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  • CHAPTER XVII

  • A week passed, and no news arrived of Mr. Rochester: ten days, and still he did not

  • come.

  • Mrs. Fairfax said she should not be surprised if he were to go straight from

  • the Leas to London, and thence to the Continent, and not show his face again at

  • Thornfield for a year to come; he had not

  • unfrequently quitted it in a manner quite as abrupt and unexpected.

  • When I heard this, I was beginning to feel a strange chill and failing at the heart.

  • I was actually permitting myself to experience a sickening sense of

  • disappointment; but rallying my wits, and recollecting my principles, I at once

  • called my sensations to order; and it was

  • wonderful how I got over the temporary blunder--how I cleared up the mistake of

  • supposing Mr. Rochester's movements a matter in which I had any cause to take a

  • vital interest.

  • Not that I humbled myself by a slavish notion of inferiority: on the contrary, I

  • just said--

  • "You have nothing to do with the master of Thornfield, further than to receive the

  • salary he gives you for teaching his protegee, and to be grateful for such

  • respectful and kind treatment as, if you do

  • your duty, you have a right to expect at his hands.

  • Be sure that is the only tie he seriously acknowledges between you and him; so don't

  • make him the object of your fine feelings, your raptures, agonies, and so forth.

  • He is not of your order: keep to your caste, and be too self-respecting to lavish

  • the love of the whole heart, soul, and strength, where such a gift is not wanted

  • and would be despised."

  • I went on with my day's business tranquilly; but ever and anon vague

  • suggestions kept wandering across my brain of reasons why I should quit Thornfield;

  • and I kept involuntarily framing

  • advertisements and pondering conjectures about new situations: these thoughts I did

  • not think to check; they might germinate and bear fruit if they could.

  • Mr. Rochester had been absent upwards of a fortnight, when the post brought Mrs.

  • Fairfax a letter. "It is from the master," said she, as she

  • looked at the direction.

  • "Now I suppose we shall know whether we are to expect his return or not."

  • And while she broke the seal and perused the document, I went on taking my coffee

  • (we were at breakfast): it was hot, and I attributed to that circumstance a fiery

  • glow which suddenly rose to my face.

  • Why my hand shook, and why I involuntarily spilt half the contents of my cup into my

  • saucer, I did not choose to consider.

  • "Well, I sometimes think we are too quiet; but we run a chance of being busy enough

  • now: for a little while at least," said Mrs. Fairfax, still holding the note before

  • her spectacles.

  • Ere I permitted myself to request an explanation, I tied the string of Adele's

  • pinafore, which happened to be loose: having helped her also to another bun and

  • refilled her mug with milk, I said, nonchalantly--

  • "Mr. Rochester is not likely to return soon, I suppose?"

  • "Indeed he is--in three days, he says: that will be next Thursday; and not alone

  • either.

  • I don't know how many of the fine people at the Leas are coming with him: he sends

  • directions for all the best bedrooms to be prepared; and the library and drawing-rooms

  • are to be cleaned out; I am to get more

  • kitchen hands from the George Inn, at Millcote, and from wherever else I can; and

  • the ladies will bring their maids and the gentlemen their valets: so we shall have a

  • full house of it."

  • And Mrs. Fairfax swallowed her breakfast and hastened away to commence operations.

  • The three days were, as she had foretold, busy enough.

  • I had thought all the rooms at Thornfield beautifully clean and well arranged; but it

  • appears I was mistaken.

  • Three women were got to help; and such scrubbing, such brushing, such washing of

  • paint and beating of carpets, such taking down and putting up of pictures, such

  • polishing of mirrors and lustres, such

  • lighting of fires in bedrooms, such airing of sheets and feather-beds on hearths, I

  • never beheld, either before or since.

  • Adele ran quite wild in the midst of it: the preparations for company and the

  • prospect of their arrival, seemed to throw her into ecstasies.

  • She would have Sophie to look over all her "toilettes," as she called frocks; to

  • furbish up any that were "passees," and to air and arrange the new.

  • For herself, she did nothing but caper about in the front chambers, jump on and

  • off the bedsteads, and lie on the mattresses and piled-up bolsters and

  • pillows before the enormous fires roaring in the chimneys.

  • From school duties she was exonerated: Mrs. Fairfax had pressed me into her service,

  • and I was all day in the storeroom, helping (or hindering) her and the cook; learning

  • to make custards and cheese-cakes and

  • French pastry, to truss game and garnish desert-dishes.

  • The party were expected to arrive on Thursday afternoon, in time for dinner at

  • six.

  • During the intervening period I had no time to nurse chimeras; and I believe I was as

  • active and gay as anybody--Adele excepted.

  • Still, now and then, I received a damping check to my cheerfulness; and was, in spite

  • of myself, thrown back on the region of doubts and portents, and dark conjectures.

  • This was when I chanced to see the third- storey staircase door (which of late had

  • always been kept locked) open slowly, and give passage to the form of Grace Poole, in

  • prim cap, white apron, and handkerchief;

  • when I watched her glide along the gallery, her quiet tread muffled in a list slipper;

  • when I saw her look into the bustling, topsy-turvy bedrooms,--just say a word,

  • perhaps, to the charwoman about the proper

  • way to polish a grate, or clean a marble mantelpiece, or take stains from papered

  • walls, and then pass on.

  • She would thus descend to the kitchen once a day, eat her dinner, smoke a moderate

  • pipe on the hearth, and go back, carrying her pot of porter with her, for her private

  • solace, in her own gloomy, upper haunt.

  • Only one hour in the twenty-four did she pass with her fellow-servants below; all

  • the rest of her time was spent in some low- ceiled, oaken chamber of the second storey:

  • there she sat and sewed--and probably

  • laughed drearily to herself,--as companionless as a prisoner in his dungeon.

  • The strangest thing of all was, that not a soul in the house, except me, noticed her

  • habits, or seemed to marvel at them: no one discussed her position or employment; no

  • one pitied her solitude or isolation.

  • I once, indeed, overheard part of a dialogue between Leah and one of the

  • charwomen, of which Grace formed the subject.

  • Leah had been saying something I had not caught, and the charwoman remarked--

  • "She gets good wages, I guess?"

  • "Yes," said Leah; "I wish I had as good; not that mine are to complain of,--there's

  • no stinginess at Thornfield; but they're not one fifth of the sum Mrs. Poole

  • receives.

  • And she is laying by: she goes every quarter to the bank at Millcote.

  • I should not wonder but she has saved enough to keep her independent if she liked

  • to leave; but I suppose she's got used to the place; and then she's not forty yet,

  • and strong and able for anything.

  • It is too soon for her to give up business."

  • "She is a good hand, I daresay," said the charwoman.

  • "Ah!--she understands what she has to do,-- nobody better," rejoined Leah

  • significantly; "and it is not every one could fill her shoes--not for all the money

  • she gets."

  • "That it is not!" was the reply. "I wonder whether the master--"

  • The charwoman was going on; but here Leah turned and perceived me, and she instantly

  • gave her companion a nudge.

  • "Doesn't she know?" I heard the woman whisper.

  • Leah shook her head, and the conversation was of course dropped.

  • All I had gathered from it amounted to this,--that there was a mystery at

  • Thornfield; and that from participation in that mystery I was purposely excluded.

  • Thursday came: all work had been completed the previous evening; carpets were laid

  • down, bed-hangings festooned, radiant white counterpanes spread, toilet tables

  • arranged, furniture rubbed, flowers piled

  • in vases: both chambers and saloons looked as fresh and bright as hands could make

  • them.

  • The hall, too, was scoured; and the great carved clock, as well as the steps and

  • banisters of the staircase, were polished to the brightness of glass; in the dining-

  • room, the sideboard flashed resplendent

  • with plate; in the drawing-room and boudoir, vases of exotics bloomed on all

  • sides.

  • Afternoon arrived: Mrs. Fairfax assumed her best black satin gown, her gloves, and her

  • gold watch; for it was her part to receive the company,--to conduct the ladies to

  • their rooms, &c.

  • Adele, too, would be dressed: though I thought she had little chance of being

  • introduced to the party that day at least.

  • However, to please her, I allowed Sophie to apparel her in one of her short, full

  • muslin frocks.

  • For myself, I had no need to make any change; I should not be called upon to quit

  • my sanctum of the schoolroom; for a sanctum it was now become to me,--"a very pleasant

  • refuge in time of trouble."

  • It had been a mild, serene spring day--one of those days which, towards the end of

  • March or the beginning of April, rise shining over the earth as heralds of

  • summer.

  • It was drawing to an end now; but the evening was even warm, and I sat at work in

  • the schoolroom with the window open. "It gets late," said Mrs. Fairfax, entering

  • in rustling state.

  • "I am glad I ordered dinner an hour after the time Mr. Rochester mentioned; for it is

  • past six now.

  • I have sent John down to the gates to see if there is anything on the road: one can

  • see a long way from thence in the direction of Millcote."

  • She went to the window.

  • "Here he is!" said she. "Well, John" (leaning out), "any news?"

  • "They're coming, ma'am," was the answer. "They'll be here in ten minutes."

  • Adele flew to the window.

  • I followed, taking care to stand on one side, so that, screened by the curtain, I

  • could see without being seen.

  • The ten minutes John had given seemed very long, but at last wheels were heard; four

  • equestrians galloped up the drive, and after them came two open carriages.

  • Fluttering veils and waving plumes filled the vehicles; two of the cavaliers were

  • young, dashing-looking gentlemen; the third was Mr. Rochester, on his black horse,

  • Mesrour, Pilot bounding before him; at his

  • side rode a lady, and he and she were the first of the party.

  • Her purple riding-habit almost swept the ground, her veil streamed long on the

  • breeze; mingling with its transparent folds, and gleaming through them, shone

  • rich raven ringlets.

  • "Miss Ingram!" exclaimed Mrs. Fairfax, and away she hurried to her post below.

  • The cavalcade, following the sweep of the drive, quickly turned the angle of the

  • house, and I lost sight of it.

  • Adele now petitioned to go down; but I took her on my knee, and gave her to understand

  • that she must not on any account think of venturing in sight of the ladies, either

  • now or at any other time, unless expressly

  • sent for: that Mr. Rochester would be very angry, &c.

  • "Some natural tears she shed" on being told this; but as I began to look very grave,

  • she consented at last to wipe them.

  • A joyous stir was now audible in the hall: gentlemen's deep tones and ladies' silvery

  • accents blent harmoniously together, and distinguishable above all, though not loud,

  • was the sonorous voice of the master of

  • Thornfield Hall, welcoming his fair and gallant guests under its roof.

  • Then light steps ascended the stairs; and there was a tripping through the gallery,

  • and soft cheerful laughs, and opening and closing doors, and, for a time, a hush.

  • "Elles changent de toilettes," said Adele; who, listening attentively, had followed

  • every movement; and she sighed.

  • "Chez maman," said she, "quand il y avait du monde, je le suivais partout, au salon

  • et a leurs chambres; souvent je regardais les femmes de chambre coiffer et habiller

  • les dames, et c'etait si amusant: comme cela on apprend."

  • "Don't you feel hungry, Adele?" "Mais oui, mademoiselle: voila cinq ou six

  • heures que nous n'avons pas mange."

  • "Well now, while the ladies are in their rooms, I will venture down and get you

  • something to eat."

  • And issuing from my asylum with precaution, I sought a back-stairs which conducted

  • directly to the kitchen.

  • All in that region was fire and commotion; the soup and fish were in the last stage of

  • projection, and the cook hung over her crucibles in a frame of mind and body

  • threatening spontaneous combustion.

  • In the servants' hall two coachmen and three gentlemen's gentlemen stood or sat

  • round the fire; the abigails, I suppose, were upstairs with their mistresses; the

  • new servants, that had been hired from Millcote, were bustling about everywhere.

  • Threading this chaos, I at last reached the larder; there I took possession of a cold

  • chicken, a roll of bread, some tarts, a plate or two and a knife and fork: with

  • this booty I made a hasty retreat.

  • I had regained the gallery, and was just shutting the back-door behind me, when an

  • accelerated hum warned me that the ladies were about to issue from their chambers.

  • I could not proceed to the schoolroom without passing some of their doors, and

  • running the risk of being surprised with my cargo of victualage; so I stood still at

  • this end, which, being windowless, was

  • dark: quite dark now, for the sun was set and twilight gathering.

  • Presently the chambers gave up their fair tenants one after another: each came out

  • gaily and airily, with dress that gleamed lustrous through the dusk.

  • For a moment they stood grouped together at the other extremity of the gallery,

  • conversing in a key of sweet subdued vivacity: they then descended the staircase

  • almost as noiselessly as a bright mist rolls down a hill.

  • Their collective appearance had left on me an impression of high- born elegance, such

  • as I had never before received.

  • I found Adele peeping through the schoolroom door, which she held ajar.

  • "What beautiful ladies!" cried she in English.

  • "Oh, I wish I might go to them!

  • Do you think Mr. Rochester will send for us by-and-bye, after dinner?"

  • "No, indeed, I don't; Mr. Rochester has something else to think about.

  • Never mind the ladies to-night; perhaps you will see them to-morrow: here is your

  • dinner."

  • She was really hungry, so the chicken and tarts served to divert her attention for a

  • time.

  • It was well I secured this forage, or both she, I, and Sophie, to whom I conveyed a

  • share of our repast, would have run a chance of getting no dinner at all: every

  • one downstairs was too much engaged to think of us.

  • The dessert was not carried out till after nine and at ten footmen were still running

  • to and fro with trays and coffee- cups.

  • I allowed Adele to sit up much later than usual; for she declared she could not

  • possibly go to sleep while the doors kept opening and shutting below, and people

  • bustling about.

  • Besides, she added, a message might possibly come from Mr. Rochester when she

  • was undressed; "et alors quel dommage!"

  • I told her stories as long as she would listen to them; and then for a change I

  • took her out into the gallery.

  • The hall lamp was now lit, and it amused her to look over the balustrade and watch

  • the servants passing backwards and forwards.

  • When the evening was far advanced, a sound of music issued from the drawing-room,

  • whither the piano had been removed; Adele and I sat down on the top step of the

  • stairs to listen.

  • Presently a voice blent with the rich tones of the instrument; it was a lady who sang,

  • and very sweet her notes were.

  • The solo over, a duet followed, and then a glee: a joyous conversational murmur filled

  • up the intervals.

  • I listened long: suddenly I discovered that my ear was wholly intent on analysing the

  • mingled sounds, and trying to discriminate amidst the confusion of accents those of

  • Mr. Rochester; and when it caught them,

  • which it soon did, it found a further task in framing the tones, rendered by distance

  • inarticulate, into words. The clock struck eleven.

  • I looked at Adele, whose head leant against my shoulder; her eyes were waxing heavy, so

  • I took her up in my arms and carried her off to bed.

  • It was near one before the gentlemen and ladies sought their chambers.

  • The next day was as fine as its predecessor: it was devoted by the party to

  • an excursion to some site in the neighbourhood.

  • They set out early in the forenoon, some on horseback, the rest in carriages; I

  • witnessed both the departure and the return.

  • Miss Ingram, as before, was the only lady equestrian; and, as before, Mr. Rochester

  • galloped at her side; the two rode a little apart from the rest.

  • I pointed out this circumstance to Mrs. Fairfax, who was standing at the window

  • with me--

  • "You said it was not likely they should think of being married," said I, "but you

  • see Mr. Rochester evidently prefers her to any of the other ladies."

  • "Yes, I daresay: no doubt he admires her."

