I sort of like, grabbed my leg and I said, I think I've been shot Andi is his dad said.

我有點像，抓住我的腿，我說，我想我已經拍攝安迪是他的爸爸說。

I think it's a bomb.

我認為這是一個炸彈。

It's made 2017.

這是2017年做的。

What does life look like for you?

你的生活是什麼樣子的？

Just Rosie Bringing up his e, Just enjoying everything that was going on.

只是羅西帶起他的E，只是享受一切的事情。

My main goal then was to get into university.

我當時的主要目標是考上大學。

And that was my main wish on I could remember getting dressed, thinking it got so hot, what we're going to wear.

這是我最主要的願望，我還記得穿衣服的時候，我就在想，天這麼熱，我們要穿什麼衣服。

I couldn't remember the genes put on me white blouse, everything.

我不記得基因給我穿上了白色的上衣，一切的一切。

It was such a nice, beautiful day off.

今天真是個好日子，美麗的假期。

This sort of said to myself, this Let's finish off strong and is gonna be the best.

這算是對自己說的，這個讓我們強勢收官，是會是最好的。

When you come back home, you're gonna start your real journey.

當你回家的時候，你會開始你真正的旅程。

It was just a very happy, sunny day is he was just buzzing.

這只是一個非常快樂，陽光明媚的一天是他只是嗡嗡。

Arianna was one of the ones that she really wanted to see.

阿麗安娜是她真正想見到的人之一。

Something so whence you started to sing one last time we got up off the steps and walked to the door electric Everyone in the crowd, they were just screaming and like they were just like, Oh, this is amazing and stuff.

一些東西，所以當你開始唱 最後一次，我們站了起來關閉步驟 並走到門口電 每個人都在人群中，他們只是 尖叫，像他們只是喜歡， 哦，這是驚人的東西。

I'm just the fire, just thinking.

我只是火，只是想。

I wish I could just go in.

我希望我能進去

She did.

她做到了。

Another one call with dangerous Woman I knew is he won't lead to learn And you were in for a weight stood here on.

另一個與危險的女人打電話，我知道他不會導致學習，你是在一個重量站在這裡。

That's obviously just when it happened.

這顯然是剛發生的時候。

People stop for a second.

大家停一停。

It was a brief second and then people were just trampling over anyone possible.

這只是短暫的一秒鐘，然後人們就在踐踏任何可能的人。

Even the younger Children.

即使是年幼的孩子。

They were just moving people out the way they were just getting pushed.

他們只是把人往外搬，他們只是被人推了一把。

Left, right center.

左邊，右邊中間。

Yeah, yeah, just on Almighty Bang darkness on it felt like it was raining ash.

是啊，是啊，剛剛在全能邦黑暗上感覺就像下了一場灰。

It's like being at a bonfire.

就像在篝火旁一樣。

And there was ash coming down.

有灰燼下來了。

It was common first, but then all of a sudden there was just screams that were person.

一開始很常見，但突然間就只有尖叫聲，是人。

They ask the crowd Who was outside?

他們問眾人誰在外面？

Has anybody got any first aid training or is anybody first day trained?

有沒有人接受過急救培訓，或者說有沒有人接受過第一天的培訓？

So if you know anything, just go through them doors.

所以，如果你知道什麼，就通過他們的門。

I run so fast to the door.

我飛快地跑到門口。

Andre.

安德烈。

Tom.

湯姆

I remember opening the door.

我記得我打開了門。

And then that's when I first saw the This is een on.

然後就是我第一次看到《這是恩》的時候。

There was a handbag.

有一個手提包。

There was a shoe with foot in it.

有一隻鞋，裡面有腳。

You know you can see everything.

你知道你可以看到一切。

It's then you start taking it in of what sort of is going on around you.

然後你就開始接受它的周圍是什麼樣的情況。

It was a very distinct smoke, never spent anything like it before or even after on the smell.

這是一種很獨特的煙，以前從來沒有過這樣的煙，甚至在氣味上也沒有過。

I'm just chaos, just chaos everywhere.

我就是亂，就是到處亂。

At that moment, it was just like I either run home or stay and help those people.

那一刻，我就像要麼跑回家，要麼留下來幫助那些人。

So I made the decision quickly that I need to help those people armed.

所以我很快就做出了決定，我需要幫助那些人武裝起來。

I said to myself, Listen, we'll deal with the feelings and everything later will now just try and do your best to help people.

我對自己說，聽著，我們以後會處理好感情的事，一切都會現在盡力去幫助別人。

I sort of like grabbed my leg and I said, I think I've been shot Andi is his dad said.

