Name: 現在是2020年，我又開始情緒化了 (It's 2020 and I'm emo again)
Uploaded: 2020-10-09T19:21:54.000Z
Duration: 11 min 50 s

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R e used to be incredibly EMR Well, it's email with someone could be in Australia where it's super hot all the time e used to be really in my back in 2000 and seven slash 2000 and eight Those with my prime m o years 2000 and seven and 2000 and eight was great seven and eight for me.

我曾經是令人難以置信的EMR 嗯，它的電子郵件與某人可能是在澳洲，它的超級熱的所有時間 我曾經是真的在我的背部在2000年和7斜線2000年和8那些與我的黃金年代2000年和7年和2000年和8是偉大的7和8對我來說。

So it was the end of primary school in the start of high school and I don't really know what started it.

所以是小學結束在高中開始，我真的不知道是什麼原因開始的。

What triggered the m O to come out, but it it came out full force.

是什麼引發了m O的出現，但它它卻全力以赴。

It was a great time, but it was also a really bad time.

那是一段美好的時光，但也是一段非常糟糕的時光。

Generally, I was a pretty sad person, you know, I was very angsty.

一般來說，我是一個很悲傷的人，你知道，我是非常不安的。

I was a teenager, had all these feelings, and I didn't know what to do with them.

十幾歲的我，有了這些感受，也不知道該怎麼處理。

So they were expressed through, uh, style choices on today I'm gonna be trying to recreate Ah, little bit of that look, with makeup that I currently have, which is not that much stuff.

所以，他們通過表達，呃，風格的選擇上，今天我要去嘗試重現啊，一點點的外觀，與化妝，我目前有，這是不多的東西。

I had all these big, chunky wrist bands covered in spikes and I would wear, like, all of them at the same time.

我有所有這些大的，厚重的手腕帶 覆蓋在釘子和我會穿，喜歡，所有的人在同一時間。

I don't think I own anything from back in those days, so I'm just gonna do with my best.

我不認為我擁有任何東西 從回在那些日子， 所以我只是要做與我最好的。

With what I have while I put on some makeup, I was thinking we could reminisce together about, uh m o stuff.

在我化妝的時候，我有什麼，我在想我們可以一起回憶一下，呃，m o的東西。

So basically, I'm just gonna be doing a lot of a lot of black around my eyes of this color in this color.

所以基本上，我就會在我的眼睛周圍做很多很多的黑色的這個顏色的這個顏色。

I'm gonna just try things I'm not a makeup with.

我只想嘗試一下我不是化妝品的東西。

So I'm going to start with a red base and then put black over the top.

所以我打算先用紅色打底，然後在上面塗上黑色。

Also, I do already have just like a layer of BB cream monetarily, like wearing foundation that often because it's a My skin is very sensitive.

另外，我確實已經有了只是像一層BB霜monetarily，喜歡穿粉底，經常因為它是一個我的皮膚是非常敏感。

The first Emma music I ever listened to Waas My chemical romance I heard.

我聽過的第一首艾瑪音樂《華斯》《我的化學戀情》我聽過。

Welcome to the black parade on the radio that first that first note of Welcome to the Black parade and I was like, Oh, well, this is excellent.

歡迎來到黑人遊行的收音機上的第一個音符 歡迎來到黑人遊行，我當時想，哦，好吧，這是非常好的。

I think it was, and it just opened my whole world, too.

我想是的，它也打開了我的整個世界。

I finally felt like, Wow, this is something that I'm really interested in.

我終於覺得，哇，這是我真正感興趣的東西。

I love the music like this is all I can remember by that It's been so long that I can't remember every detail, but I don't know if the red there was any point of the red, But you know what?

我喜歡這樣的音樂，我只記得這一點，已經很久了，我不能記住每一個細節，但我不知道紅色是否有任何點的紅色，但你知道嗎？

So after I had this whole transformation at home where I knew the kind of thing that I wanted to be into and I was like understanding and learning about the world of em Oh, I was just so, so excited and so happy.