  • "And she him," I added; "look how she leans her head towards him as if she were

  • conversing confidentially; I wish I could see her face; I have never had a glimpse of

  • it yet."

  • "You will see her this evening," answered Mrs. Fairfax.

  • "I happened to remark to Mr. Rochester how much Adele wished to be introduced to the

  • ladies, and he said: 'Oh! let her come into the drawing-room after dinner; and request

  • Miss Eyre to accompany her.'"

  • "Yes; he said that from mere politeness: I need not go, I am sure," I answered.

  • "Well, I observed to him that as you were unused to company, I did not think you

  • would like appearing before so gay a party- -all strangers; and he replied, in his

  • quick way--'Nonsense!

  • If she objects, tell her it is my particular wish; and if she resists, say I

  • shall come and fetch her in case of contumacy.'"

  • "I will not give him that trouble," I answered.

  • "I will go, if no better may be; but I don't like it.

  • Shall you be there, Mrs. Fairfax?"

  • "No; I pleaded off, and he admitted my plea.

  • I'll tell you how to manage so as to avoid the embarrassment of making a formal

  • entrance, which is the most disagreeable part of the business.

  • You must go into the drawing- room while it is empty, before the ladies leave the

  • dinner-table; choose your seat in any quiet nook you like; you need not stay long after

  • the gentlemen come in, unless you please:

  • just let Mr. Rochester see you are there and then slip away--nobody will notice

  • you." "Will these people remain long, do you

  • think?"

  • "Perhaps two or three weeks, certainly not more.

  • After the Easter recess, Sir George Lynn, who was lately elected member for Millcote,

  • will have to go up to town and take his seat; I daresay Mr. Rochester will

  • accompany him: it surprises me that he has

  • already made so protracted a stay at Thornfield."

  • It was with some trepidation that I perceived the hour approach when I was to

  • repair with my charge to the drawing-room.

  • Adele had been in a state of ecstasy all day, after hearing she was to be presented

  • to the ladies in the evening; and it was not till Sophie commenced the operation of

  • dressing her that she sobered down.

  • Then the importance of the process quickly steadied her, and by the time she had her

  • curls arranged in well-smoothed, drooping clusters, her pink satin frock put on, her

  • long sash tied, and her lace mittens adjusted, she looked as grave as any judge.

  • No need to warn her not to disarrange her attire: when she was dressed, she sat

  • demurely down in her little chair, taking care previously to lift up the satin skirt

  • for fear she should crease it, and assured

  • me she would not stir thence till I was ready.

  • This I quickly was: my best dress (the silver-grey one, purchased for Miss

  • Temple's wedding, and never worn since) was soon put on; my hair was soon smoothed; my

  • sole ornament, the pearl brooch, soon assumed.

  • We descended.

  • Fortunately there was another entrance to the drawing-room than that through the

  • saloon where they were all seated at dinner.

  • We found the apartment vacant; a large fire burning silently on the marble hearth, and

  • wax candles shining in bright solitude, amid the exquisite flowers with which the

  • tables were adorned.

  • The crimson curtain hung before the arch: slight as was the separation this drapery

  • formed from the party in the adjoining saloon, they spoke in so low a key that

  • nothing of their conversation could be distinguished beyond a soothing murmur.

  • Adele, who appeared to be still under the influence of a most solemnising impression,

  • sat down, without a word, on the footstool I pointed out to her.

  • I retired to a window-seat, and taking a book from a table near, endeavoured to

  • read. Adele brought her stool to my feet; ere

  • long she touched my knee.

  • "What is it, Adele?" "Est-ce que je ne puis pas prendrie une

  • seule de ces fleurs magnifiques, mademoiselle?

  • Seulement pour completer ma toilette."

  • "You think too much of your 'toilette,' Adele: but you may have a flower."

  • And I took a rose from a vase and fastened it in her sash.

  • She sighed a sigh of ineffable satisfaction, as if her cup of happiness

  • were now full.

  • I turned my face away to conceal a smile I could not suppress: there was something

  • ludicrous as well as painful in the little Parisienne's earnest and innate devotion to

  • matters of dress.

  • A soft sound of rising now became audible; the curtain was swept back from the arch;

  • through it appeared the dining-room, with its lit lustre pouring down light on the

  • silver and glass of a magnificent dessert-

  • service covering a long table; a band of ladies stood in the opening; they entered,

  • and the curtain fell behind them.

  • There were but eight; yet, somehow, as they flocked in, they gave the impression of a

  • much larger number.

  • Some of them were very tall; many were dressed in white; and all had a sweeping

  • amplitude of array that seemed to magnify their persons as a mist magnifies the moon.

  • I rose and curtseyed to them: one or two bent their heads in return, the others only

  • stared at me.

  • They dispersed about the room, reminding me, by the lightness and buoyancy of their

  • movements, of a flock of white plumy birds.

  • Some of them threw themselves in half- reclining positions on the sofas and

  • ottomans: some bent over the tables and examined the flowers and books: the rest

  • gathered in a group round the fire: all

  • talked in a low but clear tone which seemed habitual to them.

  • I knew their names afterwards, and may as well mention them now.

  • First, there was Mrs. Eshton and two of her daughters.

  • She had evidently been a handsome woman, and was well preserved still.

  • Of her daughters, the eldest, Amy, was rather little: naive, and child-like in

  • face and manner, and piquant in form; her white muslin dress and blue sash became her

  • well.

  • The second, Louisa, was taller and more elegant in figure; with a very pretty face,

  • of that order the French term minois chiffone: both sisters were fair as

  • lilies.

  • Lady Lynn was a large and stout personage of about forty, very erect, very haughty-

  • looking, richly dressed in a satin robe of changeful sheen: her dark hair shone

  • glossily under the shade of an azure plume, and within the circlet of a band of gems.

  • Mrs. Colonel Dent was less showy; but, I thought, more lady-like.

  • She had a slight figure, a pale, gentle face, and fair hair.

  • Her black satin dress, her scarf of rich foreign lace, and her pearl ornaments,

  • pleased me better than the rainbow radiance of the titled dame.

  • But the three most distinguished--partly, perhaps, because the tallest figures of the

  • band--were the Dowager Lady Ingram and her daughters, Blanche and Mary.

  • They were all three of the loftiest stature of women.

  • The Dowager might be between forty and fifty: her shape was still fine; her hair

  • (by candle-light at least) still black; her teeth, too, were still apparently perfect.

  • Most people would have termed her a splendid woman of her age: and so she was,

  • no doubt, physically speaking; but then there was an expression of almost

  • insupportable haughtiness in her bearing and countenance.

  • She had Roman features and a double chin, disappearing into a throat like a pillar:

  • these features appeared to me not only inflated and darkened, but even furrowed

  • with pride; and the chin was sustained by

  • the same principle, in a position of almost preternatural erectness.

  • She had, likewise, a fierce and a hard eye: it reminded me of Mrs. Reed's; she mouthed

  • her words in speaking; her voice was deep, its inflections very pompous, very

  • dogmatical,--very intolerable, in short.

  • A crimson velvet robe, and a shawl turban of some gold-wrought Indian fabric,

  • invested her (I suppose she thought) with a truly imperial dignity.

  • Blanche and Mary were of equal stature,-- straight and tall as poplars.

  • Mary was too slim for her height, but Blanche was moulded like a Dian.

  • I regarded her, of course, with special interest.

  • First, I wished to see whether her appearance accorded with Mrs. Fairfax's

  • description; secondly, whether it at all resembled the fancy miniature I had painted

  • of her; and thirdly--it will out!--whether

  • it were such as I should fancy likely to suit Mr. Rochester's taste.

  • As far as person went, she answered point for point, both to my picture and Mrs.

  • Fairfax's description.

  • The noble bust, the sloping shoulders, the graceful neck, the dark eyes and black

  • ringlets were all there;--but her face?

  • Her face was like her mother's; a youthful unfurrowed likeness: the same low brow, the

  • same high features, the same pride.

  • It was not, however, so saturnine a pride! she laughed continually; her laugh was

  • satirical, and so was the habitual expression of her arched and haughty lip.

  • Genius is said to be self-conscious.

  • I cannot tell whether Miss Ingram was a genius, but she was self-conscious--

  • remarkably self-conscious indeed. She entered into a discourse on botany with

  • the gentle Mrs. Dent.

  • It seemed Mrs. Dent had not studied that science: though, as she said, she liked

  • flowers, "especially wild ones;" Miss Ingram had, and she ran over its vocabulary

  • with an air.

  • I presently perceived she was (what is vernacularly termed) trailing Mrs. Dent;

  • that is, playing on her ignorance--her trail might be clever, but it was

  • decidedly not good- natured.

  • She played: her execution was brilliant; she sang: her voice was fine; she talked

  • French apart to her mamma; and she talked it well, with fluency and with a good

  • accent.

  • Mary had a milder and more open countenance than Blanche; softer features too, and a

  • skin some shades fairer (Miss Ingram was dark as a Spaniard)--but Mary was deficient

  • in life: her face lacked expression, her

  • eye lustre; she had nothing to say, and having once taken her seat, remained fixed

  • like a statue in its niche. The sisters were both attired in spotless

  • white.

  • And did I now think Miss Ingram such a choice as Mr. Rochester would be likely to

  • make? I could not tell--I did not know his taste

  • in female beauty.

  • If he liked the majestic, she was the very type of majesty: then she was accomplished,

  • sprightly.

  • Most gentlemen would admire her, I thought; and that he did admire her, I already

  • seemed to have obtained proof: to remove the last shade of doubt, it remained but to

  • see them together.

  • You are not to suppose, reader, that Adele has all this time been sitting motionless

  • on the stool at my feet: no; when the ladies entered, she rose, advanced to meet

  • them, made a stately reverence, and said with gravity--

  • "Bon jour, mesdames."

  • And Miss Ingram had looked down at her with a mocking air, and exclaimed, "Oh, what a

  • little puppet!"

  • Lady Lynn had remarked, "It is Mr. Rochester's ward, I suppose--the little

  • French girl he was speaking of." Mrs. Dent had kindly taken her hand, and

  • given her a kiss.

  • Amy and Louisa Eshton had cried out simultaneously--"What a love of a child!"

  • And then they had called her to a sofa, where she now sat, ensconced between them,

  • chattering alternately in French and broken English; absorbing not only the young

  • ladies' attention, but that of Mrs. Eshton

  • and Lady Lynn, and getting spoilt to her heart's content.

  • At last coffee is brought in, and the gentlemen are summoned.

  • I sit in the shade--if any shade there be in this brilliantly-lit apartment; the

  • window-curtain half hides me. Again the arch yawns; they come.

  • The collective appearance of the gentlemen, like that of the ladies, is very imposing:

  • they are all costumed in black; most of them are tall, some young.

  • Henry and Frederick Lynn are very dashing sparks indeed; and Colonel Dent is a fine

  • soldierly man.

  • Mr. Eshton, the magistrate of the district, is gentleman-like: his hair is quite white,

  • his eyebrows and whiskers still dark, which gives him something of the appearance of a

  • "pere noble de theatre."

  • Lord Ingram, like his sisters, is very tall; like them, also, he is handsome; but

  • he shares Mary's apathetic and listless look: he seems to have more length of limb

  • than vivacity of blood or vigour of brain.

  • And where is Mr. Rochester? He comes in last: I am not looking at the

  • arch, yet I see him enter.

  • I try to concentrate my attention on those netting-needles, on the meshes of the purse

  • I am forming--I wish to think only of the work I have in my hands, to see only the

  • silver beads and silk threads that lie in

  • my lap; whereas, I distinctly behold his figure, and I inevitably recall the moment

  • when I last saw it; just after I had rendered him, what he deemed, an essential

  • service, and he, holding my hand, and

  • looking down on my face, surveyed me with eyes that revealed a heart full and eager

  • to overflow; in whose emotions I had a part.

  • How near had I approached him at that moment!

  • What had occurred since, calculated to change his and my relative positions?

  • Yet now, how distant, how far estranged we were!

  • So far estranged, that I did not expect him to come and speak to me.

  • I did not wonder, when, without looking at me, he took a seat at the other side of the

  • room, and began conversing with some of the ladies.

  • No sooner did I see that his attention was riveted on them, and that I might gaze

  • without being observed, than my eyes were drawn involuntarily to his face; I could

  • not keep their lids under control: they would rise, and the irids would fix on him.

  • I looked, and had an acute pleasure in looking,--a precious yet poignant pleasure;

  • pure gold, with a steely point of agony: a pleasure like what the thirst-perishing man

  • might feel who knows the well to which he

  • has crept is poisoned, yet stoops and drinks divine draughts nevertheless.

  • Most true is it that "beauty is in the eye of the gazer."

  • My master's colourless, olive face, square, massive brow, broad and jetty eyebrows,

  • deep eyes, strong features, firm, grim mouth,--all energy, decision, will,--were

  • not beautiful, according to rule; but they

  • were more than beautiful to me; they were full of an interest, an influence that

  • quite mastered me,--that took my feelings from my own power and fettered them in his.

  • I had not intended to love him; the reader knows I had wrought hard to extirpate from

  • my soul the germs of love there detected; and now, at the first renewed view of him,

  • they spontaneously arrived, green and strong!

  • He made me love him without looking at me. I compared him with his guests.

  • What was the gallant grace of the Lynns, the languid elegance of Lord Ingram,--even

  • the military distinction of Colonel Dent, contrasted with his look of native pith and

  • genuine power?

  • I had no sympathy in their appearance, their expression: yet I could imagine that

  • most observers would call them attractive, handsome, imposing; while they would

  • pronounce Mr. Rochester at once harsh- featured and melancholy-looking.

  • I saw them smile, laugh--it was nothing; the light of the candles had as much soul

  • in it as their smile; the tinkle of the bell as much significance as their laugh.

  • I saw Mr. Rochester smile:--his stern features softened; his eye grew both

  • brilliant and gentle, its ray both searching and sweet.

  • He was talking, at the moment, to Louisa and Amy Eshton.

  • I wondered to see them receive with calm that look which seemed to me so

  • penetrating: I expected their eyes to fall, their colour to rise under it; yet I was

  • glad when I found they were in no sense moved.

  • "He is not to them what he is to me," I thought: "he is not of their kind.

  • I believe he is of mine;--I am sure he is-- I feel akin to him--I understand the

  • language of his countenance and movements: though rank and wealth sever us widely, I

  • have something in my brain and heart, in my

  • blood and nerves, that assimilates me mentally to him.

  • Did I say, a few days since, that I had nothing to do with him but to receive my

  • salary at his hands?

  • Did I forbid myself to think of him in any other light than as a paymaster?

  • Blasphemy against nature! Every good, true, vigorous feeling I have

  • gathers impulsively round him.

  • I know I must conceal my sentiments: I must smother hope; I must remember that he

  • cannot care much for me.

  • For when I say that I am of his kind, I do not mean that I have his force to

  • influence, and his spell to attract; I mean only that I have certain tastes and

  • feelings in common with him.

  • I must, then, repeat continually that we are for ever sundered:--and yet, while I

  • breathe and think, I must love him." Coffee is handed.

  • The ladies, since the gentlemen entered, have become lively as larks; conversation

  • waxes brisk and merry. Colonel Dent and Mr. Eshton argue on

  • politics; their wives listen.

  • The two proud dowagers, Lady Lynn and Lady Ingram, confabulate together.

  • Sir George--whom, by-the-bye, I have forgotten to describe,--a very big, and

  • very fresh-looking country gentleman, stands before their sofa, coffee- cup in

  • hand, and occasionally puts in a word.

