I just get so revved up

when I

do these benchmark shows, you know

’cause I start to think about all the people that have tried to stop me

and I get this, like, super intense, like...

- Fury?

- Yeah! And I think about how I don’t really give a shit if people don’t understand what I do as long as my fans understand...

I just don't want my fans to ever feel...

I just sometimes feel like a loser still, you know?

It's crazy, 'cause it's like, we are at the Garden! But I still sometimes feel like a loser kid in high school.

And I just gotta to pick my shit up, I gotta pick myself up

and I have to tell myself that I'm a superstar every morning, so I can get through this day

and be for my fans what they need for me to be.

But sometimes I still feel like people are trying to destroy me.

- What are you going to teach them tonight? - That I cannot be destroyed.

- That's what you do every night!

I cannot be destroyed and I will not be destroyed

and you will never destroy the Kingdom that is my fans.

I've this, I'm like..., this feeling that I have to fight

I’m fighting for every kid that’s like me, that felt like I felt and feels like I still feel.

It hurts when I, you know...

how much... authenticity and how much genuine blood is in my spirit

and how much I feel like people don't know that, you know?

'Cause they see wigs and lipstick and they just shut down 'cause they don't understand...

- I'm sorry... - Don't be sorry.

I just want to be a queen for them, you know, but sometimes I don't feel like one.

I just... It's not about me, I'm not a winner for me anymore,

you know? It's about being a winner for all of them.