所以，在我有這樣的整個轉變，在家裡，我知道什麼樣的事情，我想成為，我是喜歡瞭解和學習的世界的EM哦，我只是如此，如此興奮，如此高興。

And I went to school and I started telling people I was like Guys, I'm m R now, guys, I'm anymore.

我去學校，我開始告訴人們我就像 夥計們，我現在是R，夥計們，我已經。

And at that point, everybody knew that it wasn't like cool to be email at that point people want that nice about it, E kind of understand, You know, if someone comes to school, they're like, guys, I'm anymore.

而在這一點上，每個人都知道，這是不喜歡很酷的電子郵件 在這一點上，人們希望，很好的關於它，E種理解，你知道，如果有人來學校，他們就像，夥計們，我再。

It's like, Well, I think I already felt a little bit misunderstood at school and in life.

就像，嗯，我想我已經覺得自己在學校和生活中被誤解了一點。

O made me feel accepted more in some ways, but also kind of rejected more in other ways.

O讓我覺得在某些方面被接受的多，但在其他方面也算是被拒絕的多。

And so it was Yeah, just in interesting time in life where I just became pretty sad.

所以，這是 是啊，只是在有趣的時間 在生活中，我只是變得非常悲傷。

But through this whole time, I started discovering more music.

但通過這段時間，我開始發現更多的音樂。

You know, I was so obsessed with a panic, a disco.

你知道嗎，我是那麼的痴迷於一場恐慌，一場迪斯科。

I know they're not like the most emo band out there, but I think they represent part of the M O era.

我知道他們不像是最emo的樂隊，但我認為他們代表了M O時代的一部分。

You know, I started out with the easier ones like Michael Prevents Full that boy panting and just go all time low.

你知道嗎，我開始的時候是比較簡單的，像邁克爾防止全，男孩氣喘吁吁，只是去所有的時間低。

And I think gradually, over time I started moving over to heaviest stuff.

我想隨著時間的推移，漸漸地，我開始轉向最重的東西。

Remember, I went to go see so many parkway drive concerts.

還記得，我去看了好多公園路開的演唱會。

I loved Parkway Drive and also but bring me the horizon.

我喜歡百匯大道，也但給我帶來地平線。

But a full out with this kind of you might have to reduce.

但全面出動用這種你可能要減少。

Um foundation feels weird without eyebrows.

嗯粉底液沒有眉毛感覺怪怪的。

如果這裡有人是布里斯班人，即：

That was Looks like, I guess, a little a little claim to fame for general information in Brisbane.

那是看起來，我想，布里斯班的一般資訊有點小名氣吧。

We have hungry jacks in the city area in Central and all the emos.

我們在中環的城市區域和所有的鴯鶓都有飢餓的傑克。

I don't know if they still do, but they used to go and sit out the front of Hungry Jacks.

我不知道他們是否還在這樣做，但他們曾經去坐在外面的飢餓傑克的前面。

Jack See Mars 有布里斯班的觀眾嗎？

I was in a regular, but I did go and chill there.

我是在一個普通的，但我確實去那裡寒暄了。

So I went to primary school and I graduated and went to high school and I was still pretty pretty Dang m r On gradually, I turned a bit more seen, you know, added a bit more color into my palate.

所以我上了小學，畢業了，上了高中，我還是很漂亮Dang m r On漸漸地，我變成了一個更多的看到，你知道，增加了一點顏色到我的味覺。

You know, I didn't have the best time at the start of high school, I had some really, really good friends, but also had e wasn't the easiest person to talk Thio.

你知道，我沒有最好的時間 在高中的開始，我有一些真的，真的很好的朋友，但也有e是不是最容易的人說話Thio。

I was still, you know, dealing with a lot of self discovery.

我還在，你知道，處理了很多自我發現的問題。

所以我的意思是，我們不都是這樣的嗎？

I wasn't super easy to approach and talk Thio or something, I don't know.

我並不是超級容易接近，談Thio什麼的，我不知道。

But e remember I used to feel so defensive all the time.