  • Mr. Frederick Lynn has taken a seat beside Mary Ingram, and is showing her the

  • engravings of a splendid volume: she looks, smiles now and then, but apparently says

  • little.

  • The tall and phlegmatic Lord Ingram leans with folded arms on the chair-back of the

  • little and lively Amy Eshton; she glances up at him, and chatters like a wren: she

  • likes him better than she does Mr. Rochester.

  • Henry Lynn has taken possession of an ottoman at the feet of Louisa: Adele shares

  • it with him: he is trying to talk French with her, and Louisa laughs at his

  • blunders.

  • With whom will Blanche Ingram pair? She is standing alone at the table, bending

  • gracefully over an album.

  • She seems waiting to be sought; but she will not wait too long: she herself selects

  • a mate.

  • Mr. Rochester, having quitted the Eshtons, stands on the hearth as solitary as she

  • stands by the table: she confronts him, taking her station on the opposite side of

  • the mantelpiece.

  • "Mr. Rochester, I thought you were not fond of children?"

  • "Nor am I." "Then, what induced you to take charge of

  • such a little doll as that?"

  • (pointing to Adele). "Where did you pick her up?"

  • "I did not pick her up; she was left on my hands."

  • "You should have sent her to school."

  • "I could not afford it: schools are so dear."

  • "Why, I suppose you have a governess for her: I saw a person with her just now--is

  • she gone?

  • Oh, no! there she is still, behind the window- curtain.

  • You pay her, of course; I should think it quite as expensive,--more so; for you have

  • them both to keep in addition."

  • I feared--or should I say, hoped?--the allusion to me would make Mr. Rochester

  • glance my way; and I involuntarily shrank farther into the shade: but he never turned

  • his eyes.

  • "I have not considered the subject," said he indifferently, looking straight before

  • him. "No, you men never do consider economy and

  • common sense.

  • You should hear mama on the chapter of governesses: Mary and I have had, I should

  • think, a dozen at least in our day; half of them detestable and the rest ridiculous,

  • and all incubi--were they not, mama?"

  • "Did you speak, my own?" The young lady thus claimed as the

  • dowager's special property, reiterated her question with an explanation.

  • "My dearest, don't mention governesses; the word makes me nervous.

  • I have suffered a martyrdom from their incompetency and caprice.

  • I thank Heaven I have now done with them!"

  • Mrs. Dent here bent over to the pious lady and whispered something in her ear; I

  • suppose, from the answer elicited, it was a reminder that one of the anathematised race

  • was present.

  • "Tant pis!" said her Ladyship, "I hope it may do her good!"

  • Then, in a lower tone, but still loud enough for me to hear, "I noticed her; I am

  • a judge of physiognomy, and in hers I see all the faults of her class."

  • "What are they, madam?" inquired Mr. Rochester aloud.

  • "I will tell you in your private ear," replied she, wagging her turban three times

  • with portentous significancy.

  • "But my curiosity will be past its appetite; it craves food now."

  • "Ask Blanche; she is nearer you than I." "Oh, don't refer him to me, mama!

  • I have just one word to say of the whole tribe; they are a nuisance.

  • Not that I ever suffered much from them; I took care to turn the tables.

  • What tricks Theodore and I used to play on our Miss Wilsons, and Mrs. Greys, and

  • Madame Jouberts! Mary was always too sleepy to join in a

  • plot with spirit.

  • The best fun was with Madame Joubert: Miss Wilson was a poor sickly thing, lachrymose

  • and low- spirited, not worth the trouble of vanquishing, in short; and Mrs. Grey was

  • coarse and insensible; no blow took effect on her.

  • But poor Madame Joubert!

  • I see her yet in her raging passions, when we had driven her to extremities--spilt our

  • tea, crumbled our bread and butter, tossed our books up to the ceiling, and played a

  • charivari with the ruler and desk, the fender and fire-irons.

  • Theodore, do you remember those merry days?"

  • "Yaas, to be sure I do," drawled Lord Ingram; "and the poor old stick used to cry

  • out 'Oh you villains childs!'--and then we sermonised her on the presumption of

  • attempting to teach such clever blades as we were, when she was herself so ignorant."

  • "We did; and, Tedo, you know, I helped you in prosecuting (or persecuting) your tutor,

  • whey-faced Mr. Vining--the parson in the pip, as we used to call him.

  • He and Miss Wilson took the liberty of falling in love with each other--at least

  • Tedo and I thought so; we surprised sundry tender glances and sighs which we

  • interpreted as tokens of 'la belle

  • passion,' and I promise you the public soon had the benefit of our discovery; we

  • employed it as a sort of lever to hoist our dead-weights from the house.

  • Dear mama, there, as soon as she got an inkling of the business, found out that it

  • was of an immoral tendency. Did you not, my lady-mother?"

  • "Certainly, my best.

  • And I was quite right: depend on that: there are a thousand reasons why liaisons

  • between governesses and tutors should never be tolerated a moment in any well-regulated

  • house; firstly--"

  • "Oh, gracious, mama! Spare us the enumeration!

  • Au reste, we all know them: danger of bad example to innocence of childhood;

  • distractions and consequent neglect of duty on the part of the attached--mutual

  • alliance and reliance; confidence thence

  • resulting--insolence accompanying--mutiny and general blow-up.

  • Am I right, Baroness Ingram, of Ingram Park?"

  • "My lily-flower, you are right now, as always."

  • "Then no more need be said: change the subject."

  • Amy Eshton, not hearing or not heeding this dictum, joined in with her soft, infantine

  • tone: "Louisa and I used to quiz our governess too; but she was such a good

  • creature, she would bear anything: nothing put her out.

  • She was never cross with us; was she, Louisa?"

  • "No, never: we might do what we pleased; ransack her desk and her workbox, and turn

  • her drawers inside out; and she was so good-natured, she would give us anything we

  • asked for."

  • "I suppose, now," said Miss Ingram, curling her lip sarcastically, "we shall have an

  • abstract of the memoirs of all the governesses extant: in order to avert such

  • a visitation, I again move the introduction of a new topic.

  • Mr. Rochester, do you second my motion?" "Madam, I support you on this point, as on

  • every other."

  • "Then on me be the onus of bringing it forward.

  • Signior Eduardo, are you in voice to- night?"

  • "Donna Bianca, if you command it, I will be."

  • "Then, signior, I lay on you my sovereign behest to furbish up your lungs and other

  • vocal organs, as they will be wanted on my royal service."

  • "Who would not be the Rizzio of so divine a Mary?"

  • "A fig for Rizzio!" cried she, tossing her head with all its curls, as she moved to

  • the piano.

  • "It is my opinion the fiddler David must have been an insipid sort of fellow; I like

  • black Bothwell better: to my mind a man is nothing without a spice of the devil in

  • him; and history may say what it will of

  • James Hepburn, but I have a notion, he was just the sort of wild, fierce, bandit hero

  • whom I could have consented to gift with my hand."

  • "Gentlemen, you hear!

  • Now which of you most resembles Bothwell?" cried Mr. Rochester.

  • "I should say the preference lies with you," responded Colonel Dent.

  • "On my honour, I am much obliged to you," was the reply.

  • Miss Ingram, who had now seated herself with proud grace at the piano, spreading

  • out her snowy robes in queenly amplitude, commenced a brilliant prelude; talking

  • meantime.

  • She appeared to be on her high horse to- night; both her words and her air seemed

  • intended to excite not only the admiration, but the amazement of her auditors: she was

  • evidently bent on striking them as something very dashing and daring indeed.

  • "Oh, I am so sick of the young men of the present day!" exclaimed she, rattling away

  • at the instrument.

  • "Poor, puny things, not fit to stir a step beyond papa's park gates: nor to go even so

  • far without mama's permission and guardianship!

  • Creatures so absorbed in care about their pretty faces, and their white hands, and

  • their small feet; as if a man had anything to do with beauty!

  • As if loveliness were not the special prerogative of woman--her legitimate

  • appanage and heritage!

  • I grant an ugly woman is a blot on the fair face of creation; but as to the

  • gentlemen, let them be solicitous to possess only strength and valour: let their

  • motto be:--Hunt, shoot, and fight: the rest is not worth a fillip.

  • Such should be my device, were I a man."

  • "Whenever I marry," she continued after a pause which none interrupted, "I am

  • resolved my husband shall not be a rival, but a foil to me.

  • I will suffer no competitor near the throne; I shall exact an undivided homage:

  • his devotions shall not be shared between me and the shape he sees in his mirror.

  • Mr. Rochester, now sing, and I will play for you."

  • "I am all obedience," was the response. "Here then is a Corsair-song.

  • Know that I doat on Corsairs; and for that reason, sing it con spirito."

  • "Commands from Miss Ingram's lips would put spirit into a mug of milk and water."

  • "Take care, then: if you don't please me, I will shame you by showing how such things

  • should be done." "That is offering a premium on incapacity:

  • I shall now endeavour to fail."

  • "Gardez-vous en bien! If you err wilfully, I shall devise a

  • proportionate punishment."

  • "Miss Ingram ought to be clement, for she has it in her power to inflict a

  • chastisement beyond mortal endurance." "Ha! explain!" commanded the lady.

  • "Pardon me, madam: no need of explanation; your own fine sense must inform you that

  • one of your frowns would be a sufficient substitute for capital punishment."

  • "Sing!" said she, and again touching the piano, she commenced an accompaniment in

  • spirited style.

  • "Now is my time to slip away," thought I: but the tones that then severed the air

  • arrested me.

  • Mrs. Fairfax had said Mr. Rochester possessed a fine voice: he did--a mellow,

  • powerful bass, into which he threw his own feeling, his own force; finding a way

  • through the ear to the heart, and there waking sensation strangely.

  • I waited till the last deep and full vibration had expired--till the tide of

  • talk, checked an instant, had resumed its flow; I then quitted my sheltered corner

  • and made my exit by the side-door, which was fortunately near.

  • Thence a narrow passage led into the hall: in crossing it, I perceived my sandal was

  • loose; I stopped to tie it, kneeling down for that purpose on the mat at the foot of

  • the staircase.

  • I heard the dining-room door unclose; a gentleman came out; rising hastily, I stood

  • face to face with him: it was Mr. Rochester.

  • "How do you do?" he asked.

  • "I am very well, sir." "Why did you not come and speak to me in

  • the room?"

  • I thought I might have retorted the question on him who put it: but I would not

  • take that freedom. I answered--

  • "I did not wish to disturb you, as you seemed engaged, sir."

  • "What have you been doing during my absence?"

  • "Nothing particular; teaching Adele as usual."

  • "And getting a good deal paler than you were--as I saw at first sight.

  • What is the matter?"

  • "Nothing at all, sir." "Did you take any cold that night you half

  • drowned me?" "Not the least."

  • "Return to the drawing-room: you are deserting too early."

  • "I am tired, sir." He looked at me for a minute.

  • "And a little depressed," he said.

  • "What about? Tell me."

  • "Nothing--nothing, sir. I am not depressed."

  • "But I affirm that you are: so much depressed that a few more words would bring

  • tears to your eyes--indeed, they are there now, shining and swimming; and a bead has

  • slipped from the lash and fallen on to the flag.

  • If I had time, and was not in mortal dread of some prating prig of a servant passing,

  • I would know what all this means.

  • Well, to-night I excuse you; but understand that so long as my visitors stay, I expect

  • you to appear in the drawing-room every evening; it is my wish; don't neglect it.

  • Now go, and send Sophie for Adele.

  • Good-night, my--" He stopped, bit his lip, and abruptly left me.

  • >

  • CHAPTER XVIII

  • Merry days were these at Thornfield Hall; and busy days too: how different from the

  • first three months of stillness, monotony, and solitude I had passed beneath its roof!

  • All sad feelings seemed now driven from the house, all gloomy associations forgotten:

  • there was life everywhere, movement all day long.

  • You could not now traverse the gallery, once so hushed, nor enter the front

  • chambers, once so tenantless, without encountering a smart lady's-maid or a dandy

  • valet.

  • The kitchen, the butler's pantry, the servants' hall, the entrance hall, were

  • equally alive; and the saloons were only left void and still when the blue sky and

  • halcyon sunshine of the genial spring

  • weather called their occupants out into the grounds.

  • Even when that weather was broken, and continuous rain set in for some days, no

  • damp seemed cast over enjoyment: indoor amusements only became more lively and

  • varied, in consequence of the stop put to outdoor gaiety.

  • I wondered what they were going to do the first evening a change of entertainment was

  • proposed: they spoke of "playing charades," but in my ignorance I did not understand

  • the term.

  • The servants were called in, the dining- room tables wheeled away, the lights

  • otherwise disposed, the chairs placed in a semicircle opposite the arch.

  • While Mr. Rochester and the other gentlemen directed these alterations, the ladies were

  • running up and down stairs ringing for their maids.

  • Mrs. Fairfax was summoned to give information respecting the resources of the

  • house in shawls, dresses, draperies of any kind; and certain wardrobes of the third

  • storey were ransacked, and their contents,

  • in the shape of brocaded and hooped petticoats, satin sacques, black modes,

  • lace lappets, &c., were brought down in armfuls by the abigails; then a selection

  • was made, and such things as were chosen

  • were carried to the boudoir within the drawing-room.

  • Meantime, Mr. Rochester had again summoned the ladies round him, and was selecting

  • certain of their number to be of his party.

  • "Miss Ingram is mine, of course," said he: afterwards he named the two Misses Eshton,

  • and Mrs. Dent.

  • He looked at me: I happened to be near him, as I had been fastening the clasp of Mrs.

  • Dent's bracelet, which had got loose. "Will you play?" he asked.

  • I shook my head.

  • He did not insist, which I rather feared he would have done; he allowed me to return

  • quietly to my usual seat.

  • He and his aids now withdrew behind the curtain: the other party, which was headed

  • by Colonel Dent, sat down on the crescent of chairs.

  • One of the gentlemen, Mr. Eshton, observing me, seemed to propose that I should be

  • asked to join them; but Lady Ingram instantly negatived the notion.

  • "No," I heard her say: "she looks too stupid for any game of the sort."

  • Ere long a bell tinkled, and the curtain drew up.

  • Within the arch, the bulky figure of Sir George Lynn, whom Mr. Rochester had

  • likewise chosen, was seen enveloped in a white sheet: before him, on a table, lay

  • open a large book; and at his side stood

  • Amy Eshton, draped in Mr. Rochester's cloak, and holding a book in her hand.

  • Somebody, unseen, rang the bell merrily; then Adele (who had insisted on being one

  • of her guardian's party), bounded forward, scattering round her the contents of a

  • basket of flowers she carried on her arm.

  • Then appeared the magnificent figure of Miss Ingram, clad in white, a long veil on

  • her head, and a wreath of roses round her brow; by her side walked Mr. Rochester, and

  • together they drew near the table.

  • They knelt; while Mrs. Dent and Louisa Eshton, dressed also in white, took up

  • their stations behind them.

  • A ceremony followed, in dumb show, in which it was easy to recognise the pantomime of a

  • marriage.

  • At its termination, Colonel Dent and his party consulted in whispers for two

  • minutes, then the Colonel called out-- "Bride!"

  • Mr. Rochester bowed, and the curtain fell.

  • A considerable interval elapsed before it again rose.

  • Its second rising displayed a more elaborately prepared scene than the last.

