This'llissomethingthat I wish I hadgottenrealadviceonwhen I wasinmiddleschoolandhighschool, because I spentsomanyofthoseyearstryingtolookuponlinearticlesor, like, fillout a buzzfeedquiz.
Soit's just a matterofputtingyourselfouttheretryingtobethebesthumanyoucanbe.
Yeah, Andeventhoughhaving a boyfriendisreallynice, rememberthatyoudon't needone.
Youare a completehumanwithoutanybodyelse.
I feellikethere's somuchpressuretobein a relationship.
Beingin a goodrelationshipisbetterthanbeingsingle.
Butbeingin a badrelationshipfarworsethanbeingsingle, that's true.
Actually, myfirstgirlfriend, youarethefirstboy I everlookedat.
So I'm offended.
I stayedinmultiplebadrelationshipforwaylongerthan I shouldhavejustbecause I don't wanttobealone.
I don't wannabesingle.
I thoughtthatbeingsinglewithsomehowbeworsethanbeingin a terriblerelationship, andit's totallynotnextup, howtogetover a breakup.
I havebeendumpedonceandhad a mutualbreakuponce, and I knowthatgettingbrokenupwithit's sofuckingshittythingabout a breakupisitfeelsawful, butitfeelsreallyawful.
Physicalpain.
Yes, yougetphysicalevenwhenyoudothebreakingup.
Normally, you'vebeendatingthispersonforatleast a couplemonths.
They'vebeen a reallybigpartofyourlife.
Youmighthavelovedthem.
Itphysicallyhurts, anditfeels a lotworsethanitactuallyisforme.
I'd reallyliketokeepmyselfbusy, becauseif I givemyselftoomuchtime, I willjustwallowfordays, weeks, months.
I have a lotoftearsstoredinthesetearducts, andthey'rereadytofuckingcomeout.
Aftermyfirstbreakup, which I wasstillinhighschool, prettymessywenttoclass, wenthome, justbingedanimal.
Sodon't dothat.
Giveyourselfenoughtimetoprocess.
Butrightafter a breakupisalso a greattimetoreallythrowyourselfintoworkorhobbiesorschoolbecauseyouhavesomuchemotionalangstthatyoujustwant, likepowerintosomethingyouknow, textingandtalkingafter a relationship.
You'regoingtoanalyzealloftheircommentsandalloftheirlikes, seeifthey'reliking a newgirl's photo.
Butafter a breakupisalso a greattimetoreconnectwithfriendsortoreachouttonewfriendsorcoolpeoplethatyouknowthatyou'd liketohangoutwith.
Youstillhave a supportsystem, eventhoughyoursignificantotherisnolongerinyourlife.
Andfourthly, itisjustkindof a matteroftime.
I rememberfeelinglike I couldneverstopbeingsadbecause I'd stillbeclingingontoallofthesememoriesofmyex, butthankGodformyfuckingshorttermmemory, becauseovertime.
I justcan't recallthemanymore.
I don't rememberwhatitwaslikebeingwithhim.
I don't havethesevividmemoriesofourdatestogether.
Hewasjustlike, Oh, thatwasmyex.
Youknow, everyrelationshipteachesyou a lesson.
Whetheritwasgoodorbadornomatterhowitended, youcomeout a strongerpersonandknowingevenMaurwhatyouwantinyournextrelationship.
Highschoolwaskindof a wildfriedformefromstarttofinish.
Thereweretimeswhere I had a friendgroupwhere I wasrejectedfromthefrontgroupwhere I feltreallylonelyanddepressed.
I wantedtodropoutwhere I had a greattimeattheendofsenioryearanddidn't wanttoleave.
So I feellike I havedoneitall.
Firstly, don't stressouttoomuch.
I wassuch a littlestressedbeingallofhighschool I workedlike 3 to 4 jobsat a time, ontopofgettingalways I wish I hadtheconfidenceinmyselfearlierontoreallydiveintocreativeendeavorsMaurratherthanspendingallmytimeongrades.
Butyouknow, saylovey, I thinkiswhattheysay.
TheFrencharescreaming.
Rememberthatyou're a teenagerandhavefuninhighschoolwhileyoucan.
I alwayshavethementalitythatwaslikeFuckhighschool.
It's theworstfouryearsofmylife.
I gottogetoutofhere, butbytheend, I reallylearnedtoenjoyitforwhatitwaas.
And I kindofmissthatpartofhighschooleventhough I wassoboredfor a lotofit.
Evenifyou're a littlebitantisociallikeme, gotothedanceisifyoucan.
I'm sogladthat I gottogotoprom.