我有點像抓住我的腿，我說，我想我已經拍攝安迪是他的爸爸說。

I think it's a bomb due to an incident it is necessary to.

我認為這是一個炸彈，由於事件它是必要的。

It's a big area is just so surprising because it's even so quiet there.

偌大的一個區域就是這麼讓人驚訝，因為那裡甚至是如此的安靜。

I mean now, thinking about all of the chaos that was happening around, people would think there's more chaos inside what it was just so quiet and so sinister.

我的意思是，現在想想周圍發生的所有混亂，人們會認為裡面有更多的混亂，它只是如此安靜，如此邪惡。

You could just smell the presence of evil.

你可以聞到邪惡的存在。

I could just see how much blood I was losing on.

我只是看到了我的血量在流失。

Just how long can you stay here for I go to around four or five people on there, not moving.

只是你能在這裡呆多久我去約四五個人在那裡，不動。

So I think the dead to decide who to go to, who I think is gonna make it or not.

所以我覺得死人來決定誰去，我覺得誰能不能成功。

I could remember just staring at the ceiling.

我記得我只是盯著天花板看。

I didn't want to look at anything I didn't want.

我不想看任何我不想要的東西。

Toe take my eyes off space on the ceiling of everyone I just see just seen her.

腳趾把我的眼睛從空間的天花板上的每個人，我只是看到剛剛看到她。

She was flying the floor looking at the ceiling.

她在飛地看著天花板。

So this young lad came up to me and he said, My name was man, What's your name?

於是這個小夥子走過來，他說，我叫男人，你叫什麼名字？

His eyes were just so dark and he just was so compassionate.

他的眼神就是那麼暗淡，他就是那麼慈悲。

She was opening guys and closing eyes on a cartel, shoes drifting in and out of consciousness.

她在卡特爾上開著傢伙，閉著眼睛，鞋子在意識裡飄來飄去。

There was times when I wanted just close my eyes and go to sleep, but he was not going to let me.

有的時候，我想直接閉上眼睛睡覺，但他不讓我睡。

So my main thought was quickly to get her a week and get her talking on moving again.

所以我的主要想法是趕快讓她一週，讓她重新開口動起來。

I'm thinking, Is this it?

我在想，是這樣嗎？

Is this where I'm going?

這是我要去的地方嗎？

It's going to be the end.

這將是結束。

She starts shaking quite violently, and she's saying her room.

她開始很劇烈地顫抖，她在說她的房間。

She's saying, I don't want to die.

她說，我不想死。

I don't want to die here.

我不想死在這裡。

Would I ever see my Children again?

我還能再見到我的孩子嗎？

I was thinking about myself.

我在想自己。

A swell my main thought.

膨脹我的主要思想。

Waas I'm not gonna be there for them.

我才不會去陪他們呢。

I have nowhere.

我沒有地方。

I say you need to think about your Children when you think about your kids.

我說你在考慮孩子的時候，要考慮到你的孩子。

And as soon as I said that eyes just completely little he just kept me calm.

而我一說眼睛就完全小了，他只是讓我冷靜。

He just kept me still, obviously knew that obviously, my head was bleeding as well.

他只是讓我別動，顯然知道，顯然，我的頭也在流血。

You could just see a lot of holes and you could see I think she had a black or gray pants on.

你可以看到很多洞，你可以看到我想她有一個黑色或灰色的褲子上。

You could see dark patches or thought That's where the nails have gone in.

你可以看到黑色的斑點，或者認為那是指甲進去的地方。

There was a belt through my leg, so he knew it was bleeding really heavily.

有一條皮帶穿過我的腿，所以他知道我的腿真的流了很多血。

I take my belt off and I wrap it around her upper thigh just above the wound.

我把腰帶拿下來，我把腰帶纏在她的大腿上部，就在傷口上方。

You know, I could feel my head.

你知道，我可以感覺到我的頭。

I could feel my foot kept screaming for them to take my shoe off.

我可以感覺到我的腳一直在叫囂著讓他們把我的鞋子脫下來。

She kept asking me, How bad is it really about?

她一直問我，到底有多嚴重？

I said, Listen, it's gonna be all right.

我說，聽著，會沒事的。

It's gonna be fine.

會沒事的

He was just calm.

他只是冷靜。

He for young lad, he was really calm and I turn around and I'm looking back.

他為年輕的小夥子，他真的很淡定，我轉身，我在回頭看。

I'm just called my my elbow.