  • The drawing- room, as I have before observed, was raised two steps above the

  • dining- room, and on the top of the upper step, placed a yard or two back within the

  • room, appeared a large marble basin--which

  • I recognised as an ornament of the conservatory--where it usually stood,

  • surrounded by exotics, and tenanted by gold fish--and whence it must have been

  • transported with some trouble, on account of its size and weight.

  • Seated on the carpet, by the side of this basin, was seen Mr. Rochester, costumed in

  • shawls, with a turban on his head.

  • His dark eyes and swarthy skin and Paynim features suited the costume exactly: he

  • looked the very model of an Eastern emir, an agent or a victim of the bowstring.

  • Presently advanced into view Miss Ingram.

  • She, too, was attired in oriental fashion: a crimson scarf tied sash-like round the

  • waist: an embroidered handkerchief knotted about her temples; her beautifully-moulded

  • arms bare, one of them upraised in the act

  • of supporting a pitcher, poised gracefully on her head.

  • Both her cast of form and feature, her complexion and her general air, suggested

  • the idea of some Israelitish princess of the patriarchal days; and such was

  • doubtless the character she intended to represent.

  • She approached the basin, and bent over it as if to fill her pitcher; she again lifted

  • it to her head.

  • The personage on the well-brink now seemed to accost her; to make some request:--"She

  • hasted, let down her pitcher on her hand, and gave him to drink."

  • From the bosom of his robe he then produced a casket, opened it and showed magnificent

  • bracelets and earrings; she acted astonishment and admiration; kneeling, he

  • laid the treasure at her feet; incredulity

  • and delight were expressed by her looks and gestures; the stranger fastened the

  • bracelets on her arms and the rings in her ears.

  • It was Eliezer and Rebecca: the camels only were wanting.

  • The divining party again laid their heads together: apparently they could not agree

  • about the word or syllable the scene illustrated.

  • Colonel Dent, their spokesman, demanded "the tableau of the whole;" whereupon the

  • curtain again descended.

  • On its third rising only a portion of the drawing-room was disclosed; the rest being

  • concealed by a screen, hung with some sort of dark and coarse drapery.

  • The marble basin was removed; in its place, stood a deal table and a kitchen chair:

  • these objects were visible by a very dim light proceeding from a horn lantern, the

  • wax candles being all extinguished.

  • Amidst this sordid scene, sat a man with his clenched hands resting on his knees,

  • and his eyes bent on the ground.

  • I knew Mr. Rochester; though the begrimed face, the disordered dress (his coat

  • hanging loose from one arm, as if it had been almost torn from his back in a

  • scuffle), the desperate and scowling

  • countenance, the rough, bristling hair might well have disguised him.

  • As he moved, a chain clanked; to his wrists were attached fetters.

  • "Bridewell!" exclaimed Colonel Dent, and the charade was solved.

  • A sufficient interval having elapsed for the performers to resume their ordinary

  • costume, they re-entered the dining-room.

  • Mr. Rochester led in Miss Ingram; she was complimenting him on his acting.

  • "Do you know," said she, "that, of the three characters, I liked you in the last

  • best?

  • Oh, had you but lived a few years earlier, what a gallant gentleman-highwayman you

  • would have made!" "Is all the soot washed from my face?" he

  • asked, turning it towards her.

  • "Alas! yes: the more's the pity! Nothing could be more becoming to your

  • complexion than that ruffian's rouge." "You would like a hero of the road then?"

  • "An English hero of the road would be the next best thing to an Italian bandit; and

  • that could only be surpassed by a Levantine pirate."

  • "Well, whatever I am, remember you are my wife; we were married an hour since, in the

  • presence of all these witnesses." She giggled, and her colour rose.

  • "Now, Dent," continued Mr. Rochester, "it is your turn."

  • And as the other party withdrew, he and his band took the vacated seats.

  • Miss Ingram placed herself at her leader's right hand; the other diviners filled the

  • chairs on each side of him and her.

  • I did not now watch the actors; I no longer waited with interest for the curtain to

  • rise; my attention was absorbed by the spectators; my eyes, erewhile fixed on the

  • arch, were now irresistibly attracted to the semicircle of chairs.

  • What charade Colonel Dent and his party played, what word they chose, how they

  • acquitted themselves, I no longer remember; but I still see the consultation which

  • followed each scene: I see Mr. Rochester

  • turn to Miss Ingram, and Miss Ingram to him; I see her incline her head towards

  • him, till the jetty curls almost touch his shoulder and wave against his cheek; I hear

  • their mutual whisperings; I recall their

  • interchanged glances; and something even of the feeling roused by the spectacle returns

  • in memory at this moment.

  • I have told you, reader, that I had learnt to love Mr. Rochester: I could not unlove

  • him now, merely because I found that he had ceased to notice me--because I might pass

  • hours in his presence, and he would never

  • once turn his eyes in my direction--because I saw all his attentions appropriated by a

  • great lady, who scorned to touch me with the hem of her robes as she passed; who, if

  • ever her dark and imperious eye fell on me

  • by chance, would withdraw it instantly as from an object too mean to merit

  • observation.

  • I could not unlove him, because I felt sure he would soon marry this very lady--because

  • I read daily in her a proud security in his intentions respecting her--because I

  • witnessed hourly in him a style of

  • courtship which, if careless and choosing rather to be sought than to seek, was yet,

  • in its very carelessness, captivating, and in its very pride, irresistible.

  • There was nothing to cool or banish love in these circumstances, though much to create

  • despair.

  • Much too, you will think, reader, to engender jealousy: if a woman, in my

  • position, could presume to be jealous of a woman in Miss Ingram's.

  • But I was not jealous: or very rarely;--the nature of the pain I suffered could not be

  • explained by that word. Miss Ingram was a mark beneath jealousy:

  • she was too inferior to excite the feeling.

  • Pardon the seeming paradox; I mean what I say.

  • She was very showy, but she was not genuine: she had a fine person, many

  • brilliant attainments; but her mind was poor, her heart barren by nature: nothing

  • bloomed spontaneously on that soil; no

  • unforced natural fruit delighted by its freshness.

  • She was not good; she was not original: she used to repeat sounding phrases from books:

  • she never offered, nor had, an opinion of her own.

  • She advocated a high tone of sentiment; but she did not know the sensations of sympathy

  • and pity; tenderness and truth were not in her.

  • Too often she betrayed this, by the undue vent she gave to a spiteful antipathy she

  • had conceived against little Adele: pushing her away with some contumelious epithet if

  • she happened to approach her; sometimes

  • ordering her from the room, and always treating her with coldness and acrimony.

  • Other eyes besides mine watched these manifestations of character--watched them

  • closely, keenly, shrewdly.

  • Yes; the future bridegroom, Mr. Rochester himself, exercised over his intended a

  • ceaseless surveillance; and it was from this sagacity--this guardedness of his--

  • this perfect, clear consciousness of his

  • fair one's defects--this obvious absence of passion in his sentiments towards her, that

  • my ever- torturing pain arose.

  • I saw he was going to marry her, for family, perhaps political reasons, because

  • her rank and connections suited him; I felt he had not given her his love, and that her

  • qualifications were ill adapted to win from him that treasure.

  • This was the point--this was where the nerve was touched and teased--this was

  • where the fever was sustained and fed: she could not charm him.

  • If she had managed the victory at once, and he had yielded and sincerely laid his heart

  • at her feet, I should have covered my face, turned to the wall, and (figuratively) have

  • died to them.

  • If Miss Ingram had been a good and noble woman, endowed with force, fervour,

  • kindness, sense, I should have had one vital struggle with two tigers--jealousy

  • and despair: then, my heart torn out and

  • devoured, I should have admired her-- acknowledged her excellence, and been quiet

  • for the rest of my days: and the more absolute her superiority, the deeper would

  • have been my admiration--the more truly tranquil my quiescence.

  • But as matters really stood, to watch Miss Ingram's efforts at fascinating Mr.

  • Rochester, to witness their repeated failure--herself unconscious that they did

  • fail; vainly fancying that each shaft

  • launched hit the mark, and infatuatedly pluming herself on success, when her pride

  • and self-complacency repelled further and further what she wished to allure--to

  • witness this, was to be at once under

  • ceaseless excitation and ruthless restraint.

  • Because, when she failed, I saw how she might have succeeded.

  • Arrows that continually glanced off from Mr. Rochester's breast and fell harmless at

  • his feet, might, I knew, if shot by a surer hand, have quivered keen in his proud

  • heart--have called love into his stern eye,

  • and softness into his sardonic face; or, better still, without weapons a silent

  • conquest might have been won. "Why can she not influence him more, when

  • she is privileged to draw so near to him?"

  • I asked myself. "Surely she cannot truly like him, or not

  • like him with true affection!

  • If she did, she need not coin her smiles so lavishly, flash her glances so

  • unremittingly, manufacture airs so elaborate, graces so multitudinous.

  • It seems to me that she might, by merely sitting quietly at his side, saying little

  • and looking less, get nigher his heart.

  • I have seen in his face a far different expression from that which hardens it now

  • while she is so vivaciously accosting him; but then it came of itself: it was not

  • elicited by meretricious arts and

  • calculated manoeuvres; and one had but to accept it--to answer what he asked without

  • pretension, to address him when needful without grimace--and it increased and grew

  • kinder and more genial, and warmed one like a fostering sunbeam.

  • How will she manage to please him when they are married?

  • I do not think she will manage it; and yet it might be managed; and his wife might, I

  • verily believe, be the very happiest woman the sun shines on."

  • I have not yet said anything condemnatory of Mr. Rochester's project of marrying for

  • interest and connections.

  • It surprised me when I first discovered that such was his intention: I had thought

  • him a man unlikely to be influenced by motives so commonplace in his choice of a

  • wife; but the longer I considered the

  • position, education, &c., of the parties, the less I felt justified in judging and

  • blaming either him or Miss Ingram for acting in conformity to ideas and

  • principles instilled into them, doubtless, from their childhood.

  • All their class held these principles: I supposed, then, they had reasons for

  • holding them such as I could not fathom.

  • It seemed to me that, were I a gentleman like him, I would take to my bosom only

  • such a wife as I could love; but the very obviousness of the advantages to the

  • husband's own happiness offered by this

  • plan convinced me that there must be arguments against its general adoption of

  • which I was quite ignorant: otherwise I felt sure all the world would act as I

  • wished to act.

  • But in other points, as well as this, I was growing very lenient to my master: I was

  • forgetting all his faults, for which I had once kept a sharp look-out.

  • It had formerly been my endeavour to study all sides of his character: to take the bad

  • with the good; and from the just weighing of both, to form an equitable judgment.

  • Now I saw no bad.

  • The sarcasm that had repelled, the harshness that had startled me once, were

  • only like keen condiments in a choice dish: their presence was pungent, but their

  • absence would be felt as comparatively insipid.

  • And as for the vague something--was it a sinister or a sorrowful, a designing or a

  • desponding expression?--that opened upon a careful observer, now and then, in his eye,

  • and closed again before one could fathom

  • the strange depth partially disclosed; that something which used to make me fear and

  • shrink, as if I had been wandering amongst volcanic-looking hills, and had suddenly

  • felt the ground quiver and seen it gape:

  • that something, I, at intervals, beheld still; and with throbbing heart, but not

  • with palsied nerves.

  • Instead of wishing to shun, I longed only to dare--to divine it; and I thought Miss

  • Ingram happy, because one day she might look into the abyss at her leisure, explore

  • its secrets and analyse their nature.

  • Meantime, while I thought only of my master and his future bride--saw only them, heard

  • only their discourse, and considered only their movements of importance--the rest of

  • the party were occupied with their own separate interests and pleasures.

  • The Ladies Lynn and Ingram continued to consort in solemn conferences, where they

  • nodded their two turbans at each other, and held up their four hands in confronting

  • gestures of surprise, or mystery, or

  • horror, according to the theme on which their gossip ran, like a pair of magnified

  • puppets.

  • Mild Mrs. Dent talked with good-natured Mrs. Eshton; and the two sometimes bestowed

  • a courteous word or smile on me.

  • Sir George Lynn, Colonel Dent, and Mr. Eshton discussed politics, or county

  • affairs, or justice business.

  • Lord Ingram flirted with Amy Eshton; Louisa played and sang to and with one of the

  • Messrs. Lynn; and Mary Ingram listened languidly to

  • the gallant speeches of the other.

  • Sometimes all, as with one consent, suspended their by-play to observe and

  • listen to the principal actors: for, after all, Mr. Rochester and--because closely

  • connected with him--Miss Ingram were the life and soul of the party.

  • If he was absent from the room an hour, a perceptible dulness seemed to steal over

  • the spirits of his guests; and his re- entrance was sure to give a fresh impulse

  • to the vivacity of conversation.

  • The want of his animating influence appeared to be peculiarly felt one day that

  • he had been summoned to Millcote on business, and was not likely to return till

  • late.

  • The afternoon was wet: a walk the party had proposed to take to see a gipsy camp,

  • lately pitched on a common beyond Hay, was consequently deferred.

  • Some of the gentlemen were gone to the stables: the younger ones, together with

  • the younger ladies, were playing billiards in the billiard-room.

  • The dowagers Ingram and Lynn sought solace in a quiet game at cards.

  • Blanche Ingram, after having repelled, by supercilious taciturnity, some efforts of

  • Mrs. Dent and Mrs. Eshton to draw her into conversation, had first murmured over some

  • sentimental tunes and airs on the piano,

  • and then, having fetched a novel from the library, had flung herself in haughty

  • listlessness on a sofa, and prepared to beguile, by the spell of fiction, the

  • tedious hours of absence.

  • The room and the house were silent: only now and then the merriment of the billiard-

  • players was heard from above.

  • It was verging on dusk, and the clock had already given warning of the hour to dress

  • for dinner, when little Adele, who knelt by me in the drawing-room window-seat,

  • suddenly exclaimed--

  • "Voila, Monsieur Rochester, qui revient!"

  • I turned, and Miss Ingram darted forwards from her sofa: the others, too, looked up

  • from their several occupations; for at the same time a crunching of wheels and a

  • splashing tramp of horse-hoofs became audible on the wet gravel.

  • A post-chaise was approaching. "What can possess him to come home in that

  • style?" said Miss Ingram.

  • "He rode Mesrour (the black horse), did he not, when he went out? and Pilot was with

  • him:--what has he done with the animals?"

  • As she said this, she approached her tall person and ample garments so near the

  • window, that I was obliged to bend back almost to the breaking of my spine: in her

  • eagerness she did not observe me at first,

  • but when she did, she curled her lip and moved to another casement.

  • The post-chaise stopped; the driver rang the door-bell, and a gentleman alighted

  • attired in travelling garb; but it was not Mr. Rochester; it was a tall, fashionable-

  • looking man, a stranger.

  • "How provoking!" exclaimed Miss Ingram: "you tiresome monkey!"

  • (apostrophising Adele), "who perched you up in the window to give false intelligence?"

  • and she cast on me an angry glance, as if I were in fault.

  • Some parleying was audible in the hall, and soon the new-comer entered.

  • He bowed to Lady Ingram, as deeming her the eldest lady present.

  • "It appears I come at an inopportune time, madam," said he, "when my friend, Mr.

  • Rochester, is from home; but I arrive from a very long journey, and I think I may

  • presume so far on old and intimate

  • acquaintance as to instal myself here till he returns."

  • His manner was polite; his accent, in speaking, struck me as being somewhat

  • unusual,--not precisely foreign, but still not altogether English: his age might be

  • about Mr. Rochester's,--between thirty and

  • forty; his complexion was singularly sallow: otherwise he was a fine-looking

  • man, at first sight especially.

