is HIV negative goes out to deliberately infect themselves with HIV. And when I first came

across this many years ago I thought, "Can't be, this can't be right." But then I went

online and there were several websites where people who claim to be HIV negative wanted

sexual partners, but only sexual partners who were HIV positive. And so this wasn't

a myth it was the truth. A film was made about it that was called "The Gift" about bug chasing.

And the man who made the film was premiered at the London Lesbian and Gay Film Festival

quite a few years ago was subject to opprobrium, ridicule, and abuse for having even raised,

dared to raise, this question in public. But he said it's legitimate because it's already

online, people with a few clicks can find out it's going on. Bug chasing is a very real

phenomenon. There are people out there who want to let the other shoe drop, who don't

want to wait to become infected, which want to end the wait now. And the way you end the

wait is go out and get infected then the other shoe has dropped you can relax. So bug chasing

is real. It's happening in your neighborhood, it's happening to someone you know. They are

going to become HIV infected. It's happened to, well I can't say hundreds, but it's happened

to at least 30 people I know who have become infected that way. Who have joined, who have

come to my workshop who say this is the way they got infected and in almost every single

case they wish they hadn't. That if they could go back and rewrite that moment they would

not do it. Although the other shoe dropped they didn't know the consequences that would

follow, they thought everything would be easy. And it's not. Everything changes, nothing

is the same. Once you're HIV positive you can't go back. They can't take it away. Every

single one of those boys and men says, "I wish I hadn't!" But they can't undo it. So

Bug Chasing is real. It's still going on today. Anyone going into a backroom or a dark room

who is HIV negative is a bug chaser whether they call themselves that or not because that's

what they are going to get. It's suicide!