然，即使他們擁有一切，你知道，你看到生活中的超級成功人士，你會覺得他們不可能是痛苦的。

But that's that's not the case, you know, even though you are.

但事實並非如此，你知道，即使你是。

So it's also doing while you can still help about this.

所以這也是趁著你還能幫到這個忙的時候做的。

I have gone through some very difficult times.

我經歷了一些非常困難的時期。

The ones with you, Andi lately.

最近和你在一起的那些人，安迪。

In the last 23 years, I've been going through so very hard times so very, very hard times on board.

在過去的23年裡，我在船上經歷了非常非常艱難的時期，非常非常艱難的時期。

I haven't been very open about that.

我還沒有很坦誠地對待這個問題。

Um, yeah, it's been very tough for me.

嗯，是的，這對我來說是非常艱難的。

I e had to deal with some some some difficult things that I I couldn't control less life like I'm human like everyone else.

我不得不處理一些一些一些困難的事情，我 我不能控制少的生活，就像我是人，像其他人。

I have feelings.

我有感情。

I go through hardships like everyone else, and sometimes you put into difficult positions on that's life.

我像其他人一樣經歷了困難，有時你把困難的位置上，這就是生活。

It's very unfair.

這是非常不公平的。

E The more things were talked about, more comfortable, we are, and the more we can understand them.

E事情談得越多，越舒服，我們就越能理解。

Uh, when I woke up one morning and saw that in a tweet that Prince Harry came out talking about his depression, it made me really happy because I have been places and someone who said, well you lost normal legs.

呃，當我有一天早上醒來，看到在推特上，哈里王子出來談他的抑鬱症，這讓我真的很高興，因為我去過的地方，有人說，你失去了正常的腿。

So you have the right to be depressed.

所以你有權利鬱悶。

And I stopped him.

我阻止了他。

I was like, depression is really?

我當時就想，抑鬱症真的嗎？

You don't You don't have to go through something traumatic.

你不... ...你不需要經歷一些創傷性的事情。

Some are caused by you know, something traumatic.

有些是由你知道的，一些創傷引起的。

Some could be a chemical balance in the brain.

有的可能是大腦中的化學平衡。

And I feel like if you had heart problems and sorry, cardiologists, well, everyone will be concerned about you would know you're doing better.

而且我覺得如果你有心臟問題，對不起，心臟專家，好了，大家會關心你會知道你做得更好。

And it would be open and honest with the crew Anybody you worked with, but the most complicated organ in your body If you have a problem with it, suddenly there's a We don't wanna talk about that.

而且會和劇組的人開誠佈公，但你身體裡最複雜的器官，如果你有問題，突然就會有一個我們不想談的問題。

No.

不知道

And you can get over it.

而且你可以克服它。

And that's what people need to realize you can be cured.

而這也是人們需要認識到你是可以治癒的。

You can get past it.

你可以通過它。

Today is your day to tell your story to speak your mind.

今天是你講述你的故事，說出你的想法的日子。

To tell the truth about your future.

要告訴你未來的真相。

To speak about the power you've always had, the potential you've always had.

要講你一直以來的力量，你一直以來的潛力。

This is how you succeed.

這就是你的成功之道。

You will be your power.

你將成為你的力量。

You have this power.

你有這個權力。

Communicate your problems, communicate the power You know that you have.

溝通你的問題，溝通你知道你擁有的力量。

This is the beginning of your power.

這是你力量的開始。

The start of your progress Take every day as an opportunity to be better every day toe Have the power to try something new to become something new.

你進步的開始 把每一天都當作機會，讓你每天都變得更好 有能力去嘗試新的東西，成為新的東西。

This is where your progress can be.

這就是你的進步之處。

Kick started.

啟動。

Accelerate your life into your direction Now isn't the time to wait Now isn't the time toe waste Let this be the power that takes you towards your success.

加速你的生活走向你的方向，現在不是等待的時候，現在不是浪費的時候，讓它成為帶你走向成功的力量。

This is the opportunity you've earned.