  • On closer examination, you detected something in his face that displeased, or

  • rather that failed to please.

  • His features were regular, but too relaxed: his eye was large and well cut, but the

  • life looking out of it was a tame, vacant life--at least so I thought.

  • The sound of the dressing-bell dispersed the party.

  • It was not till after dinner that I saw him again: he then seemed quite at his ease.

  • But I liked his physiognomy even less than before: it struck me as being at the same

  • time unsettled and inanimate.

  • His eye wandered, and had no meaning in its wandering: this gave him an odd look, such

  • as I never remembered to have seen.

  • For a handsome and not an unamiable-looking man, he repelled me exceedingly: there was

  • no power in that smooth-skinned face of a full oval shape: no firmness in that

  • aquiline nose and small cherry mouth; there

  • was no thought on the low, even forehead; no command in that blank, brown eye.

  • As I sat in my usual nook, and looked at him with the light of the girandoles on the

  • mantelpiece beaming full over him--for he occupied an arm-chair drawn close to the

  • fire, and kept shrinking still nearer, as

  • if he were cold, I compared him with Mr. Rochester.

  • I think (with deference be it spoken) the contrast could not be much greater between

  • a sleek gander and a fierce falcon: between a meek sheep and the rough-coated keen-eyed

  • dog, its guardian.

  • He had spoken of Mr. Rochester as an old friend.

  • A curious friendship theirs must have been: a pointed illustration, indeed, of the old

  • adage that "extremes meet."

  • Two or three of the gentlemen sat near him, and I caught at times scraps of their

  • conversation across the room.

  • At first I could not make much sense of what I heard; for the discourse of Louisa

  • Eshton and Mary Ingram, who sat nearer to me, confused the fragmentary sentences that

  • reached me at intervals.

  • These last were discussing the stranger; they both called him "a beautiful man."

  • Louisa said he was "a love of a creature," and she "adored him;" and Mary instanced

  • his "pretty little mouth, and nice nose," as her ideal of the charming.

  • "And what a sweet-tempered forehead he has!" cried Louisa,--"so smooth--none of

  • those frowning irregularities I dislike so much; and such a placid eye and smile!"

  • And then, to my great relief, Mr. Henry Lynn summoned them to the other side of the

  • room, to settle some point about the deferred excursion to Hay Common.

  • I was now able to concentrate my attention on the group by the fire, and I presently

  • gathered that the new-comer was called Mr. Mason; then I learned that he was but just

  • arrived in England, and that he came from

  • some hot country: which was the reason, doubtless, his face was so sallow, and that

  • he sat so near the hearth, and wore a surtout in the house.

  • Presently the words Jamaica, Kingston, Spanish Town, indicated the West Indies as

  • his residence; and it was with no little surprise I gathered, ere long, that he had

  • there first seen and become acquainted with Mr. Rochester.

  • He spoke of his friend's dislike of the burning heats, the hurricanes, and rainy

  • seasons of that region.

  • I knew Mr. Rochester had been a traveller: Mrs. Fairfax had said so; but I thought the

  • continent of Europe had bounded his wanderings; till now I had never heard a

  • hint given of visits to more distant shores.

  • I was pondering these things, when an incident, and a somewhat unexpected one,

  • broke the thread of my musings.

  • Mr. Mason, shivering as some one chanced to open the door, asked for more coal to be

  • put on the fire, which had burnt out its flame, though its mass of cinder still

  • shone hot and red.

  • The footman who brought the coal, in going out, stopped near Mr. Eshton's chair, and

  • said something to him in a low voice, of which I heard only the words, "old woman,"-

  • -"quite troublesome."

  • "Tell her she shall be put in the stocks if she does not take herself off," replied the

  • magistrate. "No--stop!" interrupted Colonel Dent.

  • "Don't send her away, Eshton; we might turn the thing to account; better consult the

  • ladies."

  • And speaking aloud, he continued--"Ladies, you talked of going to Hay Common to visit

  • the gipsy camp; Sam here says that one of the old Mother Bunches is in the servants'

  • hall at this moment, and insists upon being

  • brought in before 'the quality,' to tell them their fortunes.

  • Would you like to see her?" "Surely, colonel," cried Lady Ingram, "you

  • would not encourage such a low impostor?

  • Dismiss her, by all means, at once!"

  • "But I cannot persuade her to go away, my lady," said the footman; "nor can any of

  • the servants: Mrs. Fairfax is with her just now, entreating her to be gone; but she has

  • taken a chair in the chimney-corner, and

  • says nothing shall stir her from it till she gets leave to come in here."

  • "What does she want?" asked Mrs. Eshton.

  • "'To tell the gentry their fortunes,' she says, ma'am; and she swears she must and

  • will do it." "What is she like?" inquired the Misses

  • Eshton, in a breath.

  • "A shockingly ugly old creature, miss; almost as black as a crock."

  • "Why, she's a real sorceress!" cried Frederick Lynn.

  • "Let us have her in, of course."

  • "To be sure," rejoined his brother; "it would be a thousand pities to throw away

  • such a chance of fun." "My dear boys, what are you thinking

  • about?" exclaimed Mrs. Lynn.

  • "I cannot possibly countenance any such inconsistent proceeding," chimed in the

  • Dowager Ingram.

  • "Indeed, mama, but you can--and will," pronounced the haughty voice of Blanche, as

  • she turned round on the piano-stool; where till now she had sat silent, apparently

  • examining sundry sheets of music.

  • "I have a curiosity to hear my fortune told: therefore, Sam, order the beldame

  • forward." "My darling Blanche! recollect--"

  • "I do--I recollect all you can suggest; and I must have my will--quick, Sam!"

  • "Yes--yes--yes!" cried all the juveniles, both ladies and gentlemen.

  • "Let her come--it will be excellent sport!"

  • The footman still lingered. "She looks such a rough one," said he.

  • "Go!" ejaculated Miss Ingram, and the man went.

  • Excitement instantly seized the whole party: a running fire of raillery and jests

  • was proceeding when Sam returned. "She won't come now," said he.

  • "She says it's not her mission to appear before the 'vulgar herd' (them's her

  • words).

  • I must show her into a room by herself, and then those who wish to consult her must go

  • to her one by one." "You see now, my queenly Blanche," began

  • Lady Ingram, "she encroaches.

  • Be advised, my angel girl--and--" "Show her into the library, of course," cut

  • in the "angel girl."

  • "It is not my mission to listen to her before the vulgar herd either: I mean to

  • have her all to myself. Is there a fire in the library?"

  • "Yes, ma'am--but she looks such a tinkler."

  • "Cease that chatter, blockhead! and do my bidding."

  • Again Sam vanished; and mystery, animation, expectation rose to full flow once more.

  • "She's ready now," said the footman, as he reappeared.

  • "She wishes to know who will be her first visitor."

  • "I think I had better just look in upon her before any of the ladies go," said Colonel

  • Dent. "Tell her, Sam, a gentleman is coming."

  • Sam went and returned.

  • "She says, sir, that she'll have no gentlemen; they need not trouble themselves

  • to come near her; nor," he added, with difficulty suppressing a titter, "any

  • ladies either, except the young, and single."

  • "By Jove, she has taste!" exclaimed Henry Lynn.

  • Miss Ingram rose solemnly: "I go first," she said, in a tone which might have

  • befitted the leader of a forlorn hope, mounting a breach in the van of his men.

  • "Oh, my best! oh, my dearest! pause-- reflect!" was her mama's cry; but she swept

  • past her in stately silence, passed through the door which Colonel Dent held open, and

  • we heard her enter the library.

  • A comparative silence ensued. Lady Ingram thought it "le cas" to wring

  • her hands: which she did accordingly. Miss Mary declared she felt, for her part,

  • she never dared venture.

  • Amy and Louisa Eshton tittered under their breath, and looked a little frightened.

  • The minutes passed very slowly: fifteen were counted before the library- door again

  • opened.

  • Miss Ingram returned to us through the arch.

  • Would she laugh? Would she take it as a joke?

  • All eyes met her with a glance of eager curiosity, and she met all eyes with one of

  • rebuff and coldness; she looked neither flurried nor merry: she walked stiffly to

  • her seat, and took it in silence.

  • "Well, Blanche?" said Lord Ingram. "What did she say, sister?" asked Mary.

  • "What did you think? How do you feel?--Is she a real fortune-

  • teller?" demanded the Misses Eshton.

  • "Now, now, good people," returned Miss Ingram, "don't press upon me.

  • Really your organs of wonder and credulity are easily excited: you seem, by the

  • importance of you all--my good mama included--ascribe to this matter,

  • absolutely to believe we have a genuine

  • witch in the house, who is in close alliance with the old gentleman.

  • I have seen a gipsy vagabond; she has practised in hackneyed fashion the science

  • of palmistry and told me what such people usually tell.

  • My whim is gratified; and now I think Mr. Eshton will do well to put the hag in the

  • stocks to-morrow morning, as he threatened."

  • Miss Ingram took a book, leant back in her chair, and so declined further

  • conversation.

  • I watched her for nearly half-an-hour: during all that time she never turned a

  • page, and her face grew momently darker, more dissatisfied, and more sourly

  • expressive of disappointment.

  • She had obviously not heard anything to her advantage: and it seemed to me, from her

  • prolonged fit of gloom and taciturnity, that she herself, notwithstanding her

  • professed indifference, attached undue

  • importance to whatever revelations had been made her.

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  • Meantime, Mary Ingram, Amy and Louisa Eshton, declared they dared not go alone;

  • and yet they all wished to go.

  • A negotiation was opened through the medium of the ambassador, Sam; and after much

  • pacing to and fro, till, I think, the said Sam's calves must have ached with the

  • exercise, permission was at last, with

  • great difficulty, extorted from the rigorous Sibyl, for the three to wait upon

  • her in a body.

  • Their visit was not so still as Miss Ingram's had been: we heard hysterical

  • giggling and little shrieks proceeding from the library; and at the end of about twenty

  • minutes they burst the door open, and came

  • running across the hall, as if they were half-scared out of their wits.

  • "I am sure she is something not right!" they cried, one and all.

  • "She told us such things!

  • She knows all about us!" and they sank breathless into the various seats the

  • gentlemen hastened to bring them.

  • Pressed for further explanation, they declared she had told them of things they

  • had said and done when they were mere children; described books and ornaments

  • they had in their boudoirs at home:

  • keepsakes that different relations had presented to them.

  • They affirmed that she had even divined their thoughts, and had whispered in the

  • ear of each the name of the person she liked best in the world, and informed them

  • of what they most wished for.

  • Here the gentlemen interposed with earnest petitions to be further enlightened on

  • these two last-named points; but they got only blushes, ejaculations, tremors, and

  • titters, in return for their importunity.

  • The matrons, meantime, offered vinaigrettes and wielded fans; and again and again

  • reiterated the expression of their concern that their warning had not been taken in

  • time; and the elder gentlemen laughed, and

  • the younger urged their services on the agitated fair ones.

  • In the midst of the tumult, and while my eyes and ears were fully engaged in the

  • scene before me, I heard a hem close at my elbow: I turned, and saw Sam.

  • "If you please, miss, the gipsy declares that there is another young single lady in

  • the room who has not been to her yet, and she swears she will not go till she has

  • seen all.

  • I thought it must be you: there is no one else for it.

  • What shall I tell her?"

  • "Oh, I will go by all means," I answered: and I was glad of the unexpected

  • opportunity to gratify my much-excited curiosity.

  • I slipped out of the room, unobserved by any eye--for the company were gathered in

  • one mass about the trembling trio just returned--and I closed the door quietly

  • behind me.

  • "If you like, miss," said Sam, "I'll wait in the hall for you; and if she frightens

  • you, just call and I'll come in." "No, Sam, return to the kitchen: I am not

  • in the least afraid."

  • Nor was I; but I was a good deal interested and excited.

  • >

  • CHAPTER XIX

  • The library looked tranquil enough as I entered it, and the Sibyl--if Sibyl she

  • were--was seated snugly enough in an easy- chair at the chimney- corner.

  • She had on a red cloak and a black bonnet: or rather, a broad- brimmed gipsy hat, tied

  • down with a striped handkerchief under her chin.

  • An extinguished candle stood on the table; she was bending over the fire, and seemed

  • reading in a little black book, like a prayer-book, by the light of the blaze: she

  • muttered the words to herself, as most old

  • women do, while she read; she did not desist immediately on my entrance: it

  • appeared she wished to finish a paragraph.

  • I stood on the rug and warmed my hands, which were rather cold with sitting at a

  • distance from the drawing-room fire.

  • I felt now as composed as ever I did in my life: there was nothing indeed in the

  • gipsy's appearance to trouble one's calm.

  • She shut her book and slowly looked up; her hat-brim partially shaded her face, yet I

  • could see, as she raised it, that it was a strange one.

  • It looked all brown and black: elf- locks bristled out from beneath a white band

  • which passed under her chin, and came half over her cheeks, or rather jaws: her eye

  • confronted me at once, with a bold and direct gaze.

  • "Well, and you want your fortune told?" she said, in a voice as decided as her glance,

  • as harsh as her features.

  • "I don't care about it, mother; you may please yourself: but I ought to warn you,

  • I have no faith."

  • "It's like your impudence to say so: I expected it of you; I heard it in your step

  • as you crossed the threshold." "Did you?

  • You've a quick ear."

  • "I have; and a quick eye and a quick brain."

  • "You need them all in your trade." "I do; especially when I've customers like

  • you to deal with.

  • Why don't you tremble?" "I'm not cold."

  • "Why don't you turn pale?" "I am not sick."

  • "Why don't you consult my art?"

  • "I'm not silly." The old crone "nichered" a laugh under her

  • bonnet and bandage; she then drew out a short black pipe, and lighting it began to

  • smoke.

  • Having indulged a while in this sedative, she raised her bent body, took the pipe

  • from her lips, and while gazing steadily at the fire, said very deliberately--"You are

  • cold; you are sick; and you are silly."

  • "Prove it," I rejoined. "I will, in few words.

  • You are cold, because you are alone: no contact strikes the fire from you that is

  • in you.

  • You are sick; because the best of feelings, the highest and the sweetest given to man,

  • keeps far away from you.

  • You are silly, because, suffer as you may, you will not beckon it to approach, nor

  • will you stir one step to meet it where it waits you."

  • She again put her short black pipe to her lips, and renewed her smoking with vigour.

  • "You might say all that to almost any one who you knew lived as a solitary dependent

  • in a great house."

  • "I might say it to almost any one: but would it be true of almost any one?"

  • "In my circumstances."

  • "Yes; just so, in your circumstances: but find me another precisely placed as you

  • are." "It would be easy to find you thousands."

  • "You could scarcely find me one.

  • If you knew it, you are peculiarly situated: very near happiness; yes, within

  • reach of it. The materials are all prepared; there only

  • wants a movement to combine them.

  • Chance laid them somewhat apart; let them be once approached and bliss results."

  • "I don't understand enigmas. I never could guess a riddle in my life."

  • "If you wish me to speak more plainly, show me your palm."

  • "And I must cross it with silver, I suppose?"

  • "To be sure."

  • I gave her a shilling: she put it into an old stocking-foot which she took out of her

  • pocket, and having tied it round and returned it, she told me to hold out my

  • hand.

  • I did. She approached her face to the palm, and

  • pored over it without touching it. "It is too fine," said she.

  • "I can make nothing of such a hand as that; almost without lines: besides, what is in

  • a palm? Destiny is not written there."

  • "I believe you," said I.

