today I was on a verge of crying maybe

like four times this is the most

enjoyable business I've ever been a part

of and I have you to thank for what

happens when you pout

we had a rough night last night max had

some gas and tummy ache and it was it

was a shit show I got to a point where I

was so like you feel so helpless because

you can't help your child and I just

like was so frustrated and I'm in pain

and I started crying oh my god

and then Cheryl our night nurse came at

like 10:00 p.m. and saved me and I just

ran upstairs and I was like no one talks

to me I need space I need to sleep

because otherwise it's all going down it

was it was an interesting night

today is Monday though it's a new day

I'm ready to shine it's like 8 a.m. and

the kids are on their way to school I

had some time to take a shower which is

a great accomplishment and I'm gonna get

dressed and do the video and then we're

going I have a call call call meeting

meeting and then I'll be back home I

still need to pack my pump with me ok

one video shot 927 after pump have to

munch on maxi and then pack a whole

suitcase to take with me okay yes Oh PS

I think I'm getting another breast

infection malaria yeah baby cake you

can't you can't ignore this well I'm not

suggesting go and make a decision to do

it I'm saying have a nice Laurent don't

mock me you're mocking me okay so get

back on the phone with this woman who

told me it was you my glasses get back

on the phone with this woman and told me

what a meeting right away come on woman

we want a meeting right away wow I

should not have drank all that coffee

I'm like gonna bounce off the wall right

now okay we're doing the company meeting

now yes

do I have time to pee no you have your

time to do it eh still have to train you

been excited about my outfits I look

good for you I even freshly shaved my

head today didn't say anything you your

head is so shiny

I do I saw you are so talented

Wow

that was good smooth oh look at this

yeah so now all of the stuff that you

get is gonna be here instead of happy

Monday

yeah what does it juice arrived

hopefully soon Wow Jess what for Eddie

no I need coffee I'm so happy to be

alive that's good all right alive people

oh my god this is so cute yeah this is a

follower who did that you can sit all

the way there you sit there yeah we

should have lunch and like fast salt and

pepper to each other

this is so

I think we'll also determining what we

want to bring to the table after our

next to you know have people in charge

for different aspects of they you can

really dig in and like focus on their

own strengths

he's gonna develop it's going to change

in this I think we're just card the

ubereats

guy was robbing met pumping session when

he came in

it was a and he all of a sudden lost his

kind of uh didn't know what to do he was

like really awkward Tori dude why would

they do that

okay time to eat before your brothers

will come back and make it very loud and

yeah okay let's do it

what are you coloring Benny the wild bad

the storm is these are Stormies yeah

guys I'm trying to make a game out of

Eminem so they won't watch TV but we

can't really come up with anything sir

okay so I think that Gina had a great

idea what yeah Gina's idea was that it's

gonna be like a quiz and we each asked

question and if you have the right

answer then you get one M&M from

everyone I'm gonna go first okay you're

gonna go for okay this is gonna mean

okay then okay then we'll be the first

so then put one of your M&Ms

we're gonna panel wait okay now you need

to ask Benny a question how many

Smarties yeah I have five good job that

was the right answer

so Jake is gonna give one M&M to Benny

okay one it's a panga good job so now

you have D okay now it's Jake Eastern

jakey put one M&M here you are clean

okay so you have one minute

who's gonna ask bet JK a question me

okay ask him a question but wrong answer

so Ben is getting your mmm

okay piqué piqué what is the capital of

Australia why you don't know it but yes

it's I did not know either there's no

option well was kind of playing again

yes we're talking English I need to

google when we need to focus on the

periodic table you get that one and oh

yeah I got it you guys back okay now no

we're going like this and I've it's been

Easter you're next you're next

how do you spell lip povitsky I wish I

know you have to tell me yeah well that

was beautiful I had lots of fun with you

guys

look at this dropped off the kids and

now we're on our way we have a really

fun little activity for the team we're

going to home which is basically like a

yoga and wellness studio so we can all

get our Zen on before going back to work

we are a little late due to five

otherwise I'm ready

ladies and gentlemen I'm the first one

here today what are those what are those

like me gay

guys that's so cute oh we should get

them for the office

hello good morning oh oh oh oh how you

feelin ladies yes do you have yoga pants

it's gonna hurt oh okay

I'm Dan Mackenzie well this one is like

she's done you're getting an a-plus I

just seen oh my god so cute

hahaha this is so nice I feel like I

mastered the combination just saying

modeling 101 this chair are you ready

you need to commend the space in that

how do you make it in the modeling world

it's in 2003 are you excited yes we

should get this for the

put an official request Emily I feel

like Gary actually we don't need the

camera can we get this chance you've

never used or I'll cold hearts before I

there's really no right way to do it so

you just come up whatever cardio drawn

to you you picked that card and you can

ask the question in your mind before and

then come up

pick a card that will be your answer

angel Gabriel is to help riders in

German thank you so much out of the

garden

ready if you want to go to

to relax a little bit more yeah

Thank You side my eyes were like

streaming tears because you were

emotional love where you have allergies

relax

thank you so much that was beautiful

thank you

it's again please welcome to the little

freak actually yeah all right

take your socks off why what does it do

so what do you guys talk about what

should we talk about guys just don't let

your energy shift to the wrong direction

find that if I find that hallo girl

that's so sweet

thanks Emma's mom can you two go back to

this Maxie boy okay guys hey bar back to

work after your selfie Tiffany Wow

you guys thank you I honestly don't even

have time to vlog today I'm so behind in

so much content Max is like sleeping for

ten minutes at a time so not much as

possible to do and look at this mess

life of a content creator and a woman

this is basically every woman there's

not much happening today just shooting

videos trying to get a video up today

trying to go live with basic essentials

which I'm excited about and hopefully

you guys would love to and that's it I

did a makeup video outside there's lots

of fun stuff coming just so you know it

ain't easy but I guess nothing

worthwhile is easy so Emma and I are

actually working together today from the

house I'm starving she's starving I can

hear her stomach from here so I'm gonna

order food and then we'll move on with

the program

okay I'm I just left the house I'm just

prepared nanny when the kids take them

to their class they're hip-hop dance

class and I'm here with Max he hasn't

slept at all during the day which made

working very difficult I honestly feel

exhausted and I feel tired we also

released a video today that I just like

didn't measure up to my standard that

made me really upset I feel like the

whole day my phone has been vibrating

with people telling me like don't forget

to do this don't forget to do that don't

forget to do this and I'm just just feel

overwhelmed so I think that's one of the

things that a lot of people that juggle

a lot of things don't show those moments

where it's just you get to like breaking

point several times a week and I feel

like today I was on the verge of crying

maybe like four times but I kind of like

tried to breathe and I think the

meditation yesterday really happened to

keep it all together you know a lot of

you guys are always like oh just rest

you know take time to take care of

yourself it's not so possible when

there's you know a business to run work

to do

kids to take care of once you're a

mother even if there's a nanny around or

there's people to take care of your kids

like you're always on it's just it's

always there you know we got a night

nurse like I really staffed up this time

because I knew that I am working and I

need to go back to work right away

dealing with baby blues and postpartum

depression which I don't think I have

but I definitely have the baby blues

it's just I really wanted to make sure I

have like the right support system

around me but even with that it's just

so difficult to get a hold of everything

that's going on in life so I don't

really have the answer this is not by

any means

how to survive talk this is just letting

you know that I'm losing my shit too

quite often and you just need to breathe

that's all I can do just breathe I just

made myself a big chamomile tea

I'm hoping max will sleep at least so I

can have time to make this dinner and