AT GUY'S PARTY AFTER THE OSCARS,

在奧斯卡典禮過後的派對上

AND WE SPOKE FOR A LITTLE WHILE.

我們聊了一會兒

AND I WAS CONGRATULATING YOU,

恭喜你勇敢出櫃

BECAUSE I AM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR COMING OUT,

我以你為榮

AND I'M HAPPY FOR YOU.

也為你高興

[cheers and applause]

[全場歡呼、鼓掌]

I KNOW WHAT A SCARY THING THAT IS.

我很清楚，出櫃有多可怕

YOUR SPEECH WAS INCREDIBLE.

你的演講太棒了

I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS

我真的覺得...

THE MOST BRILLIANTLY WRITTEN SPEECH.

這是我聽過最精彩的演講

- THANKS.

謝謝

- I WANT TO SHOW--

我想要播...

I WANT TO SHOW A LITTLE TINY BIT OF IT RIGHT NOW.

現在我要播出演講的部分片段

- HERE I AM, AN ACTRESS

我是個演員

REPRESENTING, AT LEAST IN SOME SENSE, AN INDUSTRY

某種程度上，也可說是代表著影視產業

THAT PLACES CRUSHING STANDARDS ON ALL OF US,

這個產業制定各種嚴苛的標準

STANDARDS THAT, I HATE TO ADMIT, HAVE AFFECTED ME.

我不得不承認，我自己也深受影響

AND I AM HERE TODAY BECAUSE I AM GAY

今天我之所以在此，是因為我是同志

AND BECAUSE--

也因為...

[cheers and applause]

[全場歡呼、鼓掌]

- I KNOW HOW SCARY THAT IS.

我了解出櫃的可怕

YOU STILL GET EMOTIONAL?

你現在心情還是很激動？

- YEAH. - YEAH.

是的

I CAN SEE THAT YOU'RE EMOTIONAL JUST WATCHING THAT.

看得出來，光是回顧影片你就很激動

I WAS LIKE THAT FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS

我也有類似經驗

AFTER I CAME OUT.

即使出櫃多年後，心情還是難以平復

IT'S A SCARY THING TO VERBALIZE, TO SAY IT OUT LOUD.

出櫃真的很可怕，向世人宣告一切

HOW NERVOUS WERE YOU?

你當時有多緊張？

- UH, THE MOST NERVOUS I'VE EVER BEEN IN MY LIFE,

嗯，這是我這輩子最緊張的一刻

FOR SURE.

我很緊張

I THINK MY BIGGEST FEAR OF DOING IT

老實說，我想我最害怕的是...

WAS EVEN JUST HAVING A PANIC ATTACK, QUITE FRANKLY.

出櫃會讓我恐慌症發作

- UH-HUH.

嗯

- BUT, YOU KNOW, I WAS JUST SO READY TO DO IT

不過，我心裡早就做好出櫃的準備

AND, QUITE FRANKLY, SO EXCITED TO DO IT,

甚至有點興奮

SO IT WAS A COMBINATION OF JUST SUCH THRILL

所以是既期待又怕受傷害

TO FINALLY BE AT THAT PLACE IN MY LIFE

終於我的人生到達這個轉捩點

WHERE I WAS ABLE TO DO THAT

我能夠勇敢出櫃

AND GRATEFUL TO HAVE THAT MOMENT

能夠有這樣的時刻，我滿懷感激

AND GRATEFUL TO YOU, BECAUSE YOU DID IT

也要向你致意

IN A TIME WHEN IT WAS MUCH HARDER AND MUCH SCARIER.

因為你當時出櫃的處境更加艱難、可怕

SO IT'S--

所以，這..

[applause]

[鼓掌]

- IT'S, UM--

這是...嗯...

IT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT AT THE TIME,

當然我並沒有想那麼多

BUT IT'S A VERY SELFISH THING TO DO.

不過出櫃還是非常私人的事

IT REALLY IS JUST THE MOST--

這真的是最...

I MEAN, I CAN SPEAK FOREVER ON IT,

談到出櫃，我可以滔滔不絕...

BUT HOW DO YOU FEEL SINCE YOU'VE DONE IT?

不過，你出櫃後的心情如何？

- YOU KNOW, I KNEW I WOULD BE A HAPPIER PERSON.

我知道，我會比以前更快樂

I KNEW THAT I WAS GONNA FEEL BETTER.

我也知道，我心情會變好

AND I DID NOT ANTICIPATE JUST HOW HAPPY I WOULD FEEL.

但我沒有想到，我會這麼開心

AND JUST EVERY ASPECT OF MY LIFE,

我生活的一切

JUST AN EASE AND A COMFORT.

都變得輕鬆、愜意

AND IT'S--IT'S REALLY BEEN QUITE EXTRAORDINARY

這真的是十分美好的經驗

TO FEEL JUST THE SHIFT.

可以感受到很明顯的轉變

IT WAS PRETTY MUCH OVERNIGHT TOO.

