And I know that every single one of us have our own personal challenges,

我知道，我們每個人都有自己的個人挑戰。

and trials and there are days when we wish

和考驗，有的時候我們希望

that we didn't have to get out of bed.

我們沒有'起床。

There are days when we wish we could pull the covers back up and hibernate.

有的時候，我們希望能拉開被子，冬眠。

But we all have a choice to make.

但我們都可以選擇。

We have the choice to stay in bed and keep the covers pulled over us,

我們可以選擇呆在床上，把被子拉在身上。

or we have a choice to move forward.

或者我們可以選擇前進。

When I was 14 years old, nothing special stood out about me.

在我14歲的時候，我沒有什麼特別的地方。

I was just average 14-year-old,

我只是普通的14歲。

getting ready to graduate from junior high, very excited.

準備國中畢業了，非常興奮。

I remember going to bed one night,

我記得有一天晚上睡覺的時候。

in a room that I shared with my sister, in a bed that I shared with my sister.

在一個房間裡，我與我的妹妹共享， 在一張床上，我與我的妹妹共享。

I remember waking up to the voice, a strange voice, saying

我記得我醒來的時候，聽到那個聲音，一個陌生的聲音，說道

"I have a knife at your neck; don't make a sound.

"我有一把刀架在你的脖子上，別出聲。

Get up and come with me."

起來，跟我走吧！&quot。

That started a nine-month-long nightmare.

這就開始了長達9個月的噩夢。

I remember this strange man taking me way up into the mountains behind my home,

我記得這個奇怪的男人帶著我一路往家後面的山裡走。

all the while at knife-point.

同時在刀口。

I mean, I remember being brought so far up into the mountains.

我是說，我記得我被帶到了那麼遠的山裡。

We crossed right over the top of the mountain,

我們直接從山頂上穿過。

and started down the other side.

並從另一邊開始下來。

We were about a quarter of the way down the other side

我們走了大約四分之一的路，到了另一邊。

when we came to a grove of trees, and nothing stood out about it,

當我們來到一片樹林時，並沒有什麼突出的地方。

nothing seemed special about it,

似乎沒有什麼特別的地方。

but he directed me inside this grove of trees,

但他指引我進入這片樹林。

and I remember walking in,

我記得我走進去。

and I saw that part of the mountain had been leveled out.

我看到部分山體已經被夷為平地。

There was a tent set up.

有一頂帳篷。

There were tarps lying on the ground, hanging up in the trees.

地上躺著油布，掛在樹上。

I remember seeing a huge hole in the ground behind the tent,

我記得我看到帳篷後面的地上有一個巨大的洞。

where they had laid logs across the top, and then thrown dirt up on top of it.

他們在那裡鋪設了原木，然後把土扔在上面。

But the most scary part of this whole scene

但整個場景中最可怕的部分是什麼？

was the woman that emerged from the tent.

是那個從帳篷裡出來的女人。

She brought me in, and she sat me down on a bucket,

她帶我進來，讓我坐在桶上。

where she tried to sponge bathe me,

她想用海綿給我洗澡。

and change me out of my pajamas into strange robes.

並把我的睡衣換成奇怪的長袍。

I grew up in being very, very shy and very, very self-conscious,

我是在非常非常害羞和非常非常自覺的情況下長大的。

and that was just about the most traumatic thing

而這只是關於最創傷的事情

I had ever had happen to me.

我曾經發生在我身上。

I remember begging and pleading with her just to let me do it myself,

我記得我求過她，懇求她只是讓我自己做。

that I wasn't dirty, that I had just showered the night before,

我是不是'髒，我剛洗過澡的前一天晚上。

and that I could change myself; I didn't need her help.

和我可以改變自己，我不需要她的幫助。

Finally, after - I don't know - 15 minutes, probably,

最後，在--我不知道--15分鐘後，大概。

of begging and crying, she finally just passed me the robes.

的乞求和哭泣，她最後只是把袍子遞給我。

I wiggled them on, she scooped up my pajamas,

我扭扭捏捏地穿上，她把我的睡衣抱了起來。

and she left me alone in the tent, sitting on an upturned bucket.

