Obviously, that's changed,

很顯然，這一點已經改變了'。

but only recently.

但只是最近。

It was several months ago

那是幾個月前的事了

that I gave my very first major public talk

我的第一次公開演講

at the Forbes 30 Under 30 summit:

在福布斯30位30歲以下峰會上。

1,500 brilliant people, all under the age of 30.

1500名優秀人才，年齡都在30歲以下。

That meant that in 1998,

這意味著，在1998年。

the oldest among the group were only 14,

這群人中最大的只有14歲。

and the youngest, just four.

而最小的，才四歲。

I joked with them that some might only have heard of me

我跟他們開玩笑說，有些人可能只聽過我的名字

from rap songs.

從說唱歌曲。

Yes, I'm in rap songs.

是的，我&39;在說唱歌曲。

Almost 40 rap songs. (Laughter)

近40首說唱歌曲。(笑聲)

But the night of my speech, a surprising thing happened.

但在我演講的當晚，發生了一件令人驚訝的事情。

At the age of 41, I was hit on by a 27-year-old guy.

41歲的時候，我被一個27歲的男人搭訕。

I know, right?

我知道，對吧？

He was charming and I was flattered,

他很有魅力，我受寵若驚。

and I declined.

而我拒絕了。

You know what his unsuccessful pickup line was?

你知道他那句不成功的搭訕臺詞是什麼嗎？

He could make me feel 22 again.

他能讓我重新感受到22歲的感覺。

(Laughter) (Applause)

(笑聲) (掌聲)

I realized later that night, I'm probably the only person over 40

當晚我才意識到，我'可能是唯一一個超過40歲的人。

who does not want to be 22 again.

誰也不想再做22歲的人。

(Laughter)

(笑聲)

(Applause)

(掌聲)

At the age of 22, I fell in love with my boss,

22歲時，我愛上了我的老闆。

and at the age of 24,

而在24歲的時候。

I learned the devastating consequences.

我知道了毀滅性的後果。

Can I see a show of hands of anyone here

請大家舉手示意。

who didn't make a mistake or do something they regretted at 22?

誰沒有'做一個錯誤或做的東西，他們後悔在22？

Yep. That's what I thought.

是的，我就是這麼想的。我也是這麼想的。

So like me, at 22, a few of you may have also taken wrong turns

所以像我一樣，在22歲的時候，你們中的一些人可能也走過彎路。

and fallen in love with the wrong person,

並愛上了一個錯誤的人。

maybe even your boss.

甚至你的老闆。

Unlike me, though, your boss

不過，你老闆不像我

probably wasn't the president of the United States of America.

可能是'不是美利堅合眾國的總統。

Of course, life is full of surprises.

當然，生活中充滿了驚喜。

Not a day goes by that I'm not reminded of my mistake,

沒有一天不提醒我'我的錯誤。

and I regret that mistake deeply.

而我對這個錯誤深感後悔。

In 1998, after having been swept up into an improbable romance,

1998年，在被捲入一段不可能的愛情之後。

I was then swept up into the eye of a political, legal and media maelstrom

然後，我被捲入了政治、法律和媒體的漩渦之中。

like we had never seen before.

我們從未見過的。

Remember, just a few years earlier,

記得，就在幾年前。

news was consumed from just three places:

新聞僅從三個地方消費。

reading a newspaper or magazine,

閱讀報紙或雜誌；

listening to the radio,

聽收音機。

or watching television.

或看電視。

That was it.

就是這樣。

But that wasn't my fate.

但這不是我的命運。

Instead, this scandal was brought to you

而這個醜聞卻給你帶來了。

by the digital revolution.

由數字革命。

That meant we could access all the information we wanted,

這意味著我們可以獲取所有我們想要的資訊。

when we wanted it, anytime, anywhere,

當我們想要的時候，隨時隨地。

and when the story broke in January 1998,

並在1998年1月爆料時。

it broke online.

它在網上爆出。

It was the first time the traditional news

這是傳統新聞的第一次

was usurped by the Internet for a major news story,

被互聯網篡改為重大新聞。

a click that reverberated around the world.

咔嚓一聲，響徹全球。

What that meant for me personally

這對我個人來說意味著什麼？

was that overnight I went from being a completely private figure

是，一夜之間，我從一個完全私人的數字

to a publicly humiliated one worldwide.

到全球公開羞辱的。

I was patient zero of losing a personal reputation

我是失去個人名譽的零耐心

on a global scale almost instantaneously.

在全球範圍內幾乎瞬間。

This rush to judgment, enabled by technology,

這種急於求成的判斷，由技術促成。

led to mobs of virtual stone-throwers.

導致了虛擬投石機的暴徒。

Granted, it was before social media,

準，那是在社交媒體之前。

but people could still comment online,

但人們仍然可以在網上評論。

email stories, and, of course, email cruel jokes.

電子郵件的故事，當然，還有電子郵件的殘酷笑話。

News sources plastered photos of me all over

新聞來源把我的照片貼得滿天飛。

to sell newspapers, banner ads online,

在網上賣報紙、橫幅廣告。

and to keep people tuned to the TV.

並讓人們收看電視。

Do you recall a particular image of me,

你是否記得我的一個特別的形象。

say, wearing a beret?

比如說，戴著貝雷帽？

Now, I admit I made mistakes,

現在，我承認我犯了錯誤。

especially wearing that beret.

尤其是戴著那頂貝雷帽

But the attention and judgment that I received, not the story,

但我受到的關注和評價，不是故事。

but that I personally received, was unprecedented.

但我個人收到的，卻是前所未有的。

I was branded as a tramp,

我被打上了流浪漢的烙印。

tart, slut, whore, bimbo,

騷貨，蕩婦，妓女，蕩婦。

and, of course, that woman.

