Had no heat nowhere. I had a mattress on the floor and the

沒有暖氣的地方。我有一個在地板上的床墊和。

Apartment was infested with fleas when I beat you down

我打你的時候，你的公寓裡有很多跳蚤。

You know what you got to do my girlfriend at the time was killed in a car accident

你知道你要做什麼嗎？ 我的女朋友當時死於車禍

Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming

只是繼續游泳。只是繼續游泳。只是繼續游泳。

I lost my career my god the show was canceled

我失去了我的事業 我的天啊，節目被取消了

I was getting letters from kids that almost committed suicide but I did I

我收到孩子們的來信，他們幾乎要自殺，但我還是做了。

Didn't go to college

沒上過大學

Here and as I don't know if president Cowan knows I didn't go to college at all any college

在這裡，我不知道Cowan校長是否知道我沒有上過大學，任何一所大學。

when I finished school, I was completely lost I

當我畢業的時候，我已經完全迷失了方向。

Really I had no ambition. I didn't know what I wanted to do. I did everything from my shock toy oysters

真的，我沒有野心。我不知道我想做什麼。我做了一切從我的衝擊玩具牡蠣

I was a hostess. I was a bartender. I was a waitress. I painted houses

我是一個女主人。我是一個調酒師。我是一個女服務員。我畫房子

I sold vacuum cleaners I had no idea and I thought I'd just finally settle on some

我賣吸塵器，我不知道，我想我只是最終解決一些。

Job, and I would make enough money to pay my rent. Maybe have basic cable, maybe not

工作，我會賺足夠的錢來支付我的租金。也許有基本的有線電視，也許沒有

I didn't really have a plan my point

我沒有什麼計劃，我的意思是...

Is that by the time I was your age, I really thought I knew who I was but I had no idea

是不是到了你這個年紀，我真的以為我知道自己是誰，但我不知道。

The way I ended up on this path was from a very tragic event

我走上這條路是由於一件很悲慘的事情引起的。

I

I

was

是

Maybe 19 and my girlfriend at the time was killed in a car accident

可能是19歲，當時我的女朋友出了車禍死了

And

還有

I passed the accident and I didn't know it was her and I kept going and I found out shortly after that. It was her

我經過車禍，我不知道是她，我一直在走，不久後我就發現了。那是她

And I was living in a basement apartment. I had no money. I

我當時住在一個地下室的公寓。我沒有錢。I

Had no heat nowhere. I had a mattress on the floor and the

沒有暖氣的地方。我有一個在地板上的床墊和。

Apartment was infested with fleas and I was soul searching. I was like, why is she suddenly gone and there are fleas here. I

公寓被跳蚤侵擾，我在靈魂深處尋找。我當時想，為什麼她突然走了 而這裡有跳蚤。I

Don't understand

不明白

There must be a purpose and wouldn't it be so convenient if we could just pick up the phone and call God?

一定是有目的的，如果我們可以直接拿起電話給上帝打電話，那不是很方便嗎？

And ask these questions and I started writing and what poured out of me was an imaginary

並提出這些問題，我開始寫作，從我身上湧出的是一個想象的東西

conversation with God which was one-sided

片面的神對話

And I finished writing it and I looked at it and I said to myself

我寫完了，我看著它，我對自己說

And I hadn't even been doing stand-up ever. It was no Club in town

我甚至都沒有做過脫口秀 And I hadn't even been doing stand -up ever.鎮上沒有俱樂部

I said I'm gonna do this on The Tonight Show with Johnny Carson

我說我要在約翰尼-卡森的 "今夜秀 "上做這個節目。

And I'm gonna be the first woman in the history of the show to be called over to sit down

我將成為節目史上第一個被叫去坐下來的女人。

Several years later. I was the first woman in the history of the show and only woman in history that showed to sit down

幾年後。我是節目歷史上第一個女人，也是歷史上唯一一個露面坐下來的女人。

Because of that phone conversation with God that I wrote would you welcome Ellen DeGeneres?

