And I know I'm settingmyselfupforhugedisappointmentsbecauseyoudon't alwaysgetthatjobandsometimesthatguydoesn't callyoufor a seconddate, andmostdefinitelythatshowisgonnagetcanceled.
Andofcourse, theansweralwaysliesandmoderationlike I don't knowhowmanytimes I havetolearnthislesson, buthereweareagain a decadeonYouTube, and I'm stillrediscoveringthatallofmyproblemsusuallyhavethesameanswer.
Andyou, astheantibodyhavetorememberHey, wait a second.
而你,作為抗體必須記住 嘿,等一下。
You'rethesameproblem I dealtwithtwoyearsago, Only a righttoversion, becausethisisbullshit.
你和我兩年前處理的問題一樣,只有版本權,因為這是扯淡。
Sonow I'm strivingtopaceoutmyemotionalinvestmentinallpossibilitiesand a healthyorganicwayinsteadofjustlikeshovingallofmyexpectationsintothisonedesiredoutcomesothatanythingotherthanwhat I imaginewe'lljustleavemeindespair.
Youknow, I stillhavehopeforwhatwillhappen, but I don't immediatelygetmarriedtotheideathatthisjobisminor.
你知道,我對會發生的事情還是抱有希望的,但我並沒有立即結婚,這個工作是小事。
Thisboyisminor.
這個男孩是未成年人。
ThatTVshowbettergoonfor 43 seasons.
那部電視劇最好能拍上43季。
Instead, I trytoactivelyandconsciouslyjusttrust.
而我卻嘗試著主動地、有意識地只是信任。
Thenifthejobismine, it'llbemine.
那如果工作是我的,那就由我來做。
Ifthat's therightboyfromme, it'llworkout.
如果那是我的真命天子,一定會成功的。
I surrendereverythingtotheuniverse, and I knowthatit's gonnaunfoldexactlyasitshould, and I immediatelyfreakoutandthinkthat's allwrongandthen I surrenderagainandthecyclerepeatsforeverandeverandeverandeveruntilhedied.
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