Jimmy battled brain cancer from February of 2019 to September of 2019, and as we approached mid September, I had to confront the very real reality that we were losing the battle to this tumor.

從2019年2月到2019年9月，吉米一直在與腦癌作鬥爭，當我們接近9月中旬時，我不得不面對一個非常真實的現實，那就是我們正在輸給這個腫瘤。

Towards the end of his life, Jimmy had multiple seizures daily, was losing mobility in his limbs, circling incessantly and stopped interacting with me and his siblings.

在生命的最後，吉米每天都有多次癲癇發作，四肢失去了活動能力，不停地轉圈，也不再與我和他的兄弟姐妹交流。

I knew it was time to put him down, but getting to that decision was incredibly difficult.

我知道是時候把他放下來了，但要做出這個決定是非常困難的。

Congress's eating right now.

國會現在正在吃飯。

Can you hear it?

你能聽到嗎？

I didn't want to Dio.

我不想迪奧。

Uh huh.

嗯哼。

I didn't want to do euthanasia before.

我以前不想做安樂死。

I tried everything I could to save him.

我想盡辦法救他。

But I also didn't want to extend his suffering if death was inevitable just because I didn't want to let him go.

但我也不想因為不想讓他走，就延長他的痛苦，如果死亡是不可避免的。

So when you're deciding whether or not to put a pet down, there are some factors to consider Now there are quality of life scales that exists out there that you can look at or take quizzes off.

所以當你在決定是否要把寵物放下來的時候，要考慮一些因素現在有一些生活品質的尺度存在，你可以看一下，或者是測驗一下。

Most of them have very similar variables, but before I jump into that, I do want to take into consideration financial situations.

他們中的大多數人都有非常相似的變量，但在我跳進這個問題之前，我確實想考慮到財務狀況。

I know that I'm in a really privileged position.

我知道，我的地位非常優越。

I was able and willing to pay thousands and thousands of dollars to try any treatment for Jimmy that the vet recommended.

我有能力也願意花幾千幾萬的錢去嘗試獸醫推薦的任何治療方法給吉米。

But having worked in veterinary hospitals in my teenage years, I know that that is not an option for everyone.

但我十幾歲就在獸醫院工作，我知道這不是每個人的選擇。

So, of course, if your pet is terminally ill, you may have to put them down before you feel comfortable doing so.

所以，當然，如果你的寵物得了絕症，你可能要先把它們放下來才放心。

And if that's the case, it's okay.

如果是這樣的話，也沒關係。

I want you to know it's OK.

我想讓你知道它的確定。

You could measure your pets quality of life with five of these key concepts.

你可以用以下五個關鍵概念來衡量寵物的生活品質。

One.

一。

Do they have more good days than bad?

他們的好日子比壞日子多嗎？

This was huge for me, and once Jimmy started having more bad days than good, I knew it was probably time.

這對我來說很重要，一旦吉米開始有更多的壞日子，而不是好日子，我知道可能是時候了。

It's also helpful to track this with a calendar or something so you can gain more objectivity in this very emotional time to mobility.

用日曆之類的東西來追蹤也是很有幫助的，這樣你就可以在這個非常情緒化的時候獲得更多的客觀性，以流動性。

How well can they move?

他們的行動能力有多強？

Is it difficult to just get up and eat?

難不成只是起床吃飯？

Can they clean themselves?

他們能自己清洗嗎？

Cats in particular are very prideful animals, So once Jimmy started losing a lot of his mobility, we knew it was going to affect his psyche.

尤其是貓咪是非常自尊的動物，所以一旦吉米開始失去很多行動能力，我們就知道會影響到它的心理。

Cats wanna hide pain and be dignified and the inability to do that along with the confusion of no longer having control over their bodies to the humiliation of falling down into their own feces or urine.

貓咪想掩飾痛苦，想有尊嚴，而無法做到這一點的同時，也無法再控制自己的身體的困惑，以至於陷入自己的糞便或尿液中的羞辱。

It's gonna have a huge negative impact on their mental health on top of the physical difficulty that they're experiencing.

這會對他們的心理健康產生巨大的負面影響，除了身體上的困難，他們正在經歷。

Three.

三號

Are they in pain?

他們痛苦嗎？

That's a big one, my vet said.

我的獸醫說，這是個大問題。

You can usually tell an animals in pain when they completely stop interacting.

當動物完全停止互動的時候，你通常可以判斷出它們的痛苦。

They don't do the things they love anymore.

他們不再做他們喜歡的事情了。

They don't seek you out for pets or cuddles.

他們不會找你當寵物或擁抱。

If that was their normal behavior prior to illness they isolate usually in a closet or under a bed, they completely withdraw for how well are they eating and drinking?

如果這是他們生病前的正常行為，他們通常會隔離在衣櫃裡或床底下，他們完全退出，因為他們的飲食狀況如何？

Are meals difficult?

飯菜難吃嗎？

Do you have to hand feed them or convince them to eat?