因為我寫的那段與上帝的電話對話 你會歡迎艾倫-德傑尼勒斯嗎？

Thank you, I started this path of stand-up

謝謝你，我開始了這條站立之路

it was

它是

Successful and it was great

成功了，而且很不錯

but it was hard because I

但它是困難的，因為我

Was trying to please everybody and I had this secret that I was keeping that I was gay

試圖取悅所有人，我有一個祕密，我一直保守著我是同志的祕密。

And I thought if people found out they wouldn't like me. They wouldn't laugh at me

我想如果人們發現了，他們就不會喜歡我了。他們不會嘲笑我

then my career turned into I got my own sitcom and

然後，我的職業生涯變成 我有我自己的情景喜劇和

that was very successful another level of success and I thought they find out I'm gay then they'll never watch and I

這是非常成功的另一個層次的成功，我想他們發現我是同志，然後他們永遠不會看，我。

Finally

最後

Decided that I was living with so much shame and

決定了我是帶著這麼多的羞恥心和

so much fear

惶惶不可終日

that I just couldn't live that way anymore and I decided to come out and make it creative and my character would come out at

我不能再這樣生活下去了，我決定出來做創意，我的角色會在。

The same time and it wasn't to make a political statement

同時也不是為了發表政治聲明。

it wasn't to do anything other than to free myself up from this heaviness that I was carrying around and I just wanted to be

這不是為了做任何事情，除了釋放自己從這個沉重的，我是隨身攜帶的，我只是想成為。

the truth honest

實話實說

What's the worst that will happen I can lose my career

最壞的情況是什麼 我可能會失去我的事業

I got the show was cancelled after six years without even telling me I read it in the paper

我得到的節目被取消了六年後 甚至沒有告訴我，我在報紙上讀到它

The phone didn't ring for three years I had no offers nobody wanted to touch me at all

三年來電話都沒響過，我也沒有人要我，根本沒人願意碰我

And

還有

yet I was getting letters from

但我卻收到了來自

kids that almost committed suicide but didn't because of what I did and I realized that I had a

孩子們幾乎自殺，但沒有 因為我做了什麼，我意識到，我有一個。

Purpose and it wasn't just about me and it wasn't about celebrity

目的，這不僅僅是我的事，也不是名人的事。

But I felt like I was being punished and it was a bad time

但我覺得我是被懲罰的，這不是一個好時機

I was angry I was sad and then I was offered a talk show

我很生氣，我很傷心，然後我被邀請參加一個脫口秀節目。

The people that offered me the talk show tried to sell it and

給我提供脫口秀的人想把它賣掉，然後。

Most stations didn't want to pick it up. Most people didn't want to buy it. They thought nobody would watch me and

大多數車站不想接。大多數人不想買它。他們認為沒有人會看我和

Really when I look back on it, I wouldn't change a thing

真的當我回想起來的時候，我不會改變任何事情的

I mean it was so important for me to lose everything because I found up

我的意思是，它是如此重要 我失去了一切，因為我發現了

What what the most important thing is to be true to yourself?

最重要的是對自己的忠誠是什麼？

Ultimately, that's that's what's gotten me to this place. I don't live in fear. I'm free

歸根結底，這就是讓我來到這個地方的原因。我不生活在恐懼中。我是自由的

I have no secrets and I know I'll always be. Okay because no matter what I Know Who I am

我沒有祕密，我知道我將永遠是。好吧，因為無論如何，我知道我是誰。

so in conclusion

總而言之

When I was younger, I thought success

我年輕的時候，我認為成功

Was something different I thought when I grow up I want to be famous

是不一樣的 我想長大後我要出名了。

I want to be a star but my idea success is different today

我想當明星，但我的成功觀今天不一樣了。

and as you grow

而隨著你的成長

You'll realize definition of success changes for me

你會發現我對成功的定義已經改變了

The most important thing in your life is to live your life with integrity

人生最重要的是要誠信過日子

And not to give in to peer pressure to try to be something that you're not

不要屈服於同齡人的壓力，試圖成為一些你不喜歡的東西。

To live your life as an honest and compassionate person to contribute in some way so to conclude my conclusion

作為一個誠實和富有同情心的人，生活在某種程度上做出了貢獻，所以我的結論是。

Follow your passion stay true to yourself never follow someone else's path and everything will be fine

追隨你的激情，忠於你自己，永遠不要走別人的路，一切都會好起來的。

I know that a lot of you are concerned about your future

我知道你們很多人都在關心自己的未來。

But there's no need to where some of the most devastating things that happen to you will teach you the most

但沒有必要在哪裡發生的一些最毀滅性的事情，你會教你最

When life get you down, you know what you gotta do this

當生活讓你沮喪的時候，你知道你要做的是什麼

You

你