Name: 十年來我在日本最難忘的時刻 (My Most HUMILIATING Moment in Japan in 10 Years.)
Uploaded: 2025-07-17T09:12:07.000Z
Duration: 23 min 59 s

So the other day, I received this comment from a viewer that I think sums up the experience of being a YouTuber perhaps better than any other.

前幾天，我收到了一位觀眾的評論，我認為他的評論也許比任何其他評論都更能概括優酷用戶的經歷。

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It was on a recent documentary we made on the Ishikawa earthquake, showing the scale of the destruction, interviewing locals, and exploring the risks of a potential mega-earthquake in Japan.

我們最近拍攝了一部關於石川地震的紀錄片，展現了地震造成的破壞規模，採訪了當地居民，並探討了日本可能發生特大地震的風險。

An important video, and the response from viewers was amazing.

這是一個重要的視頻，觀眾的反響非常好。

And no comment I received was as moving as this.

我收到的評論中，沒有一條比這更令人感動。

Profound love and sadness and loss for the Japanese people.

對日本人民深沉的愛、悲傷和失落。

Profound love and sadness, but bro, you look pregnant!

深沉的愛與悲傷，但兄弟，你看起來懷孕了！

Work out and lose your belly, and stop standing like a girl!

鍛鍊身體，減掉你的小肚腩，不要再像個女孩一樣站著了！

That's a real comment written by a real person.

You know, it's like watching the D-Day landing scene in Saving Private Ryan, and being like, a profound and beautiful sacrifice.

你知道，這就像看《拯救大兵瑞恩》中的 D-Day 登陸場景一樣，是一種深刻而美麗的犧牲。

But bro, somebody on Omaha Beach had too many pork chops!

但是兄弟，有人在奧馬哈海灘吃了太多的豬排！

When I first started YouTube, encountering much worse comments was a part of the job, you know.

我剛開始做 YouTube 的時候，遇到更糟糕的評論也是工作的一部分。

Not like today, where such words come with an offensive comment tag.

而不是像今天這樣，這些字眼都帶有冒犯性的評論標籤。

And I hate to admit, but the first two years I did this, it really did get to me.

我不想承認，但在我這樣做的頭兩年，我真的很難受。

Like, a single nasty comment could sort of derail my mood for the day.

比如，一個討厭的評論就能讓我一整天的心情都亂糟糟的。

At the time, some YouTubers I knew just said they didn't read the comments at all.

當時，我認識的一些優酷用戶只說他們根本不看評論。

Which I felt was a bad idea, because the community aspect is one of the best things about doing YouTube.

我覺得這是個壞主意，因為社區方面是做 YouTube 最棒的事情之一。

And I was like, how the hell can I do this?

Why would I do this full-time, when this is the sort of thing I have to put up with every single day?

我為什麼要做全職工作，因為我每天都要忍受這樣的事情？

And around the same time, and this was exactly ten years ago, I was going through a difficult phase.

大約在同一時間，也就是整整十年前，我經歷了一個艱難的階段。

I was loving my life in rural Japan, living in Yamagata.

我熱愛我在日本山形縣農村的生活。

But my time as a teacher was coming to an end, and without a visa, I had to leave.

但我的教師生涯即將結束，由於沒有簽證，我不得不離開。

And I fell into a really bad place for half a year.

我陷入了非常糟糕的境地，長達半年之久。

And amidst my search for something to cling to, some sort of hope, I encountered Stoic philosophy.

在我尋找依託和希望的過程中，我遇到了斯多葛哲學。

Stoicism wasn't that well-known at the time.

And I didn't know anybody around me who followed it or practiced it.

我不知道我周圍有誰遵循或踐行它。

This 2,000-year-old philosophy, courtesy of the Greeks and the Romans, and built around one powerful idea, that we can't control what happens to us, but we can control how we respond to it.

這套由希臘人和羅馬人提出的哲學已有兩千年的歷史，它圍繞著一個強大的理念：我們無法控制發生在我們身上的事情，但我們可以控制我們如何應對。

It was practical, brutally honest, and exactly what I needed to hear.

它很實用，非常坦誠，正是我需要聽到的。

You know, I'd jog around at night, listening to it on audiobooks.

你知道，我會在晚上慢跑，聽有聲讀物。

And there were three quotes that really stood out to me.

People are not disturbed by events, but by the views they take of them.

人們不是被事件所困擾，而是被他們對事件的看法所困擾。

And if you are pained by external things, it's not the thing that disturbs you, but your own judgment about it.

如果你為外在的事物感到痛苦，那麼困擾你的不是事物，而是你自己對事物的判斷。

And a dog's gotta eat, and the boss dog is gonna show you how.

狗要吃飯，狗老大會教你怎麼吃。

I realized, hang on, I've been offended by these comments because I've chosen to be.

我意識到，等等，我之所以被這些評論冒犯，是因為我選擇了冒犯。

We had my interpretation, this is about me, I'm a loser.

我們有我的解釋，這是關於我的，我是個失敗者。

And we had a reaction or consequence, in my case, demoralization.

而我們的反應或後果，就我而言，就是士氣低落。

But the twist was, I was the one controlling the middle bit, right?

但轉捩點在於，我才是那個控制中間部分的人，對嗎？

That's where the real damage was happening.

Not the words themselves, they were just some pixels on a screen.

不是文字本身，它們只是螢幕上的一些像素。

And studying philosophy actually encouraged me to take things a step further and try and find the positive in each and every situation.