她把我一個人留在帳篷裡，坐在一個翻倒的水桶上。

I remember sitting there and crying,

我記得我坐在那裡哭了。

and crying, and thinking of what had happened to me.

和哭泣，想著我的遭遇。

How had just yesterday I had been at school with my friends,

怎麼就在昨天，我還和朋友們在學校。

How had just yesterday I'd been at home,

怎麼就在昨天我'在家裡。

looking forward to graduating, ready to go to high school.

盼望著畢業，準備上高中。

How had this happened?

怎麼會出現這種情況？

How had my world turned from day to night,

我的世界怎麼從白天變成了黑夜。

and what had happened to my family?

我的家庭又發生了什麼事？

Had this man gone through my house already,

難道這個人已經穿過我家了。

and murdered my family?

並謀殺了我的家人？

What was going to happen to me?

我到底會發生什麼事？

The only thoughts that I could think of were going to happen to me, were:

我唯一能想到的想法是，我會發生在我身上，是。

He's going to rape me, and then he's going to kill me

他要強暴我，然後他要殺了我

because nobody survives being kidnapped,

因為沒有人能夠從被綁架中倖存下來。

nobody ever comes home.

從來沒有人回家。

I have never seen a happily-ever-after in a kidnapping story.

我從來沒有在綁架故事中看到過幸福的結局。

Every story the news repeats, it's always the same.

每一個新聞重複的故事，它總是相同的。

Maybe it's days later, weeks later, years later, a body is found,

也許是'天后，幾周後，幾年後，發現了一具屍體。

but that's what happens.

但這就是發生的事情。

As I sat there crying, I'm being so scared,

當我坐在那裡哭的時候，我'被嚇壞了。

I remember the tent door unzipping, and in walked this man,

我記得帳篷的門拉開了，走進來的是這個人。

and he had changed out of the dark clothes he had kidnapped me in,

而他也換掉了綁架我的那套黑衣服。

into a robe, just like the one I had on,

變成了一件長袍，就像我穿的那件一樣。

and he knelt down next to me, and he started to speak.

他跪在我身邊，他開始說話。

And at first, I was so caught up

一開始，我是如此的著迷

in my own worries and my own fears,

在我自己的憂慮和恐懼中。

and what had happened, and what was going to happen,

和已經發生的事情，以及將要發生的事情。

I couldn't even begin to think to listen to what he was saying.

我根本來不及想聽他在說什麼。

Finally, some part of me pulled myself together long enough

最後，我的某些部分把自己拉到了足夠長的時間。

to hear him say the words that I was now his wife,

聽他說，我現在是他的妻子。

I was sealed to him,

我被他封印了。

and that I was supposed to perform all wifely duties.

而我應該履行所有妻子的職責。

and it was time for us to consummate our marriage.

是時候讓我們完成我們的婚姻了。

Now I grew up in a very traditional home.

現在我在一個很傳統的家庭里長大。

My family is very religious.

我的家庭是非常虔誠的。

I have been raised to believe

我從小就相信

that sexual relationships are to be

性關係應該是

within the boundaries of marriage,

在婚姻的範圍內。

and that's what I'd always believed.

而這也是我一直相信的。

That's what I'd always intended on following.

這'就是我'一直打算遵循的。

And so here this man was, telling me

所以這個人在這裡，告訴我

that I was supposed to consummate our marriage,

我本該完成我們的婚姻。

and I may have grown up in a bit of a bubble.

而我可能是在保麗龍中長大的。

I mean I may not have been

我的意思是，我可能沒有

the most forward-thinking 14 year old in the world at the time.

當時世界上最具前瞻性的14歲少年。

Part of me wasn't even sure I knew what "consummate a marriage" meant.

我的一部分人甚至不確定我是否知道"圓滿的婚姻"是什麼意思。

The other part of me was praying and hoping

我的另一部分是祈禱和希望。

that it wasn't what I thought it was.

這不是我想的那樣。

I quickly found out exactly what it was.