Also, it's totallyokayifyoudon't have a solidfriendgroup.
I reallydidn't formostofmyhighschoolexperience, anditmademefeelkindofshittyatfirst.
Butthen I realizedactuallyfunbecause I couldchooseexactlywho I wantedtohangoutwith.
Beingoutside a friendgroupmademyfriendshipsthat I didhave a lotdeeperbecauseitwasn't justlike, Oh, I hangoutwiththesepeoplebecausewe'rein a grouptexttogether.
Itwasmorelike I hangoutwiththispersonbecause I reallycareaboutthat.
Seeifthoseairclassesthatyouwanttotakechoosing a collegecanbesostressfulbecauseyou'resoyounganditseemslike a lifechangingdecision, anditcan, youknow, alterthecourseofyourlife.
Butcollegeisreallywhatyoumakeofit.
Eventhoughespeciallyfreshmanyear, I reallyregrettednotgoingtoStanfordbecause I waslike, shit, I couldbewithpeoplethat I livewithmorethan L.
A.
I couldbein a lotmoreprestigiousschool.
I couldhavegoodconnections.
Butnow I havethisYouTubechannel, and I don't think I wouldhavedoneitasmuchif I wasoutofreallyacademicslikeStanford.
Oratleastitwouldformebecause I lovemyself a goodshower.
Havesomebodyelsestandinanotherroomoftheapartmentandthentalktoeachotheroryellstoeachotherandfindouthowsoundproofthewallsaren't, which I failedtodointhisapartment.
Anditisnotverysoundproof, Atal, eventhough I thoughtitwasso, doesnotbeengreatformyroommates.
I apologize, butthisone's random.
Butifyoulivein a hotarea, fuckingmakesurethatyourapartmenthas a C becauseminedoesnot, anditsucksinthesummeronceyoudecidetomovein, thisismybiggesthip, especiallyforpeopleincollegeistogetthenumbersor e mailsofthepeoplewhoaremovingout.
Thatmadeitsomucheasierforthisapartmentbecause I wasabletocommunicatewithheraboutwhenweshouldtransfertheutilities.
I alsoaskedherwhethershewantedtosellanyofherfurnituretomeinmyapartmentmates.
Somyapartmentmaidswereabletoget a bunchofreallycheapfurniture.
Theygot, liketheirbedframesandtheirdesks, andsheevenleftus a microwaveandcookingutensilsthatshedidn't wantanymorekindofrelatedto.
Thatsomebodyaskedhowmuchyoupayforyourapartment.
Contrarytopopularbelief, I don't livealone.
Thatwouldbesonice, and I'm hopingtobeabletolivealoneafter I graduate.
Butrightnow I'm in a twobedroom, onebathroomapartmentwithtwoofmyotherfriendslivingintheotherroom.
I have a prettyneutralcolorpalettegoingon, which I thinkisgenerallyperceivedaslikeadults.
Forsomereason, thesecondthingistextureslike I haveCooperonthislittlerailing.
I havesomegold.
I havesomewoodonmybed.
Honestly, I amkindof a cheapoand I don't likebotheringtoframemyartwork, butitimmediately, likeevenifyouhaveposters.
Ifyouhavelittlethingsthatyoudrew, itmakestheroomlooklikeyou're a realadults.
Mynextcategoryisjobsandinternship.
Somyfirstquestionis, Howdoyougetinternships?
I thinkotherindustriesare a lotmoremeritbased, butstufflikeentertainment.
It's reallyaboutwhoyouknowandwhetheryoucouldmake a goodfirstimpression.
I hadabsolutelyzeroconnectionsinthefilmindustrycominghere.
I grewupinsuburbanMaryland, somyfirstinternshipwasjustoneoffthe L.
A Facebookpagewhere I wouldreallylike, tookoutthetrashofthesepeople.
Theytreatedmesobadandtheydidn't payme.
Butitwasenoughtogetsomeexperienceonmyresumetogetmysecondinternship, which I gotthrough a randomgirl I didn't knowontheYousell a Facebookgroupwhoneeded a replacementintern.
Ifyouanswerthisfirstquestionwell, firstofall, thereareotherquestionsaregonnabekindofirrelevantbecauseyou'vealreadytoldthemwhyyou're a goodcandidatefortheshopwhoyouareas a person, andsecondly, it'llcreatethiskindofconversationalbanterratherthanhereis a question, Letmeanswerit.
I usedtoalwaysfeelguiltyfortalkingfor a longtime.
I didn't wanttotaketoolongwithresponsesforinterviewquestionbecause I'm like, surelytheyhave a bunchofotherquestionsthatthey'd liketoaskme.