簡直是一夜之間，一切都變了

- YEAH, IT IS, BECAUSE YOU'RE RELEASING SHAME.

沒錯，因為你不再感到羞恥

I MEAN, AND ANYONE-- IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT IT IS,

對於所有人來說，不管是什麼樣的秘密

WHAT YOU'RE CARRYING AROUND THAT'S YOUR SECRET.

你保守著秘密

EVERYONE HAS SOMETHING THAT YOU'RE CARRYING AROUND

每個人都有不欲人知的秘密

THAT YOU'RE ASHAMED OF.

你會感到很羞恥

AND TO CARRY SHAME AROUND IS A--

一直懷抱著這樣的恥辱感

FIRST OF ALL, IT CAUSES DISEASE.

首先，這對你的健康不好

IT'S--YOU JUST CAN'T-- IT'S A HORRIBLE THING,

你無法... 這很可怕

TO BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF.

你對自己感到羞恥

- YES, IT'S TOXIC, AND I THINK WE TALKED ABOUT THIS A BIT,

沒錯，這有害無益，如同先前所說

WHERE, YOU KNOW, YOU THINK YOU'RE AT A PLACE

你會覺得，你人生到達某種階段

WHERE YOU'RE LIKE, "OH, I'M HAPPY TO BE GAY.

你會覺得「我以身為同志為傲」

"I'M SO COMFORTABLE BEING GAY.

「我對於自己是同志感到很自在」

I LOVE BEING GAY."

「我樂於當個同志」

AND, HONESTLY, IT WASN'T UNTIL MAKING THAT CHOICE

但老實說，一直到決定出櫃的這一刻

AND DOING THAT WHERE I REALIZED, LIKE, NO,

我才開始理解到，不對...

I WAS CARRYING A TREMENDOUS AMOUNT OF SHAME

其實在內心深處，我一直以自己為恥

AND GUILT FOR NOT BEING OUT

未能出櫃令我萬分內疚

AND FELT ISOLATED FROM THE LGBT COMMUNITY.

也覺得和 LGBT族群有著隔閡

AND NOW I DON'T, SO...

現在這樣的感覺消失了，所以...

- YEAH, IT'S--YOU KNOW, I THINK YOU SEEM MORE RELAXED,

嗯，你看來更加自在

AND I THINK THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT JUST NOT HAVING TO WORRY

我想，是因為你不再擔憂...

ABOUT SOMEBODY CATCHING YOU IN A LIE.

害怕有人會拆穿你的謊言

I KNOW WHAT THAT'S LIKE WHEN YOU'RE ON A SHOW

我了解那種感受，當你上節目時

AND YOU'RE JUST--YOU JUST FEEL LIKE YOU'RE WAITING

我會覺得，好像...總有那麼一天

FOR SOMEONE TO GO, "YOU'RE GAY!

某人會對你說「你是同志」

[laughter]

[爆笑]

I KNOW YOU ARE!"

「我知道你是同志」

- YEAH, YES, ABSOLUTELY.

沒錯，真的是這樣

IT'S SO NICE TO JUST, YOU KNOW, BE AT WORK

這真的很棒，在工作時不必隱藏自己

AND TALK ABOUT AN EX OR, YOU KNOW,

可以大方聊前女友之類的

GET TO WEAR WHAT YOU WANT

穿自己喜歡的衣服

AND NOT HAVE A CONVERSATION ABOUT IT

不必多說些什麼

AND TO FEEL LIKE YOU'RE BEING YOURSELF

好像...你可以做自己

AND THEN CONNECT WITH PEOPLE IN THE WORLD.

和所有人沒有隔閡

YOU KNOW, IT'S SO NICE TO HAVE PEOPLE COME UP TO ME

很棒的是，有些人會來找我

AND TELL ME THEIR STORY

和我分享他們的故事

OR, YOU KNOW, SAY, "HEY, I'M CLOSETED.

或說「我還沒出櫃，

DO YOU HAVE ADVICE?"

你有什麼建議嗎？」

AND, YOU KNOW, THOSE ARE REALLY BEAUTIFUL MOMENTS

這些都是很棒的時刻

TO GET TO SHARE WITH PEOPLE.

能夠與人分享

- YEAH, YEAH, AND TO KNOW THAT YOU'RE ANOTHER FACE

沒錯，現在你成了另一個榜樣

THAT SOMEONE HAS HOPE FOR,

讓有些人可以懷抱希望

'CAUSE THERE ARE A LOT OF TEENAGERS OUT THERE--

因為有很多年輕人...

YOU TALK ABOUT IN YOUR SPEECH--

你在演講裡有提到

THAT ARE GETTING BULLIED EVERY SINGLE DAY

他們每天都被霸凌

OR TAKING THEIR OWN LIVES

甚至終結自己的生命

BECAUSE THEY'RE, YOU KNOW-- THEY CAN'T HANDLE IT.

因為他們沒有那麼堅強

AND SO IT'S A REALLY COOL THING.

所以你出櫃是很棒的事