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  • "I am so jealous of you, everything always looks so good on you."

    「我好羨慕你,你身上的所有東西看起來都好完美!」

  • Is what friends often say to me. But you know what I've been through to get this body?

    這是朋友常常對我說的,但你們知道我經歷了甚麼才得到這樣的身材嗎?

  • Follow me and I'll tell you my story.

    跟著我,我將告訴你我的故事。

  • I used to be the girl in school that nobody noticed. All the boys would just look pass me.

    我曾經是個在學校沒有人會注意我的女生,所有男生都只會忽略我,

  • I wasn't even popular in my own group of friends. I was invisible.

    我甚至不曾在我自己的朋友圈裡受歡迎,我像是隱形的一樣。

  • I used to feel a little down about that,but it was my goal to get into the best university possible.

    我曾經為此感到有點失落,但我的目標是考上一所好大學。

  • And when I set my mind to something, I do everything in my power to achieve it.

    而當我下定決心做某件事情,我會盡我所能的去達到它。

  • My priority was to first get into my dream college and then I could worry about my appearance.

    我的優先考量是先進到理想的大學,再來擔心我外表的部分。

  • I asked my parents for their permission to get cosmetic surgery if I was accepted into the university.

    我向我的父母徵求許可,如果我錄取了大學,那麼我就要去做整容手術。

  • They agreed and gave me their blessing. So from that moment on, I focused all my time and energy into studying to pass the entrance exams.

    他們同意了,並且給了我祝福。從那一刻起,我將所有的時間與精力都專注在讀書,以便通過入學考試。

  • Once I was accepted, they were so proud as they knew how much work I had put into getting there.

    當我錄取時,他們好驕傲。因為他們知道我花了多大的努力才考上那裡。

  • But I was still a long ways away from achieving my dream. There were two more obstacles I had to overcome.

    但離我夢想的路還很遙遠,我還有兩個障礙需要克服。

  • First was my face.

    第一,我的臉。

  • So I had surgery to add an extra layer on my eyes, to raise the bridge of my nose, and to make my face into the V-shape.

    所以我動了雙眼皮手術、挑高鼻樑、讓我的臉變成v型小臉,

  • All the things that seem to be what people consider beautiful. When it was done, I looked like a completely different person.

    所有我所做的改變都是人們認為漂亮的,手術結束後,我看起來判若兩人。

  • But now I'm left with the part that stressed me out that most: losing the weight.

    但現在我還剩下一個最讓我頭透的部分: 減肥

  • Because even though my face was beautiful, if I'm still fat - no one will consider me beautiful.

    因為即便我的臉很漂亮,如果我還是很胖的話,沒有人會覺得我美的,

  • This is the social convention, you have to be skinny to be beautiful.

    這是社會傳統,你必須看起來很瘦才漂亮。

  • It didn't help that most of the boys in the university liked to tease me. Chubby, they'd call me. Piggy, they'd tease.

    只有臉漂亮的話,許多大學男生還是喜歡捉弄我,他們叫我「胖子」或是「豬」,

  • They even joked around about my big arms and big legs.

    他們甚至嘲笑我粗壯的手臂和腳。

  • My friends said they were just joking and not to take it seriously but as time went on, I had no more confidence and self-esteem.

    我朋友都告訴我他們只是在開玩笑,不用太認真看待,但久而久之,我已經沒有自信和自尊了。

  • So I had to be skinny. I watched clips online to teach me how to exercise and used the entire summer break to lose my weight

    所以我必須變瘦,我看線上影片教我如何運動,花了一整個暑假減輕我的體重。

  • At first, I was so exhausted and everything hurt. I almost gave up

    一開始,我精疲力盡,甚麼事都很痛苦,我差點就要放棄了。

  • But I kept myself inspired by constantly looking at all the beautiful and fit girls on Instagram

    為了激勵自己,我持續去看Instagram上那些美麗又纖瘦的女孩們。

  • If I could look like them, people would notice me, I could wear anything I want

    如果我能像他們一樣,大家就能注意到我,我就能穿任何我想穿的衣服。

  • But most importantly, I could finally show the people that teased me about my body that they were wrong.

    但最重要的是,我能像那些嘲笑我的人證明他們錯了。

  • Once university started, I was the center of attention. Girls looked at me with jealousy and so many boys kept asking me for my phone number.

    大學一開始,我就是眾所矚目的焦點,女孩們用羨慕的眼神看我,許多男生不停地向我要電話號碼。

  • Even my clothes were getting smaller. But it wasn't enough.

    即便我衣服的尺寸小了很多,這仍舊不夠。

  • When I was nominated as the Queen for the Summer Ball, I started to worry even more that I wouldn't win

    當我被提名作為夏日舞會女王時,我開始擔心我不能贏得比賽。

  • I still believed my body wasn't perfect yet. Exercising wasn't enough anymore.

    我依然相信我的身材還不完美,只是運動是不夠的。

  • So I started to control my diet. I ate less and was more picky about what I was eating. And I ended up losing weight even faster than I did from exercising.