  • "No," she continued, "it is in the face: on the forehead, about the eyes, in the lines

  • of the mouth. Kneel, and lift up your head."

  • "Ah! now you are coming to reality," I said, as I obeyed her.

  • "I shall begin to put some faith in you presently."

  • I knelt within half a yard of her.

  • She stirred the fire, so that a ripple of light broke from the disturbed coal: the

  • glare, however, as she sat, only threw her face into deeper shadow: mine, it

  • illumined.

  • "I wonder with what feelings you came to me to-night," she said, when she had examined

  • me a while.

  • "I wonder what thoughts are busy in your heart during all the hours you sit in

  • yonder room with the fine people flitting before you like shapes in a magic-lantern:

  • just as little sympathetic communion

  • passing between you and them as if they were really mere shadows of human forms,

  • and not the actual substance." "I feel tired often, sleepy sometimes, but

  • seldom sad."

  • "Then you have some secret hope to buoy you up and please you with whispers of the

  • future?" "Not I.

  • The utmost I hope is, to save money enough out of my earnings to set up a school some

  • day in a little house rented by myself."

  • "A mean nutriment for the spirit to exist on: and sitting in that window- seat (you

  • see I know your habits )--" "You have learned them from the servants."

  • "Ah! you think yourself sharp.

  • Well, perhaps I have: to speak truth, I have an acquaintance with one of them, Mrs.

  • Poole--" I started to my feet when I heard the name.

  • "You have--have you?" thought I; "there is diablerie in the business after all, then!"

  • "Don't be alarmed," continued the strange being; "she's a safe hand is Mrs. Poole:

  • close and quiet; any one may repose confidence in her.

  • But, as I was saying: sitting in that window-seat, do you think of nothing but

  • your future school?

  • Have you no present interest in any of the company who occupy the sofas and chairs

  • before you?

  • Is there not one face you study? one figure whose movements you follow with at least

  • curiosity?" "I like to observe all the faces and all

  • the figures."

  • "But do you never single one from the rest- -or it may be, two?"

  • "I do frequently; when the gestures or looks of a pair seem telling a tale: it

  • amuses me to watch them."

  • "What tale do you like best to hear?" "Oh, I have not much choice!

  • They generally run on the same theme-- courtship; and promise to end in the same

  • catastrophe--marriage."

  • "And do you like that monotonous theme?" "Positively, I don't care about it: it is

  • nothing to me." "Nothing to you?

  • When a lady, young and full of life and health, charming with beauty and endowed

  • with the gifts of rank and fortune, sits and smiles in the eyes of a gentleman you--

  • "

  • "I what?" "You know--and perhaps think well of."

  • "I don't know the gentlemen here.

  • I have scarcely interchanged a syllable with one of them; and as to thinking well

  • of them, I consider some respectable, and stately, and middle-aged, and others young,

  • dashing, handsome, and lively: but

  • certainly they are all at liberty to be the recipients of whose smiles they please,

  • without my feeling disposed to consider the transaction of any moment to me."

  • "You don't know the gentlemen here?

  • You have not exchanged a syllable with one of them?

  • Will you say that of the master of the house!"

  • "He is not at home."

  • "A profound remark! A most ingenious quibble!

  • He went to Millcote this morning, and will be back here to-night or to-morrow: does

  • that circumstance exclude him from the list of your acquaintance--blot him, as it were,

  • out of existence?"

  • "No; but I can scarcely see what Mr. Rochester has to do with the theme you had

  • introduced."

  • "I was talking of ladies smiling in the eyes of gentlemen; and of late so many

  • smiles have been shed into Mr. Rochester's eyes that they overflow like two cups

  • filled above the brim: have you never remarked that?"

  • "Mr. Rochester has a right to enjoy the society of his guests."

  • "No question about his right: but have you never observed that, of all the tales told

  • here about matrimony, Mr. Rochester has been favoured with the most lively and the

  • most continuous?"

  • "The eagerness of a listener quickens the tongue of a narrator."

  • I said this rather to myself than to the gipsy, whose strange talk, voice, manner,

  • had by this time wrapped me in a kind of dream.

  • One unexpected sentence came from her lips after another, till I got involved in a web

  • of mystification; and wondered what unseen spirit had been sitting for weeks by my

  • heart watching its workings and taking record of every pulse.

  • "Eagerness of a listener!" repeated she: "yes; Mr. Rochester has sat by the hour,

  • his ear inclined to the fascinating lips that took such delight in their task of

  • communicating; and Mr. Rochester was so

  • willing to receive and looked so grateful for the pastime given him; you have noticed

  • this?" "Grateful!

  • I cannot remember detecting gratitude in his face."

  • "Detecting! You have analysed, then.

  • And what did you detect, if not gratitude?"

  • I said nothing. "You have seen love: have you not?--and,

  • looking forward, you have seen him married, and beheld his bride happy?"

  • "Humph!

  • Not exactly. Your witch's skill is rather at fault

  • sometimes." "What the devil have you seen, then?"

  • "Never mind: I came here to inquire, not to confess.

  • Is it known that Mr. Rochester is to be married?"

  • "Yes; and to the beautiful Miss Ingram."

  • "Shortly?"

  • "Appearances would warrant that conclusion: and, no doubt (though, with an audacity

  • that wants chastising out of you, you seem to question it), they will be a

  • superlatively happy pair.

  • He must love such a handsome, noble, witty, accomplished lady; and probably she loves

  • him, or, if not his person, at least his purse.

  • I know she considers the Rochester estate eligible to the last degree; though (God

  • pardon me!)

  • I told her something on that point about an hour ago which made her look wondrous

  • grave: the corners of her mouth fell half an inch.

  • I would advise her blackaviced suitor to look out: if another comes, with a longer

  • or clearer rent-roll,--he's dished--"

  • "But, mother, I did not come to hear Mr. Rochester's fortune: I came to hear my own;

  • and you have told me nothing of it."

  • "Your fortune is yet doubtful: when I examined your face, one trait contradicted

  • another. Chance has meted you a measure of

  • happiness: that I know.

  • I knew it before I came here this evening. She has laid it carefully on one side for

  • you. I saw her do it.

  • It depends on yourself to stretch out your hand, and take it up: but whether you will

  • do so, is the problem I study. Kneel again on the rug."

  • "Don't keep me long; the fire scorches me."

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  • I knelt. She did not stoop towards me, but only

  • gazed, leaning back in her chair.

  • She began muttering,--

  • "The flame flickers in the eye; the eye shines like dew; it looks soft and full of

  • feeling; it smiles at my jargon: it is susceptible; impression follows impression

  • through its clear sphere; where it ceases

  • to smile, it is sad; an unconscious lassitude weighs on the lid: that signifies

  • melancholy resulting from loneliness.

  • It turns from me; it will not suffer further scrutiny; it seems to deny, by a

  • mocking glance, the truth of the discoveries I have already made,--to disown

  • the charge both of sensibility and chagrin:

  • its pride and reserve only confirm me in my opinion.

  • The eye is favourable.

  • "As to the mouth, it delights at times in laughter; it is disposed to impart all that

  • the brain conceives; though I daresay it would be silent on much the heart

  • experiences.

  • Mobile and flexible, it was never intended to be compressed in the eternal silence of

  • solitude: it is a mouth which should speak much and smile often, and have human

  • affection for its interlocutor.

  • That feature too is propitious. "I see no enemy to a fortunate issue but in

  • the brow; and that brow professes to say,-- 'I can live alone, if self-respect, and

  • circumstances require me so to do.

  • I need not sell my soul to buy bliss. I have an inward treasure born with me,

  • which can keep me alive if all extraneous delights should be withheld, or offered

  • only at a price I cannot afford to give.'

  • The forehead declares, 'Reason sits firm and holds the reins, and she will not let

  • the feelings burst away and hurry her to wild chasms.

  • The passions may rage furiously, like true heathens, as they are; and the desires may

  • imagine all sorts of vain things: but judgment shall still have the last word in

  • every argument, and the casting vote in every decision.

  • Strong wind, earthquake-shock, and fire may pass by: but I shall follow the guiding of

  • that still small voice which interprets the dictates of conscience.'

  • "Well said, forehead; your declaration shall be respected.

  • I have formed my plans--right plans I deem them--and in them I have attended to the

  • claims of conscience, the counsels of reason.

  • I know how soon youth would fade and bloom perish, if, in the cup of bliss offered,

  • but one dreg of shame, or one flavour of remorse were detected; and I do not want

  • sacrifice, sorrow, dissolution--such is not my taste.

  • I wish to foster, not to blight--to earn gratitude, not to wring tears of blood--no,

  • nor of brine: my harvest must be in smiles, in endearments, in sweet--That will do.

  • I think I rave in a kind of exquisite delirium.

  • I should wish now to protract this moment ad infinitum; but I dare not.

  • So far I have governed myself thoroughly.

  • I have acted as I inwardly swore I would act; but further might try me beyond my

  • strength. Rise, Miss Eyre: leave me; the play is

  • played out'."

  • Where was I? Did I wake or sleep?

  • Had I been dreaming? Did I dream still?

  • The old woman's voice had changed: her accent, her gesture, and all were familiar

  • to me as my own face in a glass--as the speech of my own tongue.

  • I got up, but did not go.

  • I looked; I stirred the fire, and I looked again: but she drew her bonnet and her

  • bandage closer about her face, and again beckoned me to depart.

  • The flame illuminated her hand stretched out: roused now, and on the alert for

  • discoveries, I at once noticed that hand.

  • It was no more the withered limb of eld than my own; it was a rounded supple

  • member, with smooth fingers, symmetrically turned; a broad ring flashed on the little

  • finger, and stooping forward, I looked at

  • it, and saw a gem I had seen a hundred times before.

  • Again I looked at the face; which was no longer turned from me--on the contrary, the

  • bonnet was doffed, the bandage displaced, the head advanced.

  • "Well, Jane, do you know me?" asked the familiar voice.

  • "Only take off the red cloak, sir, and then--"

  • "But the string is in a knot--help me."

  • "Break it, sir." "There, then--'Off, ye lendings!'"

  • And Mr. Rochester stepped out of his disguise.

  • "Now, sir, what a strange idea!"

  • "But well carried out, eh? Don't you think so?"

  • "With the ladies you must have managed well."

  • "But not with you?"

  • "You did not act the character of a gipsy with me."

  • "What character did I act? My own?"

  • "No; some unaccountable one.

  • In short, I believe you have been trying to draw me out--or in; you have been talking

  • nonsense to make me talk nonsense. It is scarcely fair, sir."

  • "Do you forgive me, Jane?"

  • "I cannot tell till I have thought it all over.

  • If, on reflection, I find I have fallen into no great absurdity, I shall try to

  • forgive you; but it was not right."

  • "Oh, you have been very correct--very careful, very sensible."

  • I reflected, and thought, on the whole, I had.

  • It was a comfort; but, indeed, I had been on my guard almost from the beginning of

  • the interview. Something of masquerade I suspected.

  • I knew gipsies and fortune-tellers did not express themselves as this seeming old

  • woman had expressed herself; besides I had noted her feigned voice, her anxiety to

  • conceal her features.

  • But my mind had been running on Grace Poole--that living enigma, that mystery of

  • mysteries, as I considered her. I had never thought of Mr. Rochester.

  • "Well," said he, "what are you musing about?

  • What does that grave smile signify?" "Wonder and self-congratulation, sir.

  • I have your permission to retire now, I suppose?"

  • "No; stay a moment; and tell me what the people in the drawing-room yonder are

  • doing."

  • "Discussing the gipsy, I daresay." "Sit down!--Let me hear what they said

  • about me." "I had better not stay long, sir; it must

  • be near eleven o'clock.

  • Oh, are you aware, Mr. Rochester, that a stranger has arrived here since you left

  • this morning?" "A stranger!--no; who can it be?

  • I expected no one; is he gone?"

  • "No; he said he had known you long, and that he could take the liberty of

  • installing himself here till you returned." "The devil he did!

  • Did he give his name?"

  • "His name is Mason, sir; and he comes from the West Indies; from Spanish Town, in

  • Jamaica, I think." Mr. Rochester was standing near me; he had

  • taken my hand, as if to lead me to a chair.

  • As I spoke he gave my wrist a convulsive grip; the smile on his lips froze:

  • apparently a spasm caught his breath.

  • "Mason!--the West Indies!" he said, in the tone one might fancy a speaking automaton

  • to enounce its single words; "Mason!--the West Indies!" he reiterated; and he went

  • over the syllables three times, growing, in

  • the intervals of speaking, whiter than ashes: he hardly seemed to know what he was

  • doing. "Do you feel ill, sir?"

  • I inquired.

  • "Jane, I've got a blow; I've got a blow, Jane!"

  • He staggered. "Oh, lean on me, sir."

  • "Jane, you offered me your shoulder once before; let me have it now."

  • "Yes, sir, yes; and my arm." He sat down, and made me sit beside him.

  • Holding my hand in both his own, he chafed it; gazing on me, at the same time, with

  • the most troubled and dreary look.

  • "My little friend!" said he, "I wish I were in a quiet island with only you; and

  • trouble, and danger, and hideous recollections removed from me."

  • "Can I help you, sir?--I'd give my life to serve you."

  • "Jane, if aid is wanted, I'll seek it at your hands; I promise you that."

  • "Thank you, sir.

  • Tell me what to do,--I'll try, at least, to do it."

  • "Fetch me now, Jane, a glass of wine from the dining-room: they will be at supper

  • there; and tell me if Mason is with them, and what he is doing."

  • I went.

  • I found all the party in the dining-room at supper, as Mr. Rochester had said; they

  • were not seated at table,--the supper was arranged on the sideboard; each had taken

  • what he chose, and they stood about here

  • and there in groups, their plates and glasses in their hands.

  • Every one seemed in high glee; laughter and conversation were general and animated.

  • Mr. Mason stood near the fire, talking to Colonel and Mrs. Dent, and appeared as

  • merry as any of them.

  • I filled a wine-glass (I saw Miss Ingram watch me frowningly as I did so: she

  • thought I was taking a liberty, I daresay), and I returned to the library.

  • Mr. Rochester's extreme pallor had disappeared, and he looked once more firm

  • and stern. He took the glass from my hand.

  • "Here is to your health, ministrant spirit!" he said.

  • He swallowed the contents and returned it to me.

  • "What are they doing, Jane?"

  • "Laughing and talking, sir." "They don't look grave and mysterious, as

  • if they had heard something strange?" "Not at all: they are full of jests and

  • gaiety."

  • "And Mason?" "He was laughing too."

  • "If all these people came in a body and spat at me, what would you do, Jane?"

  • "Turn them out of the room, sir, if I could."

  • He half smiled.

  • "But if I were to go to them, and they only looked at me coldly, and whispered

  • sneeringly amongst each other, and then dropped off and left me one by one, what

  • then?

  • Would you go with them?" "I rather think not, sir: I should have

  • more pleasure in staying with you." "To comfort me?"

  • "Yes, sir, to comfort you, as well as I could."

  • "And if they laid you under a ban for adhering to me?"

  • "I, probably, should know nothing about their ban; and if I did, I should care

  • nothing about it." "Then, you could dare censure for my sake?"

  • "I could dare it for the sake of any friend who deserved my adherence; as you, I am

  • sure, do."

  • "Go back now into the room; step quietly up to Mason, and whisper in his ear that Mr.

  • Rochester is come and wishes to see him: show him in here and then leave me."

  • "Yes, sir."

  • I did his behest. The company all stared at me as I passed

  • straight among them.