我只是叫我的我的肘子。

Just put my hand in my head and my elbow and I just burst out crying and just trying to breathe, trying to collect myself.

只是把我的手在我的頭上和我的肘部，我只是爆發出哭了，只是試圖呼吸，試圖收集自己。

And I just kept saying to God, just please get me off it.

我只是不停地對上帝說，只是請讓我離開它。

Just please get me off I didn't have any sense of time, but I felt like I had been there for hours and hours and hours.

就請你把我弄走吧我沒有任何時間感，但我感覺自己已經在那裡呆了好幾個小時，好幾個小時。

I'm just thinking where where a medics and where the ambulance crew.

我只是在想哪裡有醫護人員，哪裡有救護人員。

You got to a point about shocks over on.

你說到了關於避震器的問題。

Then it's like someone who someone's dimming the light.

那就像誰誰誰的燈光變暗了。

The light inside the light of your soul is someone's didn't get down to a point where you feel as if your body can't even hold you up anymore.

你的靈魂之光裡面的光，是某人的沒有落到一個地步，你覺得你的身體都支撐不住了。

Just it's like someone's took in the soul of you, you know, used to have these heroes that went in and did what they did.

就像有人把你的靈魂，你知道，曾經有這些英雄，去了，做了他們所做的。

He was one on.

他是一上。

I just don't think he realizes he actually is one, because he just did what he thought was his job.

我只是覺得他沒有意識到自己其實是一個人，因為他只是做了他認為的工作。

Would like Thio meet up with him and just I don't know I don't know what even what to expect.

想Thio和他見面，只是我不知道我甚至不知道會有什麼期待。

It's hard because thank you.

這很難，因為謝謝你。

Doesn't seem enough.

似乎還不夠。

Yeah.

是啊。

Hi.

嗨，我的天

Possible.

可能的。

Wow, you've changed.

哇，你變了。

How are you?

你好嗎？

I'm all right.

我很好

Doing a lot better.

好多了

Oh, yeah, Yeah.

哦，是的，是的。

You know, I've got over to the physical side of it.

你知道，我已經到了身體的那一邊了。

You know, I'll always have something going on physically, but it's you know, the mental sides more than anything, isn't it?

你知道，我總會有一些事情發生在身體上， 但它是你知道，精神方面比什麼都重要，不是嗎？

E hit a really low point from 19.

E打出了一個真正的低點，從19。

It's like you're throwing in its throat in the world where you don't belong.

就像你在不屬於你的世界裡，投進了它的喉嚨。

You're a complete outcast.

你是一個完整的棄兒。

You don't belonging that well and you want to be You want to be.

你不屬於那麼好，你想成為 你想成為。

You wanna you wanna feel wanted.

你想要... ...你想要感覺到被需要。

You want to feel normal just to feel normal again.

你想感覺正常，只是為了重新感覺正常。

So you have to practice.

所以你必須要練習。

You have to practice smiling in the more you have to wear a mask.

你越是要戴口罩，就越要練習微笑。

I think for you you saw so much more Theune Then I did you know, I was just lying there.

我想對你來說，你看到了更多的西恩，然後我才知道，我只是躺在那裡。

I mean, thankfully you were there.

我是說，幸好你在那裡。

I'm also said 1000 times to us.

我也對我們說了1000遍。

I just gonna be all right.

我只是會沒事的。

You're gonna get home safe.

你會安全回家的

And it did.

而且確實如此。

Yeah, I did.

是的，我有。

So you were right.

所以你是對的。

So, you know that's that's the way to look at it, isn't it?

所以，你知道這就是看問題的方式，不是嗎？

But it has been lovely just to see you again.

但能再見到你真是太好了。

Really?

真的嗎？

We don't have to say stay strange.

我們不必說留奇。

Just do we?

只是我們嗎？

Yeah, you get to know somebody, but we had to get to know each other quite quickly.

是的，你會了解一個人，但我們必須很快了解對方。

So he was just a lovely person.

所以他只是一個可愛的人。

Lovely, warm, kind hearted person.

可愛、熱情、善良的人。

She made me feel like I was a hero.

她讓我覺得自己是個英雄。

I call myself a hero if I could help people who were going through depression, anxiety and PTSD and show them the light on Be like a role model to them.

我稱自己為英雄，如果我可以幫助那些正在經歷抑鬱症、焦慮症和創傷後應激障礙的人，讓他們看到光明 就像他們的榜樣。

Yeah, to create.

是的，創造。

Thank you.

謝謝你了