I feelincrediblyuncomfortablewhenpeople I knowinreallifefindoutaboutmychannelfor, say, because I'm embarrassedbythecontentthat I made.
Butjustbecause I can't helpfeelingthathugepartoffthewholefashionbeautythingisjustincrediblysuperficialandselfindulgent, andthatmakesmefeellike a sellout.
Nomatterhowhard I try, I makemyapartment's reallynicethatasaestheticallypleasingaspossible.
But I actuallylivein a twobedroomapartmentwithfiveothergirls.
Sohee, I wasacceptedintoStanford.
But I turneditdowntousethislittledream, andyousee a light, whateverthatmeans, because I wasafraidthatif I didn't have a regretitfortherestofmylife, honestly, now I'm notsurewhichway.
Onceinjuniorhighschool, andoncelastyear, I seriouslyconsidereddroppingoutofschoollunchonetimeofyouryieldmeandofferedtopayme $1000 totake a videoofmyselfgetting a sock.
I grewupin a superexcitingtown.
Nevermademefeeloutofplaceexceptnecessity.
Really?
I'vegot a lotmorecommentsaboutit.
What?
I rememberonthefirstdayofthefirstinternship I everhad L A manheldmesilversexualthingsthat I was a tryingtousegirltryingtobewhite, like, terrifiesmeon a dailybasisthat I'm approachingtheageatwhichpeoplewantedthishouseisbecause I amaggressivelysingle.
I offeredtogiveupmycase.
Itisn't for a summerinternshipattheessay, I gottheinternship, although I neverendedupactuallygoingtoitbecause I lostmypassportandwasstuckintheUKfreshmanyearofhighschool.
As a kid, I wasterrifiedofthefurrycreaturesthathisnewhand, because I knewthatunderthemasktherewasprobablyangry, underpaidworkerssweatinghisballsoff.
I have a realproblemwithstresseating.
I don't knowwhattodoaboutit, butasmuchas I enjoydoingthisloveMiller's tobeaboutmorethanfashion.
But I thinkthiscandlecouldbethat.
I thinkwe'rereadyforkindofvideoslikethisandshortfilmsstuff.
I thinkthatwouldbegood.
I dohavehopethatthey'rekindoflike a bubblerightnow, andeventuallypeoplewouldjustgetfedupwithitandsay, That's enough.
I thinkeverybodyshouldworkatleastonejobinretailorfastfoodintheirlife.
I thinkitwouldjustmakepeople a lotmoreconsiderate.
I stillwatchthedailymailstopstoryallthetimeand I hatemyselfforit.
Somuch e feellike I'vespentmuchofmylifebeconsultingfortimesthat I I madepeacewithbeingsingle, and I thinkthatit's reallyimportanttobesinglefor a goodamountofyourlife's kindofwar.