- It is 2020 and this is the first New Year's Day

where I haven't been hungover.

I don't know why I'm getting all emotional

but like I'm really proud of myself for not going out.

It feels really, really refreshing

to wake up so clear on New Year's Day.

I feel like in the past years,

I felt this pressure to go out on New Year's Eve

and I'm really happy that this year

I just spent it with Ben.

I went to bed at like nine o'clock.

This really feels like a good restart,

especially because I got back from England not too long ago.

Off the bat for 2019,

it was not my favorite year.

I would like to have a dry January,

like not even a glass of wine.

That thought like really weirds me out

because I use alcohol a lot as like a,

I don't know like a social crutch

and a social lubricant.

Let's see if I eliminate it,

if something happens.

Today is January 1st.

I will get into my resolutions for 2020 a little bit

after I've had some time to reflect

because right now I actually have to go.

We're doing the usual tradition

of us going to my grandparents house.

We're gonna have the whole New Year's Day celebration

with dduk guk and games

and I have to rally up a bunch of stuff

to bring as prizes for bingo especially.

(gentle music)

(clapping)

(chill music)

(speaking in foreign language)

Thank you.

Oh my God.

(mellow music)

All right guys, this is the finished face.

I wanted to go for something a little big glam but preppy.

Okay so underneath I'm wearing

this sheer button-down from Unif.

I've had this for so many years

and I just love it to layer underneath things

because it's so slinky and it feels good on the ski.

And my sweater is from Eggie.

It's called the Guysie

and this is made in a sustainable fabric

and I am wearing extra small.

And for my pants I'm wearing my just black denim

and honestly it's hard for me to get out of these jeans

because they're so comfortable

and they just like fit me really nicely.

And then for my earrings,

I'm wearing these ones by Seryn Project.

My friend Ashley made these earrings.

So I just want to support and they're so cute.

♪ Why does it hurt so bad ♪

♪ So bad ♪

♪ To lose something I never had ♪

♪ Never had ♪

♪ Are you a memory or lucid dream ♪

♪ Pinch me ♪

♪ Will you come back ♪

♪ Will you come back ♪

- It is Friday night, 9:44 p.m.

Usually I'd be out and about hanging out with friends,

drinking, maybe bar hopping, maybe dancing.

It's kind of crazy.

It's only January 3rd

and every day I have been tempted

with the possibility of having a drink.

It's like something I didn't really notice

how prevalent it is in my life.

In December, I actually started to get

all these random ads on YouTube

about this master class concept.

It was so much Gordon Ramsay with his knife going

and him just basically showing you how to cook.

And then I clicked on it

and then I ended up buying a whole year.

It's such a cool website

where there's just a bunch of classes that you can take

where the instructors are just people that you know.

Natalie Portman has one about acting,

Gordon Ramsay has one about cooking,

there's like Steph Curry has one

it's probably about basketball

and tonight I'm doing my first lesson.

It is with Sarah Blakely

who is the founder of Spanx.

It is a very popular undergarment.

I've seen her on Shark Tank a couple of times

and I also listened to her episode

on How I Built This with her

and her class is about self made entrepreneurship.

I didn't go to business school

and I am figuring out everything along the way

just like a lot of people are.

I don't know, I just thought any type of advice

or mentorship I can have,

even if it's digital can help me.

I'm on the second course right now

which is Developing Your Big Idea

but I'm feeling like fired up

and this is really exciting

so this is what I'm doing,

my sober night in.

- To mostly be able to show the value

and use it as a marketing tool.

Then, you have a decision on if you want to defend it

if people start knocking you off.

- Good morning.

It is Saturday,

oh hey James.

I'm working out with my brother today

and I'm also giving his Christmas gift.

Killing two birds with one stone.

Wow, those are huge gifts.

Those look so ridiculous.

- I like this gift exchange

in the middle of the street. - Mine looks so pathetic.

This is me and Ben's combined.

I guess we're doing gift exchange first.

(laughing)

It's a DNA test

- That's awesome.

- So we can figure out what we are

'cause you have both the chromosomes, James.

You can find out all the lineage of the Im family.