  • I sought Mr. Mason, delivered the message, and preceded him from the room: I ushered

  • him into the library, and then I went upstairs.

  • At a late hour, after I had been in bed some time, I heard the visitors repair to

  • their chambers: I distinguished Mr. Rochester's voice, and heard him say, "This

  • way, Mason; this is your room."

  • He spoke cheerfully: the gay tones set my heart at ease.

  • I was soon asleep.

  • >

  • CHAPTER XX

  • I had forgotten to draw my curtain, which I usually did, and also to let down my

  • window-blind.

  • The consequence was, that when the moon, which was full and bright (for the night

  • was fine), came in her course to that space in the sky opposite my casement, and looked

  • in at me through the unveiled panes, her glorious gaze roused me.

  • Awaking in the dead of night, I opened my eyes on her disk--silver-white and crystal

  • clear.

  • It was beautiful, but too solemn; I half rose, and stretched my arm to draw the

  • curtain. Good God! What a cry!

  • The night--its silence--its rest, was rent in twain by a savage, a sharp, a shrilly

  • sound that ran from end to end of Thornfield Hall.

  • My pulse stopped: my heart stood still; my stretched arm was paralysed.

  • The cry died, and was not renewed.

  • Indeed, whatever being uttered that fearful shriek could not soon repeat it: not the

  • widest-winged condor on the Andes could, twice in succession, send out such a yell

  • from the cloud shrouding his eyrie.

  • The thing delivering such utterance must rest ere it could repeat the effort.

  • It came out of the third storey; for it passed overhead.

  • And overhead--yes, in the room just above my chamber-ceiling--I now heard a struggle:

  • a deadly one it seemed from the noise; and a half-smothered voice shouted--

  • "Help! help! help!" three times rapidly.

  • "Will no one come?" it cried; and then, while the staggering and stamping went on

  • wildly, I distinguished through plank and plaster:--

  • "Rochester!

  • Rochester! for God's sake, come!" A chamber-door opened: some one ran, or

  • rushed, along the gallery. Another step stamped on the flooring above

  • and something fell; and there was silence.

  • I had put on some clothes, though horror shook all my limbs; I issued from my

  • apartment.

  • The sleepers were all aroused: ejaculations, terrified murmurs sounded in

  • every room; door after door unclosed; one looked out and another looked out; the

  • gallery filled.

  • Gentlemen and ladies alike had quitted their beds; and "Oh! what is it?"--"Who is

  • hurt?"--"What has happened?"--"Fetch a light!"--"Is it fire?"--"Are there

  • robbers?"--"Where shall we run?" was demanded confusedly on all hands.

  • But for the moonlight they would have been in complete darkness.

  • They ran to and fro; they crowded together: some sobbed, some stumbled: the confusion

  • was inextricable. "Where the devil is Rochester?" cried

  • Colonel Dent.

  • "I cannot find him in his bed." "Here! here!" was shouted in return.

  • "Be composed, all of you: I'm coming."

  • And the door at the end of the gallery opened, and Mr. Rochester advanced with a

  • candle: he had just descended from the upper storey.

  • One of the ladies ran to him directly; she seized his arm: it was Miss Ingram.

  • "What awful event has taken place?" said she.

  • "Speak! let us know the worst at once!"

  • "But don't pull me down or strangle me," he replied: for the Misses Eshton were

  • clinging about him now; and the two dowagers, in vast white wrappers, were

  • bearing down on him like ships in full sail.

  • "All's right!--all's right!" he cried. "It's a mere rehearsal of Much Ado about

  • Nothing.

  • Ladies, keep off, or I shall wax dangerous."

  • And dangerous he looked: his black eyes darted sparks.

  • Calming himself by an effort, he added--

  • "A servant has had the nightmare; that is all.

  • She's an excitable, nervous person: she construed her dream into an apparition, or

  • something of that sort, no doubt; and has taken a fit with fright.

  • Now, then, I must see you all back into your rooms; for, till the house is settled,

  • she cannot be looked after. Gentlemen, have the goodness to set the

  • ladies the example.

  • Miss Ingram, I am sure you will not fail in evincing superiority to idle terrors.

  • Amy and Louisa, return to your nests like a pair of doves, as you are.

  • Mesdames" (to the dowagers), "you will take cold to a dead certainty, if you stay in

  • this chill gallery any longer."

  • And so, by dint of alternate coaxing and commanding, he contrived to get them all

  • once more enclosed in their separate dormitories.

  • I did not wait to be ordered back to mine, but retreated unnoticed, as unnoticed I had

  • left it.

  • Not, however, to go to bed: on the contrary, I began and dressed myself

  • carefully.

  • The sounds I had heard after the scream, and the words that had been uttered, had

  • probably been heard only by me; for they had proceeded from the room above mine: but

  • they assured me that it was not a servant's

  • dream which had thus struck horror through the house; and that the explanation Mr.

  • Rochester had given was merely an invention framed to pacify his guests.

  • I dressed, then, to be ready for emergencies.

  • When dressed, I sat a long time by the window looking out over the silent grounds

  • and silvered fields and waiting for I knew not what.

  • It seemed to me that some event must follow the strange cry, struggle, and call.

  • No: stillness returned: each murmur and movement ceased gradually, and in about an

  • hour Thornfield Hall was again as hushed as a desert.

  • It seemed that sleep and night had resumed their empire.

  • Meantime the moon declined: she was about to set.

  • Not liking to sit in the cold and darkness, I thought I would lie down on my bed,

  • dressed as I was.

  • I left the window, and moved with little noise across the carpet; as I stooped to

  • take off my shoes, a cautious hand tapped low at the door.

  • "Am I wanted?"

  • I asked. "Are you up?" asked the voice I expected to

  • hear, viz., my master's. "Yes, sir."

  • "And dressed?"

  • "Yes." "Come out, then, quietly."

  • I obeyed. Mr. Rochester stood in the gallery holding

  • a light.

  • "I want you," he said: "come this way: take your time, and make no noise."

  • My slippers were thin: I could walk the matted floor as softly as a cat.

  • He glided up the gallery and up the stairs, and stopped in the dark, low corridor of

  • the fateful third storey: I had followed and stood at his side.

  • "Have you a sponge in your room?" he asked in a whisper.

  • "Yes, sir." "Have you any salts--volatile salts?"

  • "Yes."

  • "Go back and fetch both." I returned, sought the sponge on the

  • washstand, the salts in my drawer, and once more retraced my steps.

  • He still waited; he held a key in his hand: approaching one of the small, black doors,

  • he put it in the lock; he paused, and addressed me again.

  • "You don't turn sick at the sight of blood?"

  • "I think I shall not: I have never been tried yet."

  • I felt a thrill while I answered him; but no coldness, and no faintness.

  • "Just give me your hand," he said: "it will not do to risk a fainting fit."

  • I put my fingers into his.

  • "Warm and steady," was his remark: he turned the key and opened the door.

  • I saw a room I remembered to have seen before, the day Mrs. Fairfax showed me over

  • the house: it was hung with tapestry; but the tapestry was now looped up in one part,

  • and there was a door apparent, which had then been concealed.

  • This door was open; a light shone out of the room within: I heard thence a snarling,

  • snatching sound, almost like a dog quarrelling.

  • Mr. Rochester, putting down his candle, said to me, "Wait a minute," and he went

  • forward to the inner apartment.

  • A shout of laughter greeted his entrance; noisy at first, and terminating in Grace

  • Poole's own goblin ha! ha! She then was there.

  • He made some sort of arrangement without speaking, though I heard a low voice

  • address him: he came out and closed the door behind him.

  • "Here, Jane!" he said; and I walked round to the other side of a large bed, which

  • with its drawn curtains concealed a considerable portion of the chamber.

  • An easy-chair was near the bed-head: a man sat in it, dressed with the exception of

  • his coat; he was still; his head leant back; his eyes were closed.

  • Mr. Rochester held the candle over him; I recognised in his pale and seemingly

  • lifeless face--the stranger, Mason: I saw too that his linen on one side, and one

  • arm, was almost soaked in blood.

  • "Hold the candle," said Mr. Rochester, and I took it: he fetched a basin of water from

  • the washstand: "Hold that," said he. I obeyed.

  • He took the sponge, dipped it in, and moistened the corpse-like face; he asked

  • for my smelling-bottle, and applied it to the nostrils.

  • Mr. Mason shortly unclosed his eyes; he groaned.

  • Mr. Rochester opened the shirt of the wounded man, whose arm and shoulder were

  • bandaged: he sponged away blood, trickling fast down.

  • "Is there immediate danger?" murmured Mr. Mason.

  • "Pooh! No--a mere scratch.

  • Don't be so overcome, man: bear up!

  • I'll fetch a surgeon for you now, myself: you'll be able to be removed by morning, I

  • hope. Jane," he continued.

  • "Sir?"

  • "I shall have to leave you in this room with this gentleman, for an hour, or

  • perhaps two hours: you will sponge the blood as I do when it returns: if he feels

  • faint, you will put the glass of water on

  • that stand to his lips, and your salts to his nose.

  • You will not speak to him on any pretext-- and--Richard, it will be at the peril of

  • your life if you speak to her: open your lips--agitate yourself--and I'll not answer

  • for the consequences."

  • Again the poor man groaned; he looked as if he dared not move; fear, either of death or

  • of something else, appeared almost to paralyse him.

  • Mr. Rochester put the now bloody sponge into my hand, and I proceeded to use it as

  • he had done.

  • He watched me a second, then saying, "Remember!--No conversation," he left the

  • room.

  • I experienced a strange feeling as the key grated in the lock, and the sound of his

  • retreating step ceased to be heard.

  • Here then I was in the third storey, fastened into one of its mystic cells;

  • night around me; a pale and bloody spectacle under my eyes and hands; a

  • murderess hardly separated from me by a

  • single door: yes--that was appalling--the rest I could bear; but I shuddered at the

  • thought of Grace Poole bursting out upon me.

  • I must keep to my post, however.

  • I must watch this ghastly countenance-- these blue, still lips forbidden to

  • unclose--these eyes now shut, now opening, now wandering through the room, now fixing

  • on me, and ever glazed with the dulness of horror.

  • I must dip my hand again and again in the basin of blood and water, and wipe away the

  • trickling gore.

  • I must see the light of the unsnuffed candle wane on my employment; the shadows

  • darken on the wrought, antique tapestry round me, and grow black under the hangings

  • of the vast old bed, and quiver strangely

  • over the doors of a great cabinet opposite- -whose front, divided into twelve panels,

  • bore, in grim design, the heads of the twelve apostles, each enclosed in its

  • separate panel as in a frame; while above

  • them at the top rose an ebon crucifix and a dying Christ.

  • According as the shifting obscurity and flickering gleam hovered here or glanced

  • there, it was now the bearded physician, Luke, that bent his brow; now St. John's

  • long hair that waved; and anon the devilish

  • face of Judas, that grew out of the panel, and seemed gathering life and threatening a

  • revelation of the arch-traitor--of Satan himself--in his subordinate's form.

  • Amidst all this, I had to listen as well as watch: to listen for the movements of the

  • wild beast or the fiend in yonder side den.

  • But since Mr. Rochester's visit it seemed spellbound: all the night I heard but three

  • sounds at three long intervals,--a step creak, a momentary renewal of the snarling,

  • canine noise, and a deep human groan.

  • Then my own thoughts worried me.

  • What crime was this that lived incarnate in this sequestered mansion, and could neither

  • be expelled nor subdued by the owner?--what mystery, that broke out now in fire and now

  • in blood, at the deadest hours of night?

  • What creature was it, that, masked in an ordinary woman's face and shape, uttered

  • the voice, now of a mocking demon, and anon of a carrion-seeking bird of prey?

  • And this man I bent over--this commonplace, quiet stranger--how had he become involved

  • in the web of horror? and why had the Fury flown at him?

  • What made him seek this quarter of the house at an untimely season, when he should

  • have been asleep in bed? I had heard Mr. Rochester assign him an

  • apartment below--what brought him here!

  • And why, now, was he so tame under the violence or treachery done him?

  • Why did he so quietly submit to the concealment Mr. Rochester enforced?

  • Why did Mr. Rochester enforce this concealment?

  • His guest had been outraged, his own life on a former occasion had been hideously

  • plotted against; and both attempts he smothered in secrecy and sank in oblivion!

  • Lastly, I saw Mr. Mason was submissive to Mr. Rochester; that the impetuous will of

  • the latter held complete sway over the inertness of the former: the few words

  • which had passed between them assured me of this.

  • It was evident that in their former intercourse, the passive disposition of the

  • one had been habitually influenced by the active energy of the other: whence then had

  • arisen Mr. Rochester's dismay when he heard of Mr. Mason's arrival?

  • Why had the mere name of this unresisting individual--whom his word now sufficed to

  • control like a child--fallen on him, a few hours since, as a thunderbolt might fall on

  • an oak?

  • Oh! I could not forget his look and his paleness when he whispered: "Jane, I have

  • got a blow--I have got a blow, Jane."

  • I could not forget how the arm had trembled which he rested on my shoulder: and it was

  • no light matter which could thus bow the resolute spirit and thrill the vigorous

  • frame of Fairfax Rochester.

  • "When will he come? When will he come?"

  • I cried inwardly, as the night lingered and lingered--as my bleeding patient drooped,

  • moaned, sickened: and neither day nor aid arrived.

  • I had, again and again, held the water to Mason's white lips; again and again offered

  • him the stimulating salts: my efforts seemed ineffectual: either bodily or mental

  • suffering, or loss of blood, or all three

  • combined, were fast prostrating his strength.

  • He moaned so, and looked so weak, wild, and lost, I feared he was dying; and I might

  • not even speak to him.

  • The candle, wasted at last, went out; as it expired, I perceived streaks of grey light

  • edging the window curtains: dawn was then approaching.

  • Presently I heard Pilot bark far below, out of his distant kennel in the courtyard:

  • hope revived.

  • Nor was it unwarranted: in five minutes more the grating key, the yielding lock,

  • warned me my watch was relieved. It could not have lasted more than two

  • hours: many a week has seemed shorter.

  • Mr. Rochester entered, and with him the surgeon he had been to fetch.

  • "Now, Carter, be on the alert," he said to this last: "I give you but half-an-hour for

  • dressing the wound, fastening the bandages, getting the patient downstairs and all."

  • "But is he fit to move, sir?"

  • "No doubt of it; it is nothing serious; he is nervous, his spirits must be kept up.

  • Come, set to work."

  • Mr. Rochester drew back the thick curtain, drew up the holland blind, let in all the

  • daylight he could; and I was surprised and cheered to see how far dawn was advanced:

  • what rosy streaks were beginning to brighten the east.

  • Then he approached Mason, whom the surgeon was already handling.

  • "Now, my good fellow, how are you?" he asked.

  • "She's done for me, I fear," was the faint reply.

  • "Not a whit!--courage!

  • This day fortnight you'll hardly be a pin the worse of it: you've lost a little

  • blood; that's all. Carter, assure him there's no danger."

  • "I can do that conscientiously," said Carter, who had now undone the bandages;

  • "only I wish I could have got here sooner: he would not have bled so much--but how is

  • this?

  • The flesh on the shoulder is torn as well as cut.

  • This wound was not done with a knife: there have been teeth here!"

  • "She bit me," he murmured.

  • "She worried me like a tigress, when Rochester got the knife from her."

  • "You should not have yielded: you should have grappled with her at once," said Mr.

  • Rochester.

  • "But under such circumstances, what could one do?" returned Mason.

  • "Oh, it was frightful!" he added, shuddering.

