You have to smile on stage even if you're in a bad mood

That's your job

Cheer up

Isn't this a really sad moment if there's the sad BGM?

[EP.04]

[At the end of this road]

[BANGKOK / 2019.11.22 PM 10:30]

Since we keep traveling back and forth on the plane

And we have schedules back in Korea as well

rather sensitive right now?

Especially when S.COUPS and Jeonghan are both sick

I feel a bit sick too actually

So for today's rehearsal too…

I didn't have much energy

I didn't have any strength in my core

[ODE TO YOU IN BANGKOK / 2019.11.22 PM 02:00 / THUNDER DOME MUANG THONG THANI]

Me?

I still don't have any strength even though I feel a bit better after letting it all out at that time

I also continued to feel unwell

I had caught enteritis in Japan

And then it came back again

I thought I got better

Ah it's driving me crazy

We're both sick

And we have the same symptoms right now

Ah really?

Yes I think what Dino had caught got to me as well

It comes out when we're really stressed

For me too they've said I don't have good bowel movement, but that's about it.

Apparently I didn't have more severe diseases or something

There would be no more than that

-We should really eat some porridge right? -Yeah

Eat porridge

For me

As I started to feel sick

My dizziness gets worse when I face the stage light or when I have to quickly move

So I rest a bit from time to time when it gets serious

I keep on performing then resting and then performing again

So we've decided I won't be participating for this part

It'll be okay to do this part with all of you coming out here right? The row would be as the usual

Okay?

How will we do S.COUP's part?

During S.COUPS' part

I would be out here separately because S.COUPS isn't here and I'll be performing my part here as well

Walk out

We should do the choreography for this part

-This part? -Just the first part at least..

At least for S.COUPS part! The rest can be freestyled

Will we be able to learn the lyrics?

Okay~ Then Vernon's going to be the center and shall we to the choreography symmetrically?

Not bad

Actually before coming to Jakarta we decided to do this as twelve

S.COUPS.. But he wanted to do it himself so much that's why he came here

We were really surprised too because after the opening Jeonghan was still sick

And S.COUPS had already told us about his sickness beforehand

Anyways we tried our very best to compensate for their absences but

We thought we could get some energy and then go out again, but it was our turn again right after

Anyways when we have this much of energy left we have to re-charge it for a bit before going up

But we just had to go out immediately

But here

Still..

We did it with our willpower

[ODE TO YOU IN BANGKOK / 2019.11.23 PM 03:30 / THUNDER DOME MUANG THONG THANI]

Wow amazing they made this for us as a present?

At the fan signing event they said they made this during

I thought, could the HamzziHamzzi be real

I looked it up, and I could actually find it

And it was even released on October 10th, 2017...

Wow, this is real

This is no joke

This is awesome, really

We got a song as a present from our fans

Our Hoshi is

a passionate....

friend

Look at that face

-Do I have to say something nice? Or... -Oh no, just be honest with yourself

Uhm...I should say...a bit of an attention seeker

A bit of a cute attention seeker?

-A cute attention seeker? -Yes

Hoshi is a lunatic

That was what I was going to say~

He can't do that with a normal mind

He is insane

Since more than two of the members said that I am a lunatic, I'll just be a lunatic

I am an introvert, but people don't know that I am introverted

I am not an introvert with members around me, but when I am around people that I don't know I am really shy

But I guess that I am really happy when I am on the stage

I actually feel that I am changing

and it's like there is this natural burst of energy inside me

I am calm in everyday life

but when I put on my in-ear device behind the stage and step on to the stage

I can feel that tension and hear the cheer getting louder, as the music gets louder, too

When the staff tell me it is the time to step on to the stage

I can feel something boil inside me

I feel it steaming inside

and that makes me think that I have to give a burst of something, spill what is inside me, and I have that tension build up inside me

I think that is how I continue to feel the catharsis

The one experience that motivated me to take responsibility for the stage

because despite we were running out of time during the showcase,

Dino and I choreographed the dance for '247'.

That was when our company's CEO came by and asked why we were here

and we said that we had to make the choreography

and when our CEO told us that he could feel the responsibility that we had for our stage,

it was so touching, because we thought that it was something taken for granted but he mentioned it for us

Oh...we came to have a second thought on that

and we could feel that we really have a passion for our stage

That was when it really hit us

What time is it now~?

What time is it now~

Oh hello, I mean Sawadee Kap!

I really didn't know why other KPOP singers that are loved by fans gave their everything

But now, as I feel the love myself, it's something that can't be evaluated or judged carelessly

So that is why I want to give back the love that was given to us from the fans

I also want to be a good influence

and I think those are the thoughts that I have

I really followed my heart to pursue my dream and just when I feel that I've arrived

I could see there are different paths here

I think I'm at the point where I have to decide on the path I should take

and since I am so happy right now

I am a bit concerned when I picture myself on how I will overcome the times when I no longer can feel this moment

I really had no major life crisis situation so far, so...

To be honest, I really don't have a good answer

Everyone did a good job!!!

We are heading off at 25~

Burden?

I don't really have any

Lingering over it does not really make better results

I think that with a positive attitude, you get more synergy with it if you accept it

and even if things don't work out so well, I think that it is best to be positive

[As long as your warm eyes and friendly smile is here by my side]

[That is all I need to stand up once again]

Oh...I mean really....