Today, you'regoingtobefollowingmearoundanidealsummerdayin L.
A.
Let's doitway.
Have a reallyfunday.
It's earlyinthemorningrightnow, so I don't seementhusiasticyet, but I'm actuallyveryexcited.
We'regonnagotoRumble, whichisboxing.
Do a littleboxingworkout.
She's itssummer.
Wecoulddowhateverwewant.
I'm a youtuberfromdayone.
That's what I startedoutwithdoing.
I usuallywillfilm a videolikeonce a week, andsometimesit's a vlogofsomethingthat I'm organicallydoingthatday.
Likeif I'm on a tripordoingsomethingcoolthatday, Um, orsometimes I like, createkindof a challengeformyself, forsomethingthat I thinkwouldbelikeentertainingyourfundtodiohandwhenshetalkstome.
Yetall I doisblockingthecarallthetime, sothat's kindofcontradictoryforme.
I'veneverbeenthatscaredofbeingvulnerablelikenot a lotofpeoplewanttotalkabouttheiracne.
Therewasneverreallylike a femaleyoutuberthat I lookeduptogrowingupbecause I feltlikeeverythingwasreallyunattainableontheInternet.
A lotofpeoplewanttolookliketheyhave a perfectlife.
That's totallyfine.
And I thinkthat's funinitsownway.
But I justdon't.
That's somethingthat I struggledwithgrowingup, havingonlyperfectlivestolookupto.
Thatwasn't something I couldrelateto.
Okay, I missedit.
Saystogothisway.
Isthatright?
Oh, no, that's bad.
I justadded 10 minuteson.
I hadtriedtomakeyoutwochannelsbefore, Probablythreetimes.
Mydadwaslike, Youneed a hobby.
I waslike, You'reright.
Hewaslike, Doyoutubeagainortryagain?
I waslike, Okay, I feellikethistimeitjustclicked.
I wantedtobethepersononyoudothat, putitallonthetablebecause I feellikethatwassomethingthatdidn't existyet.
And I wantedtobethatbecause I waslike, There's roomforthat.
Oh, myGod.
Lookatthatdog.
Thatgoescrazy.
Lookatthatdog.
Oh, myGod.
Lookatthatdog.
No, Lookatit.
Lookatthatdog.
Oh, myGod.
Theglassistheonlythingthat's differentaboutmeinreallifeversusoncameraisthat I'm notgoingtoturnonmycamerafromhimif I'm in a badmood.
Besidesthat, I mean, I'm prettymuchthesame, I think.
I mean, I justkindoftalkedtothecameraasifit's mybuddy.
And, umandwe'rejustgettingcoffeeorsomething.
Yes, I needcoffee.
I'm literallydrainedrightnow.
Fillsismyfavoritecoffeeshop, and I am.
Youwantanything?
I amfeelingsoathome, andsowerejuvenile.
Havemycaffeinefix.
Butwhen I normallybringwhen I cometomysecondhome, fillsalwayshavemycamera.
Youhave a cameraon a tripod.
If I wanttofilm a videoorwhen I'm filming a video, I juststrapthison.
Let's gotothebeachnowmatch.
I justmakevideosforwhoeverwantstowatch.
Atthispoint, I I havealwaysthoughtaboutitas a oneononeinteractionbetweenmeandwhoeverthevieweris, and I kindofhad a hardtimeunderstandinginbeingabletocomprehend, liketheideaofitbeingmorethanjust a oneononeconnectionandformyownmentalstability, that's whatitcracksdownto.