Name: 如何出櫃 (how I came out (and what my parents think))
Uploaded: 2020-10-23T23:14:49.000Z
Duration: 5 min 35 s

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I never felt like I could fully own my label as a bisexual for a bunch of reasons.

我從來沒有覺得自己可以完全擁有雙性戀的標籤，原因有很多。

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When I was 11 or 12 I had a crush on a girl and I told my friend she was like Anna, you're just trying to be interesting.

我11、12歲的時候，我喜歡上了一個女孩，我告訴我的朋友，她說："安娜，你只是想變得有趣。

So I have internalized that I'm just a straight girl trying to be interesting to buy.

所以我已經內定，我只是一個直女，想買有趣的東西。

Sexuality is a spectrum, and for the most part, I mean, my pie chart leans more towards being attracted to men.

性是一個譜系，在大多數情況下，我的意思是，我的餅圖更傾向於被男人吸引。

So it felt weird to say I was bisexual if I mostly felt attracted to men.

所以，如果我大部分時間覺得自己被男人吸引，說自己是雙性戀，感覺很奇怪。

And finally, I'd never been physical with the woman.

最後，我從來沒有和那個女人發生過肉體關係。

So how can you really affirm your bisexuality if you've never got down and dirty with a lady?

所以，如果你從來沒有和女士們上床，又怎麼能真正肯定你的雙性戀身份呢？

I talked to some amazing queer women, like actually Perez and Gabby Done and Stevie Bobby, who basically said, If you're attracted to both sexes, you're bisexual.

我和一些了不起的同志女性聊過，比如其實佩雷斯和加比-多恩還有史蒂夫-鮑比，他們基本上都說，如果你被兩種性別吸引，你就是雙性戀。

Doesn't matter what your percentages are.

It doesn't matter if you've been with a girl.

If you like both you like both and then I was physically with the woman.

如果你兩個都喜歡你就兩個都喜歡，然後我就和那個女人身體。

Two women at the same time, ways dirt on my shoulder.

兩個女人在同一時間，方式汙垢在我的肩膀。

I love and respect those women very much.

And finally I got drunk and I won an award at Buffer Festival.

最後我喝醉了，我在Buffer節上得了個獎。

And when I was allowed to engrave this award, I did this.

而當我被允許刻這個獎狀時，我就這樣做了。

And then I promptly sent it to my parents because I figured it's easier news to stomach for Asian parents if it's engraved on an award.

然後我馬上把它發給了我的父母，因為我想如果把它刻在獎狀上，亞洲父母更容易接受這個消息。

And I always thought I wasn't going to come out publicly because, for one, I don't wanna get to monetize on YouTube and two because I made this really embarrassing video years ago about how it was okay for me to kiss the same sex when I was in a relationship, because this is very grand and trying to be really fun.

我一直以為我不會公開出櫃，因為，第一，我不想在YouTube上賺錢，第二，因為幾年前我做了這個非常尷尬的視頻，關於我在戀愛時親吻同性是如何的好，因為這是非常宏大的，並試圖成為真正的樂趣。

But then I got drunk at the stream, is and won another award.

但後來我在溪邊喝醉了，是又得了一個獎。

人們比以往任何時候都更需要我們。

Marginalized groups need us more than ever.

邊緣化群體比以往任何時候都更需要我們。

I'm not only ah, woman of color, but I'm also a queer woman.

我不僅是啊，女人的顏色， 但我也是一個同志的女人。

I can on Lee come out with my sexuality when I'm inebriated and winning in some capacity.

我可以在李上出我的性慾，當我醉酒並以某種身份獲勝。

Here's what my parents had to say about me being by.

Well, I'm not a participant, but none of my business.

好吧，我不是參與者，但不關我的事。

I got a lot of cousins that lesbians and gay.

我有很多表兄妹都是女同性戀和男同性戀

You mean like you wish Mom was my first date with a girl?

你是說你希望媽媽是我第一次和女孩約會嗎？

So those songs that I kissed a girl, I kissed a girl and I like it.

所以那些我吻了一個女孩的歌，我吻了一個女孩，我喜歡。

Do you care if I end up with a man or a woman?

你在乎我最後是和男人還是女人在一起嗎？

As long as you're happy, I really don't care.

Mhm E would have to believe it from the fact that it exists in a lot of cultures.

從很多文化中存在的事實來看，E不得不相信。

摩門教徒，他們相信一夫多妻制。

Uh, they're very happy with multiple partners.

呃，他們對多個合作伙伴非常滿意。

Well, if it works for them, it's not my business.

好吧，如果這對他們有用，那就不關我的事了。

但你是一夫一妻制，一夫一妻制？

Yes, I've already I've already broached the question with your mother.

是的，我已經... ...我已經跟你媽媽提過這個問題了。

No, but I did like my teacher before in high school.

沒有，但我以前在高中時確實喜歡我的老師。

She is really pretty like her, but not like it.

但我喜歡這種方式和麵孔的樣子。

I have looked at men and thought I bet women would literally like him based on the way he looks.

我看過男人，覺得根據他的長相，我打賭女人一定會真的喜歡他。

你有沒有質疑過自己的性取向？

I just want to do it with Daddy and nobody else.

我只想和爸爸一起做，沒有其他人。

Oh, he told us that you will not consider a threesome at any point ever.

哦，他告訴我們，你不會考慮在任何時候3P。

No, I'm kind of kind of old fashioned, I think.

When I sent you that message, I thought it was Photoshopped Photo E.

我給你發資訊的時候，還以為是Photoshop的照片E。

Yes, because I didn't think that's something that they would present to you on stage in front of the cameras and a bunch of people.

是的，因為我不認為這是什麼 他們會呈現給你在舞臺上 在攝影機和一堆人面前。

Well, I didn't get it at first because I didn't know what the hell was like.

好吧，我一開始不懂，因為我不知道這到底是什麼樣子。