video. That's right. I really just wanted to make a video- a follow-up video (laughs)

影片了 沒錯，我就是想做一部跟進的影片(笑)

one of those. Of the video I made

就像我做過的一部影片

what was it called? Fuck, I don't remember.

它叫什麼來著? 幹，我不記得了

*Flashback* I've been doing youtube for seven years and I guess I'm really just tired of being in try-hard mode. Tired of trying

我當Youtuber七年了，我想我已經厭倦以努力模式來做影片了。應該說厭倦嘗試

that's right. I'm tired of trying. It's the kind of video

沒錯，我厭倦去嘗試了，用那種模式去做影片

I was really nervous about uploading because I didn't know what sort of reaction it would get, but I gotta say it was truly heartwarming

我對於上傳影片感到緊張，因為我無法想像會得到怎樣的反應，但我得說

to see how you guys understood where I was coming from and appreciating my honesty with the situation.

看到有人知道我如何走到這裡的，欣賞我的為人，我感到很暖心

Basically I've been sorta treating Youtube as a startup almost like I've been working crazy hours

基本上我有點覺得 Youtube 就像是我的工作了，我每天花很驚人的時間在這上面

Just stressing out over it for such a long time

我把心血投入在這裡好長一段時間

And I just realize I'm in a position where I just,

而我了解到我的處地

I want to take it a little bit more chill, and my approach this week to making videos has really just been like

我想要我的影片看起來更鎮定一點，而我近期拍影片的方式就像是，

What do I feel like doing today?

我今天感覺如何？

Do I feel like making this kind of video? Uh not really, but it would probably get more views.

我真的想做這種影片嗎？ 嗯...好像不是，但它可能可以得到很高的觀看次數

I've just been focusing on what I

我只想專注在

personally find really interesting, or fun to do.

我個人覺得有趣，或者好玩的事

I'm just really, really glad that you guys enjoy that shit 'cause

我真的真的很高興你們都跟我一樣享受我所感受到的鳥事

It's stuff that I enjoy making. It's sort of like a new direction of the channel, the fact that you guys enjoy it-

因為我做影片的過程中其實很享受，如果要談這頻道往後的方向，我會說只要你們享受

It really, really, really means a lot. Just because I feel, like

這對我來說真的真的真的別具意義，因為我覺得

I want to try less hard doesn't mean I don't care as much anymore

我不想那麼努力並不代表我不再在乎了

I really still do care a lot about you bros, that sounded pretty gay, um, you guys are

我還是很在乎你們 Bros，這聽起來有點Gay但...

okay I guess is what I'm trying to say. I've really been enjoying the player unknown videos, you guys seem to as well

OK我知道你們懂我說的，我很享受玩線上遊戲，你們似乎也是

I really been enjoying the fan interaction videos you guys seem as well

我很享受我跟你們之間的互動，你們也是

And I've really be enjoying just sharing and reacting to stuff that I personally

我也很高興能和你們一起分享我生活中的大小事

Find really interesting, and you guys have as well. really just the only point of this video

真的很有趣，你們也是，總之這部影片只有一個重點

is just for me to say thank you because I think it's really cool to have an audience that understands and

我想跟你們說謝謝，因為能有一群理解我和

Respects me I know maybe that's obvious

尊重的我觀眾是很酷的事情 我知道也許我表現得很明顯啦

But I really don't think it's the case for a lot of people on YouTube looking back at how I was treating YouTube

但我真的覺得如果我不這麼說，你們不會知道我以往是如何看待Youtube的

a couple months ago

幾個月前

It's very different from now. I had an office. I had a couple employees

這一切都和以往不同，我有了自己的辦公室，和一些員工

I had

我有了 呃...

I was running a business on the side. I was doing all these projects, but I found that

我正在經營一家企業。我在做所有這些項目，但我發現

these were all just things that I thought I had, that I thought I needed,

這是我一直以來都應該具備的，我個人

Personally because I thought I had to be more

所需要的，因為我想應該要更

"Professional" but I think in reality the more I try to be a professional

"專業一點" 但事實上我越想要變得專業

the more I sort of lost touch in and just the direct connection with with what's so good about Youtube

我就越來越迷失，去摸索與連接Youtube的優點

in the direct connection with your audience it sort of became layers upon myself

以及跟你們的關係，它有點成了層層連結起來的關係

And I don't know why I thought that was a good idea like obviously that's a terrible idea and personally these weren't even things I

我不知道為什麼我覺得這是個好主意，顯然這是個爛透了的想法，而且這些甚至不像我會做的事

Liked to begin with I don't like to travel and do other things

一開始我不太喜歡旅行，或做其他的事

I don't like to do other projects that I don't really care about but they'll bring in money these past two weeks have

即使它們會很快帶來財富，但我還是不會去做那些我不太在意的事

I've been so much happier as a person I've been so less stressed out just chill

我覺得自己變得更開心，也沒什麼壓力了，

I feel really good and I don't think I would be unless you guys was on the same page as me is

我感覺真的很好，我想，如果沒有你們的話我也不會站在這裡吧

What I'm trying to say, I don't know. I don't know what's next to be honest

我不知道我想要說什麼，老實說我連接下來會怎樣也不清楚

I'm just going to keep doing what I feel like doing that's really the plan here, but I love the videos

我想朝著我喜歡的方式去前進就是所謂的計畫吧，但我愛這些影片

Because they feel more like me than they did before

因為這樣比以前更像我

Because I passionately enjoy playing Battlegrounds, and I really love fucking shitting on different things

因為我很享受玩絕地求生，也他媽愛死了嘗試不同的事情

So I feel like I'm back in a way. I don't know if that makes any sense

我覺得我回到了從前，我不知道這樣說有沒有符合邏輯

I'm probably just rambling at this point, but at the end, I just want to say domo arigato (thank you.)

我可能就在這當下徘徊了吧。最後我想說 十分感謝 謝謝你們

thank you, for being a Sister Fister, and

謝謝你們，當我的姊妹然後

letting me

讓我

Be the kind of channel that I wanted to be I wouldn't be here without you

讓我決定我頻道的樣子，如果沒有你們，我不可能在這裡

So I'm never going to ignore you guys, but at the same time like I said

所以我永遠不會忽視你們，同樣的我想說

I really appreciate that you guys still respect where I want to take things. That's all

我真的非常感謝你們一直很尊重我的決定，就這樣了

I don't want to get too mopey and shit. Thank you guys so much

我不想去在乎得到什麼， 非常地感謝你們

domo(thanks), domo, domo, and I'll see you bros tomorrow with another video. And as always,

非常、非常、非常地 我們在明天的影片見，和平常一樣...

Sister Fister.

姊妹拳~~