Destiny was actually one years old when she lost my mother.

I don't even think she was one yet.

E have an idea that should remember my mother at all, which is very hard for us to accept because it's just saw Dad.

She doesn't remember her, especially how amazing my mother, Woz and how much he loved us so much.

I want you to know that and feel that love.

It's hard.

She was, I think, four years old when she lost my father.

Although she doesn't remember him as much as we do, she didn't have a very close relationship with him.

My mother, when I was 15 she was diagnosed with cervical cancer.

She was sick for about nine months.

It got really bad towards the end.

He got bad fast and around nine months after she was diagnosed us when she passed away from cervical cancer, she was at the rock on her family, losing her.

We lost a lot of that foundation, but my father, you know, he stepped in a lot.

And he you know he did a very good job taking care of us in the time that he had, but he was also grieving.

When I was 17 my father as well got diagnosed with cancer.

He went quicker as soon as he was diagnosed.

I think it was like a month after he passed away.

I've always had, like, a motherly instinct with them ever since my mother passed away.

So I was already being like a mother to them.

Even when my father was so around when we lost our father, I just had to, like people frozen like step up even bigger for your clothes and put him away because we're going to be busy all day today to work after this.

If you guys want a weekend, I don't think it's too cold outside.

I think we will survive little bit time.

I think I was like 17 turning 18.

I was out of school and I was actually having a conversation with the kids about school and how important it is for them and how I want to see them.

The Sox sex for and do something with their lives.

That's what I like.

I kind of realized.

Okay, like if you're telling them to do what you need to do it.

I was all this one in my classes graduate like this one there, and it was a little embarrassing, just, like be that old and still in high school.

But it really showed me a lot of, you know, like maturity.

I guess it shows me like, you know, sometimes school hard shows me even if you mess up or just keep going, you can end up like, in a better position.

I work part time, and I go to school part time, and I take care of the kids full time.

So it's a lot to handle.

But I guess keeping everything organized and having organized schedule is what really keeps me going.

You know, I would wake up in the morning at six o'clock.

The big kids, the two teenage girls.

They will take the bus to high school, maybe grab a quick snack or something while I make breakfast for the three youngest ones.

Get them ready to eat breakfast first, and then the brush your teeth, get ready for school.

I'll drop them off at school, which is like a block away.

He's not far.

I'll come back here, do a couple tours around the house or errands that needs to be done if I have to do groceries homeward myself.

I tried to do it while they're at school, and I also work three days a week in the morning time.

I think it's best for me to work while they're at school.

Can you guys make your bed before you play?

Come on, let's make the bed before play.

Get up there where your shoes.

That's how you make your bed.

You know, we've done this many times before, but this one last, I have a very small, limited social life.

It's kind of like something I choose as well.

I could pushing sometime in the weekends if I want to for friends, but I'd rather much rather spend that time with the kids instead.

I think that's more important for me to have that bond with them, especially while they're young ladies on my sister.

I feel very grateful because she's giving up her life to take care of us off our and then they would really like to have fun.

We're very loving towards each other and always there for each other.

Ever since our parents passed away all we have each other and we ready, like stick together, even though we'd love to have our parenting raises.

It's really cool because there's a balance between sister on a parent figure all the time.

We could come to her and tell her stuff and she give us advice.

As a sister and as a parent, it is definitely a lot of pressure.

To be honest, I'm not sure how I found the balance.

I think I just know in my heart when it's time to be mom or when it's time to be Sister Michael.

We call him Mikey.

He struggles a lot being the only boy I can imagine.

There's a lot of things that he's into that we're not into.

I know he needs his own space to be a boy, and and sometimes I tried to do boy things with him.

You know, it doesn't always work out that way.

When I can't my boyfriend would step in and take him to do boy things, and I really appreciate that a lot.

This is my mom and that this is the star on Alex Yeah, they're everything to us.

Have him here again.

Here, They're on your feet.

This is where babies and our parents are all around this collage.

I think it's amazing, since my mom here, Lisa Smith way have a lot of her pictures here would like to have her big, you know, finder of what we're working towards.

This is, uh this is our family.

Your family is a mix of chaos and love on does like the truth.

This is our kitchen where we do most of our cooking and family time, I would say, since our liberal way, also family time here, watch TV together.

This is the hallway.

This is our one bathroom that we all share.

Except my grandma.

My grandma has her own bathroom.

Would give her her space.

Yeah, you know, people hears it can be pretty tight, too much going on in this bathroom.

Especially when mostly girls in this house it can be pretty hectic concert.

We just try to do our best to, you know, take turns and clean up after ourselves so that there's no too much hectic mess we're used to sharing.

Since we're a big family, we've always been like tight spaces were used to sharing, so it's nothing new to us, but I would love to give them their own space.

This is where we keep our parents, have there, earns and their pictures, and we come here to pray and just to talk to them when we feel like we need them.

We love to have them out in the open for everyone to see.

It's nice.

Losing my mother was very hard for us.

She was everything to us.

She was so strong.

It's just like one of those people you never thought you would lose in your life.

Losing my father four years after it was like Wow, like I can imagine, like losing one parent about losing both.

It was very tough on us.

That's when we really started feeling what it's life, you know, like what is how is this happening like, how can we lose the most important people in my life?

It was very hard for me to like, keep my strength in front of them.

I never wanted to see like, let them see like the sadness and me, because I wanted to be strong for them if they see me freaking out.

I knew they were gonna freak out, you know?

So I had to be very strong.

Me and the kids were always talking about her parents.

Any time we have down time and we're just hanging out in the living room on the sofa, we're always talking about our parents.

And that's why we like to keep a lot of pictures around.

Just always keep thinking about them.

My mom, she was so beautiful and just saw uplifting.

She was very positive and always wanting to help other.

That's something I think I got from her.

My father, he was a joke, sir.

He liked to laugh a lot on Mets were first a lot.

He was He was more like a cool dad, you know, like very fun.

And I think you were just joke with us a lot.

I was six when my mom has always have, like, memory, but very ship Maria for I know she wasn't amazing Mother to us, and I do see where Sam get your strength from doing our with this have a lot of good memories of my mom and dad.

My mom was always there for me.

and show.

He taught me how to be like a dog and she would always call me Little Warrior and my dad.

I was like, That's favorite.

That's a drag.

I was his favorite.

Like he said, Call me his little cookie.

I had a very strong bond film.

We would stay up all night listening to music.

My mom was basically my best friend.

She taught me so many things, how to cook.

She never let us follow directions on like boxes, anything she's always taught us, never follow any direction from kicking because there's always a way to make it better than the box.

I got a lot of my cooking skills from her.

I think me and Samantha both dig.

A lot of people think it's what always sad all the time, and they like to gravitate to the sadness.

But we already like so happy we have so much and although we did news a lot and during those times we were very sad and very impacted by those situations.

It brought us together stronger and better.

I feel like a whole bunch of love and gratitude came from those experiences.

Ah, whole life isn't always sad.

Obviously, they're still times were required stuff.

Remember feelings that we used to have without parents or memories.

But for the most part, we're very happy kids.

And we do most things that kids do, if now always gloomy, help each other.

What so connected, like love and strengthen.

We all have each other's back.

Even with everything that we have gone through, we know how to stay humble and be grateful for what we do have.

Because there are many people in this world that go through so much and have a lot less than what we have, yeah.