學習哲學實際上鼓勵我更進一步，努力從每一種情況中發現積極的一面。

And I soon realized, hate comments are actually a blessing in disguise, because, let's face it, they're comedy gold.

我很快意識到，仇恨評論其實是一種不幸中的萬幸，因為面對現實吧，它們是喜劇金礦。

I took all these weird, disorientating comments and made my first hate mail reading video.

我把所有這些奇怪的、讓人迷失方向的評論，製作成了我的第一個仇恨郵件閱讀視頻。

Why does Japan attract bottom-of-the-barrel white guys?

為什麼日本會吸引最底層的白人？

I like to think I'm at least middle of the barrel.

我喜歡認為自己至少處於中等水平。

It was just the most amazing feeling, taking something so negative and making it into something that made people laugh.

這是最奇妙的感覺，把如此消極的東西變成了能讓人發笑的東西。

Not only that, but it was a real hit with viewers, getting hundreds of thousands of views.

不僅如此，它還受到了觀眾的熱捧，獲得了數十萬的點擊量。

And I put that towards, like, a weekend holiday in Taiwan.

我把這筆錢用來在臺灣度週末假期。

And the whole time I was there, I kind of thought, oh, I wish I had more hate comments, because then I could do this more often.

我在那裡的時候一直在想，哦，要是我有更多的仇恨評論就好了，因為這樣我就可以經常這樣做了。

And in the end, it became sort of a beautiful circle.

最後，它變成了一個美麗的圓圈。

Revenue that was derived from the lucrative hate mail series went towards funding more meaningful projects, like documentaries.

從利潤豐厚的仇恨郵件系列中獲得的收入用於資助更有意義的項目，如紀錄片。

So ironically, it was a comment telling me my face and accent were annoying that gave me the confidence to realize I could probably get away doing YouTube full-time.

具有諷刺意味的是，正是因為有人說我的臉和口音讓人討厭，才讓我有信心意識到，我也許可以擺脫全職做 YouTube 的命運。

Still, I wasn't out of the woods just yet, because something far more challenging was just around the corner.

不過，我還沒有走出困境，因為更具挑戰性的事情就在不遠處。

Something that would quickly dismantle my new-found optimism.  I've been in a strange mood lately.

一些事情很快就會摧毀我剛剛建立起來的樂觀主義。  我最近的心情很奇怪。

It's the kind of mood where you stare out the window for an hour and then wonder why you're holding a spoon.

在這種心情下，你會盯著窗外看上一個小時，然後想自己為什麼會拿著勺子。

I suspect one reason is it was my birthday recently, and I'm now officially 53 years old.

我猜其中一個原因是最近是我的生日，我現在正式 53 歲了。

At least, according to the birthday cake so generously gifted by Connor.

至少，康納慷慨贈送的生日蛋糕是這麼說的。

The worst thing is, I posted that photo online, and I got so many comments from people who were like, oh, wow, I didn't know you were 53 years old.

最糟糕的是，我把那張照片發到了網上，收到了很多人的評論，他們說，哇，我不知道你已經 53 歲了。

對於一個 53 歲的男人來說，你看起來棒極了。

But today, having turned 35 years old, I'm wondering what the bloody hell I'm doing with my life.

但今天，我已經 35 歲了，我在想我這一生到底在幹什麼。

I really want to open myself up and share with you some stories, personal things that I've never really talked about.

我真的很想敞開心扉，與你們分享一些我從未真正談論過的故事和私事。

Things that I've learned from doing this across 300 videos and the last 12 years.

過去 12 年裡，我從 300 多部視頻中學到了很多東西。

Now, I realise I may not be the biggest or the most bestest YouTuber, but I've been lucky to do an awful lot of stuff.

現在，我意識到我可能不是最大或最棒的 YouTuber，但我很幸運能做很多事情。

I've got to meet people I never thought I would meet.

See things that I never thought I would see.

看到我從未想過會看到的東西。

Challenge myself in ways I never thought I would.

以我從未想過的方式挑戰自我。

And injure myself in ways I never thought possible.

並以我從未想過的方式傷害自己。

And the story I want to share with you today is one that I've avoided telling out of embarrassment.

而我今天要和大家分享的故事，是一個我因為尷尬而一直沒有說出口的故事。

It involves greed, money, desperation and shame.

它涉及貪婪、金錢、絕望和恥辱。

And it's big because it involves the single worst thing that I've ever done at the single most important crossroads of my life and career.

它之所以重要，是因為它涉及到我在人生和職業生涯最重要的十字路口所做過的最糟糕的一件事。

And I'm sharing it now because while I'm not proud of it all, I do think there are some useful life lessons in there.

我現在分享它，是因為雖然我並不引以為豪，但我確實認為其中有一些有用的人生經驗。

Hopefully for you and hopefully for myself because I fought really hard to get to do this full time.

希望是為了你，也希望是為了我自己，因為我真的很努力地爭取到了全職工作的機會。

Diving back into the past can really help you to appreciate the present, right?

回溯過去真的可以幫助你珍惜現在，不是嗎？

Hear the wisdom and mistakes of a pregnant 53-year-old man and a story that I am really, really not looking forward to recounting.

聽聽一位 53 歲的孕婦的智慧和錯誤，以及一個我真的非常不願意講述的故事。

Some of my colleagues thought I was a bit weird.

我的一些同事覺得我有點奇怪。

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