這是你贏得的機會。

This is the potential you've always had.

這就是你一直以來的潛力。

Step out of the crowd and step into your success.

走出人群，走進你的成功。

E would lay in my bed on Just want to die e didn't want to exist.

躺在我的床上，只想死，不想存在。

I wanted to anesthesiologist to come and give me a shot Like my soul was just on e At the time, I was in a belief system where there was an afterlife and so that wasn't possible.

我想讓麻醉師來給我打一針，就像我的靈魂就在身上一樣 當時，我的信仰體系裡有來世，所以這是不可能的。

You couldn't get you couldn't be gone.

你不能得到你不能走。

You were around forever, no matter what you did.

你永遠在身邊，不管你做了什麼。

And in fact, if you took your life, you you're not behaving in a way that this belief system, you know, reward you.

事實上，如果你把你的生活，你... ...你的行為方式，這個信念系統，你知道，獎勵你。

And so I was trapped in existence and it was the worst feeling the entire world.

於是我被困在了存在，這是整個世界最糟糕的感覺。

But I had no out but not only that, I had kids, so I had, like, I felt responsible for being a father on.

但我沒有出來，但不僅如此，我有孩子，所以我有一樣，我覺得有責任為一個父親上。

So I was building Braintree on, you know, I had challenges at home with my significant other on.

所以我在建造Braintree的時候，你知道，我和我的另一半在家裡遇到了挑戰。

I had kids who are sleeping.

我有孩子，他們都在睡覺。

I was myself 24 7, having companies break and like, all the pressure and just drove me into the ground to a point, I just I was just delirious.

我是我自己24 7，有公司打破 和喜歡，所有的壓力，只是把我趕到地面 到一個點，我只是我只是神志不清。

I mean, I was broke.

我是說，我破產了。

Um, I climbed Mount Kilimanjaro at the tail end of the situation and I got sick.

嗯，我爬上了乞力馬扎羅山的尾巴，我生病了。

I got a stomach virus and, like, three or four days and I had the virus through a couple days.

我得了胃病毒，而且，三四天一樣，我通過幾天的病毒。

Plus, I was out.

另外，我也不在。

I was sick with altitude sickness on.

我是暈高症上。

I just felt terrible, like the worst I've ever felt.

我只是覺得很可怕，就像我有史以來最糟糕的感覺。

And we got to base camp.

然後我們到了大本營。

There were 15,000 something and e had to make a decision where I'm gonna climb to the top of the next morning.

有15,000個東西，e不得不做出決定，第二天早上我要爬到哪裡去。

And I thought still it I'm not going to back down from this.

我想還是它我不會退縮的。

And so I did it.

於是我就這麼做了。

And the four hours the sum.

而四個小時的總和。

It changed my life where the mountain became my problem and it became a representation of my life.

它改變了我的生活，在這裡，山成了我的問題，它成了我生活的代表。

And I start listening to Eminem, my favorite artist, and his his defiance against the problems.

我開始聽埃米納姆的歌，我最喜歡的藝術家， 和他的他對問題的反抗。

Anyways, I e committed to the top, and I just broke down and cried.

無論如何，我E承諾的頂部， 我只是打破了，哭了。

And it was It was the mountain was my depression.

而它是它是山是我的抑鬱症。

It was my marriage.

這是我的婚姻。

Um, it was my belief system on, um mm.

嗯，這是我的信仰體系上，嗯嗯。

I went home and I was changed.

我回家後，我變了。

I sold.

我賣了。

I sold my company shortly after Braintree.

我在Braintree之後不久就賣掉了我的公司。

I got a divorce.

我離婚了

I left my religion and I was back at my 21 year old age.

我離開了我的宗教，我在21歲的時候又回來了。

And I said, What am I like What?

我說，我像什麼什麼？

How did I rewrite myself from scratch?

我是如何從頭開始改寫自己的？

What I care about what matters, what exists.

我關心的是什麼，存在的是什麼。

What's true.

什麼是真實的。

It's not true, E.

這不是真的，E。