Andit's a patchanditlookslikethatTurnsoutmyproducerwasnotalwaysintelevision.
HewasatonepointintheAirForce.
I willneverforgetthatgreenyellowrankmethathesaidtomebecauselikeitwas 90% joke.
Butitwas 10% frustration, a frustrationwithmewithsociety, I don't know.
I washorrified.
Like I knewthat I waswearing a militaryjacket.
I hadn't evenreallyconsideredthatitwasoncesomeoneelse's.
I alsowasn't worriedaboutlikestolenvalorhere.
I don't thinkanybodywasgonnaconfuseme, a 19 yearoldkidandtoobaggyjeanshortsfor a mastersergeantintheAirForce, andmyproducerwasn't concernedthat I wasportrayingmyselfas a memberofthemilitary.
Hedidn't think I wastryingtofoolanyone, buthehad, like, openedmyeyes a littlebittothefactthatthereweresymbolsonmybodythat I knewnothingaboutsymbolsthatwerepartofotherpeople's identityoftheirofftheirworkoftheirprideandthesumtotalofeverything I knewaboutthatwasthatitlookedcool.
I stilldon't knowwhat a mastersergeantis.
I didn't evenknowthatthejacket I waswearingwasfromtheAirForce.
Itcouldhavebeenanybranchofthemilitary.
Andlet's behonest, likeas a younglefty, I littlebitlookeddownonthatcareerpath, andyet I waswearingthejacketbecauseitlookedcool.
John.
I rememberspecificallythat I keptthatjacketfor a littlewhile, thinking I wouldprobablywearitagainatsomepoint.
But I didn't.
Everytime I lookedatit, I thought, Youknow, what I knowisthat I don't know, like I don't know, andmyproducerpokedmeintheshoulderandgavemethat 10% frustrationhehadtoldme.