Whenyouhavelivepressure, youcanapplypressureslowlyyoudoitgradually I wannabeYoutrytoresistDoyourbesttoresisttwopeoplethatMiketwopeoplethatmightsharewithus.
I knowthat I'm performingnow, and I know I'm doingwell.
Butatthesametimeisthisincrediblybigpressure?
Because I knowthat I investedmyselfsomuch.
Ittriedtodoeverything I can, butatthesametime, like I havethiscrushingdepthsofmeoffabout 700 K that I havetocarryfrommydad, Um, andtrytosavemyfamilyforthattriedtonoteventhinkaboutmyselfhere.
What?
And I don't know, becausewhen I thinkaboutit, a fewmorestrengthdrainingaway.
Butatthesametime, I'm tryingtoforceitinmyselfsothat I atleastgetitdonenow?
It's a daybelievedthatcraftthat I believemellowitselfwhenitsaidthatthatiscrushingthat I believeitwhenitsays I'm taking a loanfromthefuture, eventhoughprobablyitisn't.
Maybe, uh, thisloanfromthefuture.
Whatbangsitfrom?
Sowhat?
Thisloanfromthefuture?
Yeah.
Whatbang?
You'reboringfrom a goodquestion.
Uh, thebanksthatgetthemoneyfromYeah.
Wheredoesthisbankinthefuturelocated?
I thinkit's insideme.
Whereisit?
Inmymind?
Areyoupouringfromit?
Itfeltlikeit.
Areyouboringfromit?
I knowhowyoufeel.
Where's thisfuckingbank?
Youboring?
Whatresourceisthat?
I thought I hadtoacquirefirst.
Fromwhat?
Forexample, when I metalltheinvestmentsinmyselffortheprograms, I putmyselfinto a strugglewhere I wassobrokethat I hadnochoicebuttosucceed.
Andso I alwaysincreasemyexpensestomakesure I cangrowinincomewhichweren't so.