我很快就發現了它的具體內容。

I remember begging and pleading, and crying,

我記得我求了又求，哭了又哭。

and tried to come up with every reason I possibly could

我想盡一切可能想出的理由

to try to convince this man to let me go, to not hurt me,

試圖說服這個男人讓我走，不要傷害我。

to just release me back to my family.

把我放回我的家人身邊

But nothing I said or did made a difference.

但我說的和做的都沒有什麼不同。

I will never forget.

我永遠不會忘記。

He pulled me off the bucket where I'd been sitting, onto the ground,

他把我從我坐過的桶上拉下來，放到地上。

where he ripped off the robe I'd been forced to put on,

在那裡，他撕掉了我'被迫穿上的長袍。

and he raped me on the floor of the tent.

他在帳篷的地板上強姦了我。

Then when he was finished, he got up, and he left me alone.

然後等他說完，他就起身了，他讓我一個人待著。

And I will never, ever forget how I felt, how broken I felt,

而我永遠，永遠不會忘記我的感受，我的傷痛。

how I was beyond all help, all hope,

我是多麼的無能為力，所有的希望。

that even if someone did find me, what was the point?

即使有人找到我，又有什麼意義呢？

I was useless, I was disgusting.

我很沒用，我很噁心。

I wasn't worth saving, at that point.

我不值得保存，在這一點上。

I fell asleep thinking those thoughts,

我想著這些想法就睡著了。

and when I woke up, there was this man, kneeling over me again,

當我醒來的時候，有這個男人，又跪在我身上。

and this time he had taken a thick, metal cable,

而這次他拿了一根粗大的金屬電纜。

and had wrapped it around my ankle, and bolted it into place,

並把它纏在我的腳踝上，並把它栓好。

so I couldn't run away.

所以我不能逃跑。

And that moment, I started thinking

那一刻，我開始思考

of all the children whom I had seen on the news,

我在新聞上看到的所有孩子中。

whose stories always seemed to end so tragically.

他的故事似乎總是以悲劇性的方式結束。

And I couldn't help but think: They are the lucky ones.

我不禁想：他們是幸運兒。

They are so lucky: I wish I could be one of those children,

他們是如此幸運：我希望我能成為這些孩子中的一員。

because no one will ever hurt them again.

因為沒有人會再傷害他們。

no one will ever make them feel

無人問津

like they are worthless, or that they're unloved.

像他們一文不值，或他們'不愛。

No one can never do that to them again.

誰也不能再這樣對他們了。

I wish that was me.

我希望那是我。

And that is a brief look of what the next nine months were.

而這就是接下來九個月的簡單情況。

Very early on, I made the decision

很早以前，我就決定

that I wasn't going to let these two captors win.

我是不會讓這兩個俘虜贏的。

I wasn't going to let them take my life from me.

我不打算讓他們奪走我的生命。

I would do everything I possibly could to survive,

為了生存，我會盡我所能。

even if that meant outliving them,

哪怕這意味著比他們活得更久。

even if that meant surviving for another 30 years,

即使這意味著再活30年。

going through this kind of abuse every day.

每天都在經歷這種虐待。

Thank Heavens, it wasn't 30 years; it was only nine months later.

謝天謝地，這不是30年，只是9個月後。

I will never forget the first time I saw my dad

我永遠不會忘記我第一次見到我爸爸的時候。

after the police had stopped and picked me up.

在警察把我攔住並帶走之後。

I will never forget feeling that, no matter what lay in front of me,

我永遠不會忘記這種感覺，不管眼前是什麼。

it was going to be okay, and that nobody ever again would be able to make me hurt

它會好起來的，沒有人再能讓我受傷了

the way that two these people had made me hurt the last nine months.

在過去的九個月裡，這兩個人讓我受傷的方式。

Best feeling in the world, knowing that someone loves you.

世界上最好的感覺，知道有人愛你。

The following day my mother gave me a piece of advice,

第二天，母親給了我一個建議。

and I'd like to share it with you,

而我'想和你分享。

because as I said, we all have trials in life,

因為我說過，我們的人生都有考驗。

we all have those times when we don't want get out of bed.