但我記得我以前總是覺得自己很防備。

It used to be so worried about people coming up in, like making fun of me when I waas a young boy, my father was thing about 2020 is My compartments had to cancel because in 2000 and eight I was supposed to go see my comic ornaments and I had to cancel because I had my first of a drama show, which ended up like Help me get into theater stuff and then shaped the rest of my future, which is great.

它曾經是如此擔心的人進來，像取笑我，當我waas一個年輕的男孩，我的父親是關於2020年的事情是我的車廂不得不取消，因為在2000年和八個我應該去看我的漫畫飾品，我不得不取消，因為我有我的第一個戲劇節目，這最終像幫助我進入劇院的東西，然後塑造了我的未來，這是偉大的其餘部分。

That happened and then, I suppose, see them 2000 and 10 or something, and then they had to cancel the tour, so I didn't see them then, and now it's finally going to see the first time my life couldn't see them because they had to cancel again.

那件事發生了，然後，我想，看到他們2000年和10年什麼的，然後他們不得不取消巡演，所以我當時沒有看到他們，現在終於要看到我人生第一次看不到他們，因為他們不得不再次取消。

Maybe if I see them all cry so hard that I just passed away.

也許如果我看到他們都哭得那麼厲害，我就這麼過去了。

Maybe it's all for the best, but still very, very, very, very sad.

也許這一切都是最好的，但還是非常非常非常難過。

Also, if you guys ever come to Tokyo and you're a little bit, um are they have a great selection of email music?

另外，如果你們來東京，你們有點，嗯，他們有沒有很好的郵件音樂選擇？

You should just go to karaoke and sing all your favorite.

你應該去卡拉OK，把你喜歡的都唱出來。

So, at school, we had this camp in grade 10 where you get sent away for a month.

所以，在學校裡，我們10年級有這個夏令營，你會被送走一個月。

You get sent basically to the middle of nowhere Outback Australia, and you have to learn how to survive.

你基本上被送到了澳洲的荒郊野外，你必須學會如何生存。

You support each other, you cook for each other and yourselves.

你們互相扶持，互相做飯，自己做飯。

When you're alone in the forest and you have a little tent and you reflect on life and stuff, it's really great.

當你一個人在森林裡，你有一個小帳篷，你思考生活和東西，這真的很好。

Uh, don't know how health and safety wise it is now, like if it's still allowed.

呃，不知道現在的健康和安全意識如何，比如是否還允許。

But it was absolutely wonderful during that month.

但在那一個月裡，它絕對是美好的。

You're not allowed to wear makeup or where any, like fashionable clothes or anything.

你不能化妝，也不能在哪裡化妝，比如時尚的衣服什麼的。

So everybody in my grade was kind of stripped down to being their course elves, you know, they didn't have makeup to hide behind or or clicks or anything we all had to work together, and we really got to know each other super well, which I think was my saving grace, because it meant that people got to know the real me rather than feeling worried about what I was wearing and everything.

所以我們年級的每個人都被剝去了衣服，成為他們的課程精靈，你知道，他們沒有化妝，沒有躲在後面，也沒有點擊或任何東西，我們都必須一起工作，我們真的很瞭解對方，超級好，我想這是我的救命稻草，因為這意味著人們可以瞭解真實的我，而不是擔心我的穿著和一切。

And we got to have really good conversations.

而且我們還進行了很好的交談。

And after that point, I kind of started to to move away from being super alternative.

而在那之後，我有點開始遠離超級另類。

I still waas, but I just kind of added a little bit more color here and that.

我仍然是華斯，但我只是在這裡多加了一點顏色，還有那種。

And I had other friends as well, and I kind of just went a little bit more chill with everything.

我也有其他的朋友，我有點只是去有點更冷淡的一切。

And after that point, I was like, Oh, being Emma was just a phase Being Emma was just a phase, and I'm totally fine.

在那之後，我就想，哦，成為艾瑪只是一個階段 成為艾瑪只是一個階段，我很好。

現在，我生命中的那部分已經結束了。