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Hereis a recapofwhathappenedinmyyearbecauseyouguyskindofseemedtocareaboutmylifeforsomereasonthat I mayneverunderstand.
Butthankyou.
LastJanuary, I startedoutinkindof a weirdplace.
I verydepressedsometimes.
Firstofall, I hadthishair, whichwas a mistake.
ItSowe'relookingbackatvideosandphotosofthistimelastyearbecause I feellike I don't evenrecognizemyself.
Butwhyam I fake?
Smilingsofuckinghardofcamera?
WhyaremyeyebrowsdoingnothingwayMayneverknow.
InFebruary, I auditionedenjoined a theatercompanyoncampusbecauseFranceandsteppingoutofyourcomfortzone.
I don't know.
I learnedthatactingjusthoardimproviswayharder.
Thatissoscary.
Get a heartattackeverytime I doithereislikesuperawkwardheadshotforyourcompany.
I'm stillnotsurewhatmyhairisdoing.
I wantalsomypetitiontograduateinthreeyearsinsteadoffloor.
Gottaprovewhichisawesomebecauseoutofstatetuitionis a bitch.
InMarch, I downloadtinderforthefirsttime.
Thatwas a mistake.
I met a guy.
Relationshipsarething.
I listenedto a lotofeachyearinandwalkaroundcampussmilinglikealsoatthispoint, I wasinterningat a productioncompanywherebasicallySanibelclosetandreadscriptsforfreefuntimes.
Theonlyphotos I haveofmetherearethisoneofmeconsideringgettingbanks.
InApril, I started a newquarterinschoolwith a goodfeelingaboutthiswholeLosAngelesandlifethingingeneral.
I shouldbephotosonthegameofThrones, ThronesorGeekweekwithmyfriends, whereyou'retryingsohardtobebadass.
Butwelookridiculousstilllisteningto a lotofedgehereinstill a lotofstupidsmiling.
InthebeginningofMay, thingstook a funturn.
I sentmy 18thbirthdayfeelinglike I wanttothrowupcryingonthefloorofthebathroomclinicbecause I wasafraid I waspregnant.
Welcometoadulthood, Ashley.
GoodnewsOnthehairfront, I finallyrealizedthatnomatterhowmanytimes I dyemyhairplatinum, I'm notgonnalooklikeanInstagrammodel.
So I wentbacktomynaturalcolor.
I wenttoTFTProblem, whichisbasicallyjustanapartmentpartywheretheychargeyou $5 onthedoor.
Andthereare a disproportionatenumberofinsanetheaterkids.
Myboyfriendwasnotthere, and I wasnolongerlisteningtoEdSheeran.
But I discoveredthatnightthere's nothingunlimitedpancakesandgoodfriendscan't fixandlikethreemonthsofcryingmyselftosleepoverthesummer, and I wrappedupmyfirstyearincollege, finallyspendingtimewiththepeoplewhohadsupportedbealong, ofcourse, withmorepancakes.
And I mademyfirstfilmeverinfilmschool, whichisawesomebutalsoslightlyconcerningbecause I'm kindofgettingoldatthispoint.
I needtolearnhowtoactuallymakethings.
I shotiton R E s, whichislike a superarchaicactualfilmcamerafrom, like, theseventiesthatbreaksdownlikeeveryfiveseconds.
Butsomehowmyfilmturnedouthereis a supershittylikerecordingof a recording, sothequality's reallybad, but I'm gonnagetproperlydigitizedsometimesoonandthenshareitwithyouguysbecause I thinkyou'llreallylikeit.
Hopefully, I alsofoundoutthat I didn't getaninternshipthat I thought I hadnailedtheinterviewfor.
And I really, reallywantedoverthissummer, I thoughtthatonce I movedto L.
A andstartedcollege, youknow, I'd belikedoingbigthingsinHollywoodorwhatever, butyou I wasflyingbacktoMarylandtoworkthesameminimumwagejobat a nicecreamshopthat I'vebeenworkingsince, like, 10thgrade.
Soanyways, I flewbacktoMarylandtospendthesummerwithmyhighschoolfriends.
Weactuallyendeduphaving a blast.
Thiswasprobablythebestsummerofmylife.
I'm notgonnaputuppicturesoranythingforlegalreasons, but I willtellyouthatwehadanexcellentsummer I didtake a briefbreakfrommydegeneracyinAugusttogetmywisdomteethoutduringmyrecovery.
Inordertofeellikeslightlylessof a lump, I wentdriftingforthefirsttime, willingly, notdraggedalongbymysister.
Um, anditturnsoutthat I likedit.
I didmyfirstdrifthalland I startedsellingtheclothesonline, whichislike a hugepartofmyliferightnow.
A twoendofSeptember, I movedintomyfirstapartment, willnotmindtryingtoleave a publisherwithfiveoftherulesbecauserightand I alsoboughtmyfirstcar, and I kindofbecominganadultbydoingthisright.
Baby.
Octoberwas a blurofthrustingadventures, spookyshenanigansandlearninghowtobuygroceries, fixmycar, whichpromptlybrokerightafter I boughtit, andtryingnottocompletelydiein L.
A.
Traffic.
Alsoatthistime I droppedmyphoneinthetoiletforthesecondtimeinthebackhammerbroke, sophotosarekindoflimitedfromhereonoutinNovember, I actedinmyfirstplay.
I'm notsurethat I wasanygood, but I triedinDecemberfinalslapmerightintheballs.
I didn't leavemyapartmentfor, like, twoweeksstraightandwaspullingonlatersallthewayuntilmyflightthattookmebackhometoMaryland.
Thatprettymuchbringsmefullcircletopresent a Mi 28 teams.