right now full of you at some point here so I'm just waiting for Gary to get

ready for bed we came back from Mimi and Alex's flat and it was such a great

evening that I feel like just dug deeper until everything I feel like it was a

great preparation for tomorrow I'm super super excited I was just getting ready

for bed and actually wanted to show you guys this Viva if you guys follow me on

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fragrances no synthetic chemicals that are added to the products these are two

products that I've been using for the past I've been testing it for the past

probably three months this is a night oil that I use it's a restaurant of oil

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something that's safe but yet has active ingredients that are effective for your

skin so the first thing is this restaurant of oil serum it's with

retinol and frankincense which is like their main ingredients key ingredients

but it also has macadamia oils a lot of really great ingredients it really helps

her just kind of plumping the skin and the radiance I usually apply four to

five drops of this in my palm you actually have to shake it and it's

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Sha but I forgot it though so I just like to press it in even just using your

hands to give just a little lift you know

a little like so this is just a great product that really soaks right in and

it's then frankincense which is a curry ingredients it's a great

anti-inflammatory and it helps with the redness that I often experience

especially when it's cold outside so that's kind of what made me go and

explore this product and then the retinol is a form of vitamin A which is

great for helping with any signs of anti aging and fine lines and then basically

just gonna help seal the deal with this one this is also another product from

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it actually has also willow bark extract that is great for exfoliation honey is a

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to go to sleep and pump myself up and hide myself up for the most amazing

event tomorrow okay today is the day I woke up with a sore throat and running

nose so that's fun today Saturday my meetup is in I don't know very soon I'm

gonna go get a blow dry now maybe some tea and try to get some medicine for

myself and that's it kids at home everyone's sick of course because

everyone say ok today I need to be focused I was really really really

really stressed out and nervous yesterday to a point where like I cried

I think like three or four times yesterday everything like kind of

aggravated me I definitely think that it's a little too much Brown

good luck when you see me not talk to you hi Bob nice to see you

okay I kept waking up a bunch of doing something I wasn't part of the plan we

running to get myself a top or something because I really don't like my outfit it

was in like a weird mood yesterday and I bought like something that I feel like

was a little pretentious looking for a talk so I'm going to just get like a

sweater and no one knows this where I'm also gonna have a little more time for

myself which is all I've been trying to get this past few days

let's just talk about this really quickly in general one school area

perhaps a few litres of back door some kind of a service entrance that's

ideally where I wanted to go through and if I see all of you to jump in find me a

