For those of you who are new tonight, I know that this is not your year.

對於那些今晚新來的人，我知道這不是你們的年份。

Yeah, you can have yeah, if that will make you happy, I will stop drinking and then I would tell myself tonight I will not get wasted and then something would happen or nothing would happen and I'd get that feeling and that you all know what that feeling is when your skin is screaming and your hands are shaking uh and your stomach feels like it wants to jump through your throat and you know that if anyone had a clue how wrong it felt to be sober, they wouldn't dream.

是的，你可以有是的，如果這能讓你高興，我會停止喝酒，然後我會告訴自己今晚我不會喝醉，然後會發生一些事情，或者什麼都不會發生，我會得到那種感覺，而且你們都知道那種感覺是什麼，當你的皮膚在尖叫，你的手在顫抖呃，你的胃感覺要跳過你的喉嚨，你知道，如果有人知道清醒的感覺是多麼錯誤，他們就不會夢想。

I'm asking you to stay that way.

我要求你保持這種狀態。

They would say, oh jesus, I didn't know here Yale, It's okay for you to do that mound of cocaine, have a drink, have 20 drinks, whatever whatever you need to do to feel like a normal human being, you do it.

他們會說，哦，天哪，我不知道這裡是耶魯，你做那堆可卡因，喝一杯，喝20杯，無論你需要做什麼來感覺像一個正常人，你都可以做。

And boy I did it.

而男孩我做到了。

Oh I drank and I snorted and drank and snorted and drank and snorted.

哦，我喝了，我吸了，喝了，吸了，喝了，吸了。

And I did this day after day, after day, after night after night.

而我日復一日地這樣做，日復一日，夜復一夜。

And I didn't care about the consequences because I knew that they couldn't be half as bad as not using.

我不在乎後果，因為我知道它們不可能有不使用的一半那麼糟糕。

Oh God.

哦，上帝。

And then one night something happened.

然後有一天晚上發生了一些事情。

You know, you're screwed.

你知道，你完蛋了。

Mhm.

嗯。

Yeah.

是的。

Mhm.

嗯。

Mhm.

嗯。

So I woke up, I woke up on a sidewalk and I had no idea where I was.

所以我醒了，我在一條人行道上醒來，我不知道我在哪裡。

I couldn't have told you the city I was in and my head was pounding and I looked down and my shirt is covered in blood.

我無法告訴你我所處的城市，我的頭在狂跳，我低頭一看，我的襯衫上沾滿了血。

And as I'm flying there, wondering what happens next, I heard a voice and it said, man, this is not a way to live, this is a way to die.

當我飛在那裡，想知道接下來會發生什麼時，我聽到一個聲音，它說，夥計，這不是一種生活方式，這是一種死亡方式。

Mhm.

嗯。

Okay.

好的。

Help you.

幫助你。

Eddie, Boom, checking in.

埃迪，博姆，報到。

Can't bring a girl into treatment with you.

不能帶一個女孩一起接受治療。

Eddie wasn't gonna keep her.

埃迪不打算留住她。

Mhm.

嗯。

Yeah.

是的。