我們都有那些時間，當我們不'想起床。

My mom said to me,

我媽對我說。

"Elizabeth, what this man has done to you is terrible,

"伊麗莎白，這個男人對你做的事情太可怕了。

and there are not words strong enough to describe how wicked and evil he is.

沒有足夠的語言來形容他是多麼的邪惡和邪惡。

He has stolen nine months of your life that you will never get back.

他偷走了你生命中九個月的時間，你永遠也找不回來了。

The best punishment you could ever give him is to be happy,

你能給他最好的懲罰就是讓他開心。

is to move forward with your life, because by feeling sorry for yourself

是為了讓你的生活更上一層樓，因為你覺得對不起自己

and holding on the past, and dwelling on what's happened to you,

和抱著過去，糾結於發生在自己身上的事情'。

that's only allowing them more control, more power,

那隻會讓他們有更多的控制權，更多的權力。

steal more of your life away from you.

從你身上偷走更多的生活。

So don't let that happen.

所以不要讓這種情況發生。

Justice may or may not be served, restitution may or may not be made,

正義可能會得到伸張，也可能不會得到補償。

but don't you dare give them another second of your life.

但你不敢給他們另一秒鐘的生命。

I have tried to follow that advice every day since then,

從那以後，我每天都努力按照這個建議去做。

I am a long ways from following it perfectly,

我離完美地遵循它還有很長的路要走。

but then again, what daughter is perfect at following her mother's advice?

但話說回來，哪個女兒能完美地聽從母親'的建議？

(Laughter)

(笑聲)

But I know that we all have a choice.

但我知道，我們都有選擇的權利。

I know that when we are faced with trials, we have a choice.

我知道，當我們面臨考驗的時候，我們有選擇的權利。

We can give in and surrender, or we can fight and we can move forward.

我們可以屈服和投降，也可以戰鬥和前進。

And as I've been able to go out and share my story,

而作為我'已經能夠走出去，分享我的故事。

and speak with different people, I have learned so much.

和不同的人說話，我學到了很多東西。

I have come to a point in my life that I can say

我已經走到了我的生命中，我可以說：

although I would never wish it upon myself,

雖然我不會希望自己這樣做。

and I certainly never would wish it upon anyone else,

我當然也不會希望它發生在別人身上。

I am grateful for what has happened to me,

我很感激發生在我身上的事情。

because of what it's taught me, because of the perspective it's given me,

因為它教給我的東西，因為它給我的觀點。

and the empathy I've felt for other survivors.

以及我對其他倖存者的同情。

I am grateful that I can make a difference.

我很慶幸自己能有所作為。

I'm grateful that I can speak out, and especially for victims of sexual abuse

我很感激我可以說出來，特別是為性虐待的受害者。

who haven't been able to speak out for themselves yet.

誰還沒有能夠為自己說話。

It is so traumatic, it is so scary, coming forward and saying,

它是如此的創傷，它是如此的可怕，站出來說。

"I was sexually abused; I was hurt.

"我受到了性虐待，我受到了傷害。

Someone stole something from me that I'll never get back."

有人從我這裡偷走了一些東西，我'永遠也拿不回來了.&quot。

But I have to tell you, it is so important

但我要告訴你，它是如此的重要

to come forward and share your stories, and speak out about it,

站出來分享你們的故事，並說出你們的故事。

even if it's not to your community, even if it's not on a larger scale,

即使它'不是對你的社區，即使它'不是在更大範圍內。

but at least to law enforcement,

但至少對執法部門。

so that we can stop those people that are out there

這樣我們就可以阻止那些人 在那裡。

taking advantage of other people.

佔別人的便宜。

It is so important.

它是如此重要。

So I have to encourage every single one of you.

所以我得鼓勵你們每一個人。

When you are faced with a trial, don't give up; don't surrender.

當你面臨考驗的時候，不要放棄；不要投降。

Move forward, because you never know

向前走，因為你永遠不知道

what you'll be able to do with it.

你'能用它做什麼。

You'll never know the lives you'll be able to touch.

你永遠不會知道你能觸及的生命。

I am so grateful to be here with you all today.

今天能和大家在一起，我很感激。

Thank you so much.

非常感謝你。

(Applause)

(掌聲)