- Thank you.

Wow, this is sick.

- It's from Stone Island.

Look, it has the--

- Wow, this is awesome.

- It's so heavy.

- You're gonna like what you see.

(laughing)

- Oh my God.

Is this your rice cooker?

- No, this is a little better.

- Really?

- It's a little more advanced.

- What?

It's fine. - It's just a rice cooker.

Oh sorry.

(laughing)

It's really nice. - Oh, I love it.

Dude, I think this is the one that Oma has.

- It might be

but it's super nice dude.

- Oh my God, it looks so nice.

All right, now it is time to work out.

(gentle music)

♪ They say you don't gotta go home ♪

♪ But you can't stay here ♪

♪ And no I don't want to be alone in the world out there ♪

♪ I try this, try that, tried everything ♪

♪ Coming right back, right back, don't you wait for me ♪

♪ I need you to stay right there ♪

♪ I'm coming right away, my dear ♪

(gentle music)

- I'm really drenched in sweat.

The rice cooker is installed,

AKA I just took it out of the box.

I'm gonna try to make rice with it.

The other rice cooker has been officially retired.

Honestly, I do not recommend that rice cooker at all.

It's still like pretty pricey

but it just made the rice really dry

and you could never like leave it in the device to stay warm

because then it would just get even drier.

So that's not a way to live.

This has been a very generous present from James.

Use another container to wash the rice.

I'm gonna wash the rice in this.

In this pot, I have put two cups of brown rice.

I have thoroughly washed it

but I washed it in this container,

like I don't understand why I'm not allowed

to wash the rice in the rice container

and I'm too lazy to look up why I can't do that

so if you guys know the answer to that,

please write it in the comments.

Here we go, okay.

(beeping)

I guess that's it.

I will let you guys know how the rice comes out.

Wow.

Oh, this looks good.

Let's have a bite.

This looks already miles better

than the other rice cooker.

Mmm.

Oh my God.

We've been wanting to incorporate more art

back into the walls.

I mean they are bare.

We just need that extra spark.

I love this poster of Ben's dad's band.

The band was called Trampoline.

So cool.

Look at their freaking outfits, man.

The platforms, amazing.

We're also gonna frame this Flying Lotus and Friends poster.

I got this 10 years ago when I was at,

I was at Low End Theory

and I saw this poster

and I was like, oh my gosh,

it would've been so cool to see Flying Lotus.

Now it's just like a relic.

We're framing this Sarah Boba print.

I'm gonna put this in my room.

- [Ben] I'm so scared of

- Denting it, yeah.

(mellow music)

Wow, these plates are out of control.

- [Ben] These plates are so good, they're almost bowls.

- Oh, these bowls are out of control.

- [Ben] These bowls are

- [Both] Out of control.

- Hawkins, New York is one of those stores

when you walk in,

you just immediately want everything.

We're easing into it.

We've got four of these gorgeous bowls.

- [Ben] Gorgeous.

- Gorgeous.

I like how the rim is slightly uneven.

It's like kind of got these ridges.

Look at these plates.

Oh my God.

It's so thin

and then I always like to eat from a smaller plate

so I got a small one for myself.

- Let's see how it looks on the table, you know?

Oh you wanted a, you got the pasta dish

so that's a bowl there for you.

Anything else you need?

Okay great, thank you.

- All right, bon apetit.

Mmm, mmm.

- The veggie burger's great.

- It is, isn't it?

It's like made to be paired together.

- It really is.

- For breakfast I'm having the last of my veggie

and chicken fried rice.

(blowing)

(hiccups)

God damn.

(mellow music)

Good morning, it is Tuesday

and I'm actually taking a break.

I'm doing a pause from my usual routine

because today I am going to therapy.

This is my first session of 2020

and I'm so excited to go

because if I don't go to therapy for a couple of weeks,

I feel like there's a lot of like buildup,

if you know what I mean?

It's just like just verbal baggage.

It's like a lot of the stuff that I suppress down because

some things you just can't say out loud.

Yes, you can journal it,

yes, you can film yourself doing it to release it

but when there's a professional