picture of me protect me with your money

cares about me means take my skills bomb

when do we need to eat she said to me for 12 yeah okay so right now I'm just

waiting for Valera to finish getting ready for the Meetup Gary and Krista and

Chantelle and Paul already went to the venue to check it out and get everything

set up and make sure all like the lighting is good and then I'm gonna film

valaria on her way to the event there's a lot of people going now and we're like

so excited to meet you guys

thirty-six counting tickets sold and I was feeling actually more people will

come in addition to that it's cool it's it's cool it's kind of scary I won't lie

I guess I won't tell valaria this but I'm more concerned about her not

concerned because I know she's gonna murder it I know it she's a little

anxious and nervous right now which is completely understandable because nobody

could have foreseen any of this stuff coming but I'm just you know I want it

all a little tight and I keep giving her pep talks so I'm trying you know am i

nervous no it's not more like I'm excited than nervous you know I love

seeing her shine like I love seeing her doing her thing

I love seeing her being put into the situation where she's not comfortable

and I love seeing her just push through it and come out the other side just

winning it so

when she told us oh yeah else is gonna be helping us with you know I'm scared a

good way I use my fury use me I forgot to update that other stories didn't

accept credit cards so I couldn't buy anything so I just put something

together white pants Gary's sure to make me feel powerful and there's jacket by

Smith which is a Canadian company I know it looks like it ripped but this is the

style we will have to attach it properly we're sniffing coughing but are super

excited oh the sun is shining feel like yesterday the podcast that I had to talk

with Mimi and Alex kind of reminded me of why I do what I

do and I just makes me feel better about today I think that sometimes we make

everything so much bigger in our heads I feel like I was on this mindset where

you know I can't screw up and I'm this expert of God knows what well I'm not an

expert I never want to be an expert I'm just gonna share my story a little bit

and and laugh and cry and hopefully clap and be happy and just have an amazing

day let's do this I hope you did ready ready ready Krista

and Gary ordered us an uber because they don't trust us to leave by himself

yeah I agree all right how you feel I feel Gucci how

do you feel this is more space than my living room yes yes please

I don't know what I'm going to say do a cartwheel karaoke get it started yeah

now you feeling okay I just I'm I'm just crazy when it comes

to all these little details and now I'm even more crazier because it was just a

business it's one thing but now it's like it's flair how so I want to make

sure she's okay and she's comfortable when she's you know so I'm a little

nervous but I'm nervous to make sure she's okay that's okay

I don't know Showtek scary yeah let me just a second just a second this is so

awkward though there is yeah

you see the room okay just don't don't be lonely it's okay everything's good

why would you say that I'm just telling you it's bigger than I thought it would

look it's just a little you know this is where the security is going to be I'm

freaking out I'm like shaking I'm like shaking

okay so Paul I decided that that's the right idea

yeah oh you weren't gonna look at me

this is insane I thought were gonna be it like a YMCA conversation with Valeri

lip of etske okay standing up there that's perfect yeah it's great

why are the chairs they're gonna bring the chairs a little later but let's

check you know what I'll show you where Lake of the room is where you're gonna

get changed

it's bigger than it looks you gotta get her face literally this is

350 chairs bed this is really this isn't no crazy player this is real

I love your outfits okay don't shoot cameras so gary said walk around is not

just possible yes and like go anywhere there's no rules your party now okay

does this have any sanity Gary you think this is gonna look this way

no like show everybody we're this

look it's valaria and valaria right yeah how did my shirt get the London that's

Gary Alex do you know if you would have a safety pin thank you yeah it's okay if

I try this type in Jake that's really cute do you feel for the photos you want

to come down here or would you rather what do you think it's like I think a

line is like the most organized and

say hi how are you we're gonna go put this camera upstairs

on tripod so we can get a view of the whole audience and valaria this is so

cool

Wow this is a shot I can't believe it what Wow

you know what I'm actually not as nervous as I was a few days ago it's

just like my people and I have already met two girls I have crazy like ties in

my belly okay Krista the boss lady everyone's doing

such an amazing job and we have Chantal who's Emma's friend from England she's

from the UK but I don't think she's from London and she came to help them shoot

and we have Krista was bossing everybody around and making sure everything is on

point but I have given read for moral support and for everything else because

he's doing everything he's the best okay I need to breathe now

yeah so hopefully it's nice type child in your room but we are known though so

hopefully you brought me a dress cuz you chinos I like stars look like you got

this for me that me shut up is that crazy that's in it oh my god

that was really I want to cry on that girl like oh my god so much she'll go to

me I like 90% of the time she's gonna find my gosh there you're gonna smash it

it's gonna be so good I can't believe this is their first time doing it so

weird a little bit a little bit just a little bit I'm like shaking excited

maybe it's like excitement yeah I think it's excitement it's just weird that

everybody's here in person I'm so weird we know what it's like to be like on the

other so I'm like trying to be level-headed but if like I'm gonna block

out the zombies you're holding the camera okay I'm like shaking holding

thank you so much for doing this okay thanks for having me so much fun so

were you or were you born and raised in Jersey yeah and then I just went to

Canada for uni study film that's my mammal why Canada it's like the one of

the best film schools in the world really there's no fight and you and

everyone in the same class yeah we met on the first day she's amazing she's not

like she never talks about you know that it was like such a big school and make

such a hello why didn't you tell me you went to

like one of the schools some schools in the world the best yeah like I'm gonna

do a good before yeah yeah yeah school I like literally like cry every day it's

like a year intensive program for film production yeah so we like our final

film like made it to the last round and so ours was one of the five like

produced so we got a whole crew together Chantal and I wrote it and I did the

cinematography I always introduced it said watch it we did it all these

festivals and it won an award the best comedy scene excuse me

that's so cool no I don't think you like when you mention it doing by the way

that is so cool Thanks you practice your speech as it should be that's it

what else did I say should I talk my with twin brother finding signed up for

this shit like I just wanted to send my own goods drink me God me what the hell

am I doing here how are you people who are you I have

like my body aches because you say yeah and excited so together it's I think

that we should breathe it can sit none of your readings I just looked at all of

you

are you gonna come out with camera yeah yeah so should you

yeah really yeah and then you can pass it off to me like and then I'll grab it

yeah no no no we're gonna play a little me maybe put this on the other side

believe me me standing on stage and speaking people we're just like

expressing my thoughts and stuff when people care it's so different than just

the way it was is a kid but not in a million years that I would ever crazy

when you told me if you days ago you told me like such a good metaphor to the

way I feel when you said you're like and in cocoon and you already like you

turning into a butterfly and that cocoon is like you're trying so hard to stay in

there but it's like it hurts uncomfortable when you're like breaking

free you know and this is exactly how I feel I feel like it's just the why I'm