    所以我開始控制我的飲食,我吃得更少,也開始挑剔自己吃了甚麼。最終我瘦得比運動還快。

  • People were telling me that I was too skinny but I didn't believe them.

    大家都說我太瘦了,但我不相信他們。

  • "I'm not skinny, what are they talking about?"

    「我才不瘦呢!你們在說甚麼?」

  • Of course I won the Queen of the Summer Ball. I worked so hard for it.

    我理所當然選上了夏季舞會的女王,為了它我花了好多的努力。

  • Everyone was congratulating me, but all I could think about was that I had to work harder.

    大家都在恭喜我,但我所能夠想的只有 我必須再更努力。

  • That I'm still fat and if I'm not careful, I could go back to being invisible again.

    我還是很胖所以如果我不小心一點的話,我就會再次回到那個默默無名的我。

  • I had to exercise more and control my diet more. So I started to work out not just in the evening but also in the morning.

    我必須運動更多、更加控制我的飲食,所以除了下午,我早上也開始鍛鍊。

  • I didn't eat anything that had carbohydrates or fat.

    我不吃任何含有醣類或脂肪的東西,

  • For lunch I would only eat fruit or drink a box of milk and for dinner I would just drink a glass of water.

    午餐我只吃水果或喝一瓶牛奶,晚餐我只喝一杯水。

  • I was so obsessed with how I looked.

    我一心一意只想著我的外表,

  • I really believed that if I missed a work out or ate more than I was supposed to.

    我真的相信如果我少一次鍛鍊,或者吃的多一點,

  • I would go straight back to being fat again.

    我又會再變胖一次。

  • While I was obsessed with losing my weight, I was just ignoring all these other strange symptoms that were occurring.

    當我滿腦子只想著減肥時,我完全忽略了所有正在發生的奇怪症狀。

  • My period had stopped coming for months. I was losing so much hair.

    我的經期好幾個月都沒來,我開始掉很多頭髮。

  • I was always cold. My skin was started to peel heavily. And I was struggling in every single class to focus.

    我總是感到很冷,我的皮膚開始嚴重脫皮,而我每堂課都得努力讓自己專心。

  • My grades had dropped so far and so fast, no one could believe it.

    我的成績下降的又多又快,沒人能相信。

  • A lot of people noticed the changed. I kept hearing that I was too skinny, I wasn't the same, I wasn't as pretty as I used to be.

    許多人注意到我的變化,我不斷聽到有人說我太瘦了、我不一樣了、我不像以前一樣漂亮了。

  • I couldn't accept it and would just tell them that they didn't know what they were talking about.

    我不能夠接受,並告訴他們那是他們不知道自己在說甚麼。

  • I lost a lot of friends that time. I cried almost everyday. I didn't know what they were talking about, I really couldn't see what was skinny about me?

    那時我失去了許多朋友,我幾乎每天哭。我不知道他們在說甚麼,我真的不知道我哪裡瘦了。

  • When I looked in the mirror, I still looked fat! They must have been just jealous...

    當我看著鏡子時,我還是覺得我很胖!他們一定是在忌妒我

  • "Hi honey." I woke up to see my mother standing next to me. She looked sad and concerned.

    「嗨 親愛的」我醒來時看見媽媽站在我旁邊,她看起來很難過又擔心的樣子。

  • Then I looked around. Why do I have so many tubes in my arms? What's happening? The last thing I remembered, I was exercising.

    接著我看看四周,我手臂上怎麼有這麼多管子?發生甚麼事了?最後一件我能記得的事,就是我在運動。

  • I was diagnosed with Anorexia.

    我被診斷出有厭食症。

  • I couldn't believe it. But I knew my condition was serious when I could no longer feed myself as I had to be fed through tubes.

    我難以相信,但當我不再能自己吃東西,必須靠導管餵食的時候,我知道我的情況很嚴重。

  • I was in the hospital for weeks. I had to drop out of school and my mom even had to quit her job to take care of me.

    我在醫院待了幾週,我必須輟學,而我的母親辭掉她的工作。

  • But it's been a year now and I'm fully recovered and finally back in university. I really learned how little value other peoples opinions have.

    但現在已經一年了,我完全康復也再次回到大學,我總算了解到別人的建議所具有的價值。

  • The most important things are the love you have from friends and family but even MORE important than that is the love you should have for yourself.

    最重要的是你的朋友與家人給你的愛,但比那還要重要的是, 你給自己的愛。

  • I am me. I am beautiful in my own way and I don't feel the need to have to follow society and trends about being skinny.

    我就是我,做我自己的我是美麗的,我不需要去追求社群或流行趨勢而變得骨感纖瘦

  • Why do I need people who only love me for how I look?

    我為甚麼需要那些因為長相而喜歡我的人?

  • It's been a long journey getting here, I really hope that my story can help to warn people that are about to fall into the same trap.

    經過了很長的旅程才走到這裡,我真心希望我的故事能提醒那些正要掉進陷阱裡的人。

"I am so jealous of you, everything always looks so good on you."

「我好羨慕你,你身上的所有東西看起來都好完美!」

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