I thinkthatwhat's happeningrightnowandwhatexcitesmetoseeis I feellikemodelingisbecominglessaboutlookingonecertainwayandmoreaboutcelebrating, likeallofthedifferentwaysthat a personcanpossiblyexist.
It's notthat I didn't thinkthat I couldmodel, butitjustneversomethingthat I thoughtwasgonnabelikeMystory.
Hi.
MynameisTessMcMillan, andwe'rehereinLondonFashionWeek, and I'm gettingreadytodotheSimoneRochashow, which I'm soexcitedfor.
Butbeforethat, I'm gonnatakeyouaroundformyday.
Andrightnow, I wasjustgettingreadytowriteinmyjournal a littlebit, whichiswhat I doeveryday.
Soone I feellikesuch a teenager.
AndlikeNo, don't look, I thinkeveryoneneedsatleastonesecret.
Thisismythirdtimewalking, andthistime I feel a littlebitbetter.
But I rememberlike, before I didmyfirstshow, I waslike, I'm notdoingshows.
I saidthattomyagent.
I waslike, I'm notdoingshowseverbecauseitjustlikeitscaredmesoterribly.
Butnow I'm kindofgettingmorecomfortableinit, and I'm findingmoreoftheexcitementofthejoyinit.
So I thinkthatit's abouttimetostartgettingready.
Thebathroomisshared, sothebiggestproblemthat I havewithmyskinpersonallyisthatitgetsreallydry.
Mybiggestthingisthat I wearsunscreeneverysingledaywithoutfail.
But I forgotmysunscreeninParis, which I'm justgonnahavetolike, letitgo.
Like I hadmylike, grilledcheeseonmychocolatemilkand I'm likethistleswhatit's likeandthelifeofanadult.
So I originallyandfrom a smalltowninEastTexascalledBeaumont, Andthenwhen I wasaroundeight, I movedtoAustinupuntilreallyjustlike a coupleofyearsago, themodelingindustryreallyexistedwithin.
Tomeplussize, it's justthetermthat's usedformodelsthataren't, youknow, uh, a youknow, sizezero.
I'm not a sizezero.
I'm about a U.
S.
Sizeeight.
Andsobecausepeoplearelike, Oh, whoa, wedon't have a labelforthat.
PeoplearelikeOkay, that's plussize.
I guess I rememberthefirsttimethat I evergot a hatecomment.
Itreally, reallyaffectedme.
Youknow, like I I had a reallyhardtimedealingwithit.
But, youknow, throughhelpfrommyfamily, especiallymymomandmybestfriends, I kindoflikestartedtoshiftmyfocusfromokay, there's somethingwrongwithmeandthere's notsomethingwrongwiththepeoplewhosaidit, but, like, I don't thinkthatanybodywhofeelsgoodaboutthemselveswouldtrytotakesomebodyelsedown.
Andsoonce I I realizethat I realize, like, okay, I canmoveforwardknowingthat, like, if I think I'm beautifulthanyouknow, what's tostopmefromdoinganything?
Okay, so I havetogettothismomentshownow I'm kindoflate, sowaygo.
I thinkbecauselasttime I hadsuch a pleasantexperiencewalkingfortheshow.
I feelreallycalm.
I knowthat I'm goingtogetthereandlikeeveryone's gonnatakecareofme.
I'm gonnabeworkingwithpeoplethat I reallyadmireandenjoyworkingwith.
So I justfeelreallycalmandexcited.
TheshowtodayisgonnabeatAlexandraPalace.
Andyesterday, when I wasdoingmyfitting, I wastalkingtosomeonewhosaidthattheBritishpeoplecallitAli.
Patty.
Sowe'regonnagowiththat.
Thatseemsofficial.
Wow, It's insaneway.
Thankyou.
So I havetowhisperrightnowbecause I'm beinginterviewedovertheirs.
We'regettingreadytogoontherunway, and I'm soexcited.
Thankyouguys, forpullingmearoundallday.
It's beensofun, butnow I havetocutmyEurostarbacktoParis.
I thinkthatwhat's happeningrightnowandwhatexcitesmetoseeis I feellikemodelingisbecominglessaboutlookingonecertainwayandmoreaboutcelebrating, likeallofthedifferentwaysthat a personcanpossiblyexist.