Latelyit's justbeenspinningtherightkindofdirectiontogetmeinto a funkOn a minute.
I justneed a workthroughthisfunkthat I'm in.
And I thoughtthebestwaytodoitwouldbetotalkoncameratoyouguysornot.
Maybe I'llneveruploadthis, but, um, yeah, I justwanttalkingout.
Itlookslike I'm justsayingthisrightnow, butyou'vemissedthiswholechunkwhere I'vetalkedaboutthingsand I deletedthewholethingbecause I'm soselfconsciousaboutstuffthat I toldaboutontheInternet, anditsucks.
Ithasbecomethatway.
I mean, it's kindofexpected, youknow, astheInternetisjust a placethatisnotalways a funplacetobe, andyouknow, ifyouexpressopinionsifyouexpressyourself, ifyoutalkaboutthings, you'llgetpeoplefindingback.
Well, thenyouhavetoreallydiscusswhyyoufeelthosethingsarelike, I don't know.
It's justso, liketroublesome.
It's sointensetosaythingsontheissuesthatsometimes I justdon't sayanything.
I don't likethatsafe, butit's notveryfun, verycool.
I amcensoringmyselfsomuchontheInternetandit's likethat's kindofgoodin a waybecauselike I lookuptopeoplewhohavethiskindofmysteryaboutthem, wherethey'relikethat, there's justsomethingoneofthem, likeOh, I don't knowtheirwholelife I'lljusthavetofillitinmyheadorlikeguests.
Youknow, I kindoflikepeoplewhohavethatmysteryaboutthem, becausewhenyoushareeverything, thatleavesnothingtotheimaginationandthenitkindofshowslikehowyoureallyarebusilycelebritiesouttherethatnowhaveaccesstotheInternetandarereallyshowingtheiropinions.
Now I feellikecelebritiesusedtobesolikeunobtainable, sothat's a distancesodifferentyearlyreadthingsthatpeoplearesayingaboutthemorinterviews, butnowit's liketheyhaveTwitterandtheyjustlikesayingwhatevertheywantandit's justthewholeit's a wholemesssometimesIt's niceseeingthehumansidetocelebrities, butsometimesit's like I kindofwishthat I didn't havetoknoweverythoughtandopinionsothat I couldjusthaveyou.
Isthisthisideal?
Think I don't wanttoknowthateveryhumanist, florid.
I'm finewithnotknowingthatthisis a reallybigtangentaboutbothmyteeththroughout.
Now, goingupofmyteethout.
I havevideothat's like, offeditedofmygettingmileagetothat.
Butit's like I don't likethevideosthere.
I justwantyousomuchamazingcontentlately, justsuchgoodstuff.
Ontheincidentally, I wanttodosomethinglikethatandthen I'm like, I don't think I canistoon I don't knowhowtostop I don't knowhowtogoaboutit.
Andplusit's sodifferenttomyusualstuffthatit's like, Isthatreallywho I am?
Ordo I justwanttomakeitbecause I'm watchingitand I'm enjoyingwatchingitlikemaybe I won't enjoymakingit.
A lotofmyfriendswereinfundsto, somaybe I amfunkingwiththem.
Haveeveryoneknowsaboutwhat a funkis?
Basicsummaryofhow I feelisitis a scaryplacetobe, and I feelworriedaboutpostinganything, and I feeldiscouragedandjustworried, ingeneralis, andthen I justspendtimebymyselfanddoing, uploadordoanythingwhichisnotcool.
BiglifechangesEric.
Farewell, potash.
A farewellarenouncertainsituationofwhatishappeninginJapan.
Peopleoffonbigholidaysrightnow.
Everybody's domesticallytraveling, and I'm like, I don't knowwhat's okaybecausethenewsaysthisandthenyousaythisandeveryone's doingthisand I don't knowwhat's goingon.