你是要親手餵它們，還是要說服它們吃飯？

Are they rapidly losing weight?

他們的體重是否迅速下降？

I mean, this is a red flag for obvious reasons, and the final factor five is you.

我的意思是，這是一個紅旗，原因很明顯，最後的因素五是你。

This one was hard, but a lot of friends, and also a lot of vets that I consulted brought this up.

這個很難，但很多朋友，也有很多諮詢過的獸醫提出來。

How is this affecting you?

這對你有什麼影響？

Are you financially able to support your pet down this road.

你是否有經濟能力支持你的寵物走上這條路。

Is it a more compassionate choice for the both of you to end the suffering Now?

現在就結束痛苦，對你們倆來說，是不是一個更有同情心的選擇？

Does the illness require you to be at home all the time to monitor them?

疾病是否需要你一直在家監控他們？

I work from home, so I was able to be there more often for Jimmy on track his seizures throughout the day.

我在家裡工作，所以我能夠更經常地在那裡為吉米跟蹤他的癲癇發作一整天。

But I know that this is not a realistic option for people with a 9 to 5.

但我知道，對於朝九晚五的人來說，這不是一個現實的選擇。

And I've had a lot of friends who went down the road of trying absolutely everything to save their pet and Onley turning to euthanasia when they had to.

我有很多朋友為了拯救他們的寵物，想盡了一切辦法，而安利在不得已的情況下轉而實施安樂死。

And I can say that they all regret it because even though they suffered, their pet suffered more.

而我可以說，他們都很後悔，因為他們雖然受苦，但他們的寵物更受苦。

And those friends wish that they had had the strength and the bravery and the compassion to end the suffering for their pet before it got that bad.

而那些朋友們也希望自己有力量、有勇氣、有同情心，在寵物變得那麼糟糕之前為它結束痛苦。

And it's hard because it feels like when you choose euthanasia, you're killing your baby.

而這很難，因為當你選擇安樂死時，感覺就像你在殺死你的孩子。

But euthanasia is and can be a gift I chose in in home euthanasia because Jimmy hates the vet.

但安樂死是也可以是一份禮物 我選擇在家安樂死是因為吉米討厭獸醫。

I mean, who doesn't?

我的意思是，誰不這樣做？

And I wanted him to be able to just pass peacefully in the house.

而我希望他能夠在家裡安然度過。

And if you go this route, just you know what to expect.

如果你走這條路，只要你知道會發生什麼。

Someone will come.

會有人來的。

And there are three injections that they'll dio.

而且有三種注射方式，他們會迪奧。

The first injection is to relax them.

第一針是放鬆他們。

The second one is an anesthetic which will just completely knock them out and make them stop feeling altogether.

第二種是一種麻醉劑，它可以將他們徹底打暈，讓他們完全沒有感覺。

And the third injection that they get stops their heart.

而第三針，他們得到的停止他們的心臟。

E was really lucky.

E真的很幸運。

I had a lot of friends come over and support me saying goodbye to my son and I chose to cremate him, and I'll show you, actually, what you get.

我有很多朋友過來支持我跟兒子告別，我選擇了火化他，我給你看看，其實，你得到了什麼。

Um, e chose to cremate him, and you get You can choose also to get, like, a little pop print like this, and you should take, like, 14 days to get this back.

嗯，我選擇了火化他，你得到 你也可以選擇，喜歡，一個小的流行打印這樣的， 你應該採取一樣，14天得到這個回來。

This is actually Phoebe, my first cat, but Jimmy will come home soon.

這其實是菲比，我的第一隻貓，但吉米很快就會回家。

And if you're watching this video because you're in the position off wondering, is it time?

如果你看這個視頻是因為你在想，是時候了嗎？

First time I'm so sorry you have to make that.

第一次，我很抱歉，你要做的。

I remember I was Googling I was Google searching when this first happened to me.

我記得我在谷歌我在谷歌搜索的時候，這第一次發生在我身上。

And it's just automatically crying like this is such a horrible thing.

而且是自動哭著說這是多麼可怕的事情。

So, like I have to deal with.

所以，就像我要處理。

Um But what I found most comforting in this time is the following words from my therapist, Jimmy found a loving and wonderful mother.

嗯 但在這段時間裡，我覺得最讓我欣慰的是我的治療師說的下面這句話，吉米找到了一個充滿愛心的好媽媽。

And you that is a part of life that transcends time and gets to be yours Always.

而你，是生命中超越時間的一部分，可以永遠屬於你。

Your time with your pet is yours always.

你和寵物在一起的時間永遠是你的。

And you'll know when it's time to let them go.

你就會知道什麼時候該讓他們走。

It's a very brave, compassionate and really hard decision.

這是一個非常勇敢、富有同情心的決定，也是非常艱難的決定。

But I and your for baby trust that you will do right by them who I'm in a Khanna go adopt a couple of fucking cats and love them for me.

但我和你的為寶貝信任，你會做正確的他們誰我在一個Khanna去採用一對他媽的貓和愛他們為我。

Goodbye.

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