  • "And I did not expect it: she looked so quiet at first."

  • "I warned you," was his friend's answer; "I said--be on your guard when you go near

  • her.

  • Besides, you might have waited till to- morrow, and had me with you: it was mere

  • folly to attempt the interview to-night, and alone."

  • "I thought I could have done some good."

  • "You thought! you thought! Yes, it makes me impatient to hear you:

  • but, however, you have suffered, and are likely to suffer enough for not taking my

  • advice; so I'll say no more.

  • Carter--hurry!--hurry! The sun will soon rise, and I must have him

  • off." "Directly, sir; the shoulder is just

  • bandaged.

  • I must look to this other wound in the arm: she has had her teeth here too, I think."

  • "She sucked the blood: she said she'd drain my heart," said Mason.

  • I saw Mr. Rochester shudder: a singularly marked expression of disgust, horror,

  • hatred, warped his countenance almost to distortion; but he only said--

  • "Come, be silent, Richard, and never mind her gibberish: don't repeat it."

  • "I wish I could forget it," was the answer.

  • "You will when you are out of the country: when you get back to Spanish Town, you may

  • think of her as dead and buried--or rather, you need not think of her at all."

  • "Impossible to forget this night!"

  • "It is not impossible: have some energy, man.

  • You thought you were as dead as a herring two hours since, and you are all alive and

  • talking now.

  • There!--Carter has done with you or nearly so; I'll make you decent in a trice.

  • Jane" (he turned to me for the first time since his re-entrance), "take this key: go

  • down into my bedroom, and walk straight forward into my dressing-room: open the top

  • drawer of the wardrobe and take out a clean

  • shirt and neck-handkerchief: bring them here; and be nimble."

  • I went; sought the repository he had mentioned, found the articles named, and

  • returned with them.

  • "Now," said he, "go to the other side of the bed while I order his toilet; but don't

  • leave the room: you may be wanted again." I retired as directed.

  • "Was anybody stirring below when you went down, Jane?" inquired Mr. Rochester

  • presently. "No, sir; all was very still."

  • "We shall get you off cannily, Dick: and it will be better, both for your sake, and for

  • that of the poor creature in yonder. I have striven long to avoid exposure, and

  • I should not like it to come at last.

  • Here, Carter, help him on with his waist- coat.

  • Where did you leave your furred cloak? You can't travel a mile without that, I

  • know, in this damned cold climate.

  • In your room?--Jane, run down to Mr. Mason's room,--the one next mine,--and

  • fetch a cloak you will see there." Again I ran, and again returned, bearing an

  • immense mantle lined and edged with fur.

  • "Now, I've another errand for you," said my untiring master; "you must away to my room

  • again.

  • What a mercy you are shod with velvet, Jane!--a clod-hopping messenger would never

  • do at this juncture.

  • You must open the middle drawer of my toilet-table and take out a little phial

  • and a little glass you will find there,-- quick!"

  • I flew thither and back, bringing the desired vessels.

  • "That's well!

  • Now, doctor, I shall take the liberty of administering a dose myself, on my own

  • responsibility.

  • I got this cordial at Rome, of an Italian charlatan--a fellow you would have kicked,

  • Carter.

  • It is not a thing to be used indiscriminately, but it is good upon

  • occasion: as now, for instance. Jane, a little water."

  • He held out the tiny glass, and I half filled it from the water-bottle on the

  • washstand. "That will do;--now wet the lip of the

  • phial."

  • I did so; he measured twelve drops of a crimson liquid, and presented it to Mason.

  • "Drink, Richard: it will give you the heart you lack, for an hour or so."

  • "But will it hurt me?--is it inflammatory?"

  • "Drink! drink! drink!" Mr. Mason obeyed, because it was evidently

  • useless to resist. He was dressed now: he still looked pale,

  • but he was no longer gory and sullied.

  • Mr. Rochester let him sit three minutes after he had swallowed the liquid; he then

  • took his arm-- "Now I am sure you can get on your feet,"

  • he said--"try."

  • The patient rose. "Carter, take him under the other shoulder.

  • Be of good cheer, Richard; step out--that's it!"

  • "I do feel better," remarked Mr. Mason.

  • "I am sure you do.

  • Now, Jane, trip on before us away to the backstairs; unbolt the side-passage door,

  • and tell the driver of the post-chaise you will see in the yard--or just outside, for

  • I told him not to drive his rattling wheels

  • over the pavement--to be ready; we are coming: and, Jane, if any one is about,

  • come to the foot of the stairs and hem."

  • It was by this time half-past five, and the sun was on the point of rising; but I found

  • the kitchen still dark and silent.

  • The side-passage door was fastened; I opened it with as little noise as possible:

  • all the yard was quiet; but the gates stood wide open, and there was a post-chaise,

  • with horses ready harnessed, and driver seated on the box, stationed outside.

  • I approached him, and said the gentlemen were coming; he nodded: then I looked

  • carefully round and listened.

  • The stillness of early morning slumbered everywhere; the curtains were yet drawn

  • over the servants' chamber windows; little birds were just twittering in the blossom-

  • blanched orchard trees, whose boughs

  • drooped like white garlands over the wall enclosing one side of the yard; the

  • carriage horses stamped from time to time in their closed stables: all else was

  • still.

  • The gentlemen now appeared. Mason, supported by Mr. Rochester and the

  • surgeon, seemed to walk with tolerable ease: they assisted him into the chaise;

  • Carter followed.

  • "Take care of him," said Mr. Rochester to the latter, "and keep him at your house

  • till he is quite well: I shall ride over in a day or two to see how he gets on.

  • Richard, how is it with you?"

  • "The fresh air revives me, Fairfax." "Leave the window open on his side, Carter;

  • there is no wind--good-bye, Dick." "Fairfax--"

  • "Well what is it?"

  • "Let her be taken care of; let her be treated as tenderly as may be: let her--"

  • he stopped and burst into tears.

  • "I do my best; and have done it, and will do it," was the answer: he shut up the

  • chaise door, and the vehicle drove away.

  • "Yet would to God there was an end of all this!" added Mr. Rochester, as he closed

  • and barred the heavy yard-gates.

  • This done, he moved with slow step and abstracted air towards a door in the wall

  • bordering the orchard.

  • I, supposing he had done with me, prepared to return to the house; again, however, I

  • heard him call "Jane!" He had opened feel portal and stood at it,

  • waiting for me.

  • "Come where there is some freshness, for a few moments," he said; "that house is a

  • mere dungeon: don't you feel it so?" "It seems to me a splendid mansion, sir."

  • "The glamour of inexperience is over your eyes," he answered; "and you see it through

  • a charmed medium: you cannot discern that the gilding is slime and the silk draperies

  • cobwebs; that the marble is sordid slate,

  • and the polished woods mere refuse chips and scaly bark.

  • Now here" (he pointed to the leafy enclosure we had entered) "all is real,

  • sweet, and pure."

  • He strayed down a walk edged with box, with apple trees, pear trees, and cherry trees

  • on one side, and a border on the other full of all sorts of old-fashioned flowers,

  • stocks, sweet-williams, primroses, pansies,

  • mingled with southernwood, sweet-briar, and various fragrant herbs.

  • They were fresh now as a succession of April showers and gleams, followed by a

  • lovely spring morning, could make them: the sun was just entering the dappled east, and

  • his light illumined the wreathed and dewy

  • orchard trees and shone down the quiet walks under them.

  • "Jane, will you have a flower?" He gathered a half-blown rose, the first on

  • the bush, and offered it to me.

  • "Thank you, sir." "Do you like this sunrise, Jane?

  • That sky with its high and light clouds which are sure to melt away as the day

  • waxes warm--this placid and balmly atmosphere?"

  • "I do, very much."

  • "You have passed a strange night, Jane." "Yes, sir."

  • "And it has made you look pale--were you afraid when I left you alone with Mason?"

  • "I was afraid of some one coming out of the inner room."

  • "But I had fastened the door--I had the key in my pocket: I should have been a careless

  • shepherd if I had left a lamb--my pet lamb- -so near a wolf's den, unguarded: you were

  • safe."

  • "Will Grace Poole live here still, sir?" "Oh yes! don't trouble your head about her-

  • -put the thing out of your thoughts." "Yet it seems to me your life is hardly

  • secure while she stays."

  • "Never fear--I will take care of myself." "Is the danger you apprehended last night

  • gone by now, sir?" "I cannot vouch for that till Mason is out

  • of England: nor even then.

  • To live, for me, Jane, is to stand on a crater-crust which may crack and spue fire

  • any day." "But Mr. Mason seems a man easily led.

  • Your influence, sir, is evidently potent with him: he will never set you at defiance

  • or wilfully injure you." "Oh, no!

  • Mason will not defy me; nor, knowing it, will he hurt me--but, unintentionally, he

  • might in a moment, by one careless word, deprive me, if not of life, yet for ever of

  • happiness."

  • "Tell him to be cautious, sir: let him know what you fear, and show him how to avert

  • the danger." He laughed sardonically, hastily took my

  • hand, and as hastily threw it from him.

  • "If I could do that, simpleton, where would the danger be?

  • Annihilated in a moment.

  • Ever since I have known Mason, I have only had to say to him 'Do that,' and the thing

  • has been done.

  • But I cannot give him orders in this case: I cannot say 'Beware of harming me,

  • Richard;' for it is imperative that I should keep him ignorant that harm to me is

  • possible.

  • Now you look puzzled; and I will puzzle you further.

  • You are my little friend, are you not?" "I like to serve you, sir, and to obey you

  • in all that is right."

  • "Precisely: I see you do.

  • I see genuine contentment in your gait and mien, your eye and face, when you are

  • helping me and pleasing me--working for me, and with me, in, as you characteristically

  • say, 'all that is right:' for if I bid

  • you do what you thought wrong, there would be no light-footed running, no neat-handed

  • alacrity, no lively glance and animated complexion.

  • My friend would then turn to me, quiet and pale, and would say, 'No, sir; that is

  • impossible: I cannot do it, because it is wrong;' and would become immutable as a

  • fixed star.

  • Well, you too have power over me, and may injure me: yet I dare not show you where I

  • am vulnerable, lest, faithful and friendly as you are, you should transfix me at

  • once."

  • "If you have no more to fear from Mr. Mason than you have from me, sir, you are very

  • safe." "God grant it may be so!

  • Here, Jane, is an arbour; sit down."

  • The arbour was an arch in the wall, lined with ivy; it contained a rustic seat.

  • Mr. Rochester took it, leaving room, however, for me: but I stood before him.

  • "Sit," he said; "the bench is long enough for two.

  • You don't hesitate to take a place at my side, do you?

  • Is that wrong, Jane?"

  • I answered him by assuming it: to refuse would, I felt, have been unwise.

  • "Now, my little friend, while the sun drinks the dew--while all the flowers in

  • this old garden awake and expand, and the birds fetch their young ones' breakfast out

  • of the Thornfield, and the early bees do

  • their first spell of work--I'll put a case to you, which you must endeavour to suppose

  • your own: but first, look at me, and tell me you are at ease, and not fearing that I

  • err in detaining you, or that you err in staying."

  • "No, sir; I am content."

  • "Well then, Jane, call to aid your fancy:-- suppose you were no longer a girl well

  • reared and disciplined, but a wild boy indulged from childhood upwards; imagine

  • yourself in a remote foreign land; conceive

  • that you there commit a capital error, no matter of what nature or from what motives,

  • but one whose consequences must follow you through life and taint all your existence.

  • Mind, I don't say a crime; I am not speaking of shedding of blood or any other

  • guilty act, which might make the perpetrator amenable to the law: my word is

  • error.

  • The results of what you have done become in time to you utterly insupportable; you take

  • measures to obtain relief: unusual measures, but neither unlawful nor

  • culpable.

  • Still you are miserable; for hope has quitted you on the very confines of life:

  • your sun at noon darkens in an eclipse, which you feel will not leave it till the

  • time of setting.

  • Bitter and base associations have become the sole food of your memory: you wander

  • here and there, seeking rest in exile: happiness in pleasure--I mean in heartless,

  • sensual pleasure--such as dulls intellect and blights feeling.

  • Heart-weary and soul-withered, you come home after years of voluntary banishment:

  • you make a new acquaintance--how or where no matter: you find in this stranger much

  • of the good and bright qualities which you

  • have sought for twenty years, and never before encountered; and they are all fresh,

  • healthy, without soil and without taint.

  • Such society revives, regenerates: you feel better days come back--higher wishes, purer

  • feelings; you desire to recommence your life, and to spend what remains to you of

  • days in a way more worthy of an immortal being.

  • To attain this end, are you justified in overleaping an obstacle of custom--a mere

  • conventional impediment which neither your conscience sanctifies nor your judgment

  • approves?"

  • He paused for an answer: and what was I to say?

  • Oh, for some good spirit to suggest a judicious and satisfactory response!

  • Vain aspiration!

  • The west wind whispered in the ivy round me; but no gentle Ariel borrowed its breath

  • as a medium of speech: the birds sang in the tree-tops; but their song, however

  • sweet, was inarticulate.

  • Again Mr. Rochester propounded his query:

  • "Is the wandering and sinful, but now rest- seeking and repentant, man justified in

  • daring the world's opinion, in order to attach to him for ever this gentle,

  • gracious, genial stranger, thereby securing

  • his own peace of mind and regeneration of life?"

  • "Sir," I answered, "a wanderer's repose or a sinner's reformation should never depend

  • on a fellow-creature.

  • Men and women die; philosophers falter in wisdom, and Christians in goodness: if any

  • one you know has suffered and erred, let him look higher than his equals for

  • strength to amend and solace to heal."

  • "But the instrument--the instrument! God, who does the work, ordains the

  • instrument.

  • I have myself--I tell it you without parable--been a worldly, dissipated,

  • restless man; and I believe I have found the instrument for my cure in--"

  • He paused: the birds went on carolling, the leaves lightly rustling.

  • I almost wondered they did not check their songs and whispers to catch the suspended

  • revelation; but they would have had to wait many minutes--so long was the silence

  • protracted.

  • At last I looked up at the tardy speaker: he was looking eagerly at me.

  • "Little friend," said he, in quite a changed tone--while his face changed too,

  • losing all its softness and gravity, and becoming harsh and sarcastic--"you have

  • noticed my tender penchant for Miss Ingram:

  • don't you think if I married her she would regenerate me with a vengeance?"

  • He got up instantly, went quite to the other end of the walk, and when he came

  • back he was humming a tune.

  • "Jane, Jane," said he, stopping before me, "you are quite pale with your vigils: don't

  • you curse me for disturbing your rest?" "Curse you?

  • No, sir."

  • "Shake hands in confirmation of the word. What cold fingers!

  • They were warmer last night when I touched them at the door of the mysterious chamber.

  • Jane, when will you watch with me again?"

  • "Whenever I can be useful, sir." "For instance, the night before I am

  • married! I am sure I shall not be able to sleep.

  • Will you promise to sit up with me to bear me company?

  • To you I can talk of my lovely one: for now you have seen her and know her."

  • "Yes, sir."

  • "She's a rare one, is she not, Jane?" "Yes, sir."

  • "A strapper--a real strapper, Jane: big, brown, and buxom; with hair just such as

  • the ladies of Carthage must have had.

  • Bless me! there's Dent and Lynn in the stables!

  • Go in by the shrubbery, through that wicket."

  • As I went one way, he went another, and I heard him in the yard, saying cheerfully--

  • "Mason got the start of you all this morning; he was gone before sunrise: I rose

  • at four to see him off."

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