當然，還有那個女人。

I was seen by many

我被很多人看到

but actually known by few.

但實際上卻很少有人知道。

And I get it: it was easy to forget

我明白了：這很容易被遺忘

that that woman was dimensional,

那個女人是立體的。

had a soul, and was once unbroken.

有靈魂，而且曾經沒有斷過。

When this happened to me 17 years ago, there was no name for it.

17年前，當這種情況發生在我身上時，還沒有名字。

Now we call it cyberbullying and online harassment.

現在我們稱之為網絡欺凌和網絡騷擾。

Today, I want to share some of my experience with you,

今天，我想和大家分享一些我的經驗。

talk about how that experience has helped shape my cultural observations,

談談這段經歷如何幫助我形成文化觀察。

and how I hope my past experience can lead to a change that results

以及我希望我過去的經歷能帶來怎樣的改變，結果是什麼？

in less suffering for others.

以減少他人的痛苦。

In 1998, I lost my reputation and my dignity.

1998年，我失去了名譽和尊嚴。

I lost almost everything,

我幾乎失去了一切。

and I almost lost my life.

我幾乎失去了我的生活。

Let me paint a picture for you.

讓我給你畫一幅畫。

It is September of 1998.

現在是1998年9月。

I'm sitting in a windowless office room

我坐在一個沒有窗戶的辦公室裡。

inside the Office of the Independent Counsel

獨立法律顧問辦公室內部

underneath humming fluorescent lights.

在嗡嗡作響的日光燈下。

I'm listening to the sound of my voice,

我'在聽我的聲音。

my voice on surreptitiously taped phone calls

我的電話錄音

that a supposed friend had made the year before.

一個所謂的朋友前年做的。

I'm here because I've been legally required

我在這裡，因為我已經被法律要求

to personally authenticate all 20 hours of taped conversation.

親自鑑定所有20小時的錄音對話。

For the past eight months, the mysterious content of these tapes

在過去的八個月裡，這些錄音帶的神祕內容

has hung like the Sword of Damocles over my head.

已經像達摩克利斯之劍一樣懸在我的頭上。

I mean, who can remember what they said a year ago?

我的意思是，誰能記得他們一年前說過什麼？

Scared and mortified, I listen,

害怕和羞愧，我聽著。

listen as I prattle on about the flotsam and jetsam of the day;

聽著我喋喋不休地講著今天的瑣事和亂七八糟的事情。

listen as I confess my love for the president,

聽著，我承認我對總統的愛。

and, of course, my heartbreak;

當然，還有我的心碎。

listen to my sometimes catty, sometimes churlish, sometimes silly self

聽聽我時而斤斤計較，時而冷嘲熱諷，時而傻乎乎的自我介紹。

being cruel, unforgiving, uncouth;

心狠手辣，不留情面，不講究。

listen, deeply, deeply ashamed,

聽，深深地，深深地慚愧。

to the worst version of myself,

到最壞的自己。

a self I don't even recognize.

一個我都不認識的自己。

A few days later, the Starr Report is released to Congress,

幾天後，《斯塔報告》向國會公佈。

and all of those tapes and transcripts, those stolen words, form a part of it.

和所有這些錄音帶和副本， 那些偷來的文字， 形成它的一部分。

That people can read the transcripts is horrific enough,

人們能看懂成績單，已經夠可怕的了。

but a few weeks later,

但幾周後。

the audio tapes are aired on TV,

錄音帶在電視上播出。

and significant portions made available online.

並在網上提供相當一部分。

The public humiliation was excruciating.

當眾羞辱，令人痛心疾首。

Life was almost unbearable.

生活幾乎是無法忍受的。

This was not something that happened with regularity back then in 1998,

這在1998年的時候並不是經常發生的事情。

and by this, I mean the stealing of people's private words, actions,

而我說的這個，是指竊取人們'的私語、行為。

conversations or photos,

談話或照片。

and then making them public --

然後將其公開 -- --

public without consent,

未經同意擅自公開。

public without context,

沒有上下文的公共。

and public without compassion.

和公眾沒有同情心。

Fast forward 12 years to 2010,

快進12年到2010年。

and now social media has been born.

而現在社交媒體已經誕生。

The landscape has sadly become much more populated with instances like mine,

可悲的是，像我這樣的例子已經多了起來。

whether or not someone actually make a mistake,

是否有人真的犯了錯誤。

and now it's for both public and private people.

而現在，它'的公私兩用。

The consequences for some have become dire, very dire.

有些人的後果已經變得很嚴重，非常嚴重。

I was on the phone with my mom

我在跟我媽打電話

in September of 2010,

在2010年9月。

and we were talking about the news

我們正在談論的新聞

of a young college freshman from Rutgers University

一名羅格斯大學的年輕大學新生。

named Tyler Clementi.

名為泰勒-克萊門蒂。

Sweet, sensitive, creative Tyler

甜蜜、敏感、有創造力的泰勒

was secretly webcammed by his roommate

被室友偷拍到了

while being intimate with another man.

在與另一個男人親密接觸時。

When the online world learned of this incident,

當網絡世界得知這一事件後。

the ridicule and cyberbullying ignited.

點燃的嘲諷和網絡欺凌。

A few days later,

幾天後。

Tyler jumped from the George Washington Bridge

泰勒從喬治華盛頓大橋上跳下

to his death.

至死。

He was 18.

他當時18歲。

My mom was beside herself about what happened to Tyler and his family,

我媽媽對泰勒和他的家人的遭遇感到很難過。

and she was gutted with pain

她痛不欲生

in a way that I just couldn't quite understand,

的方式，我只是不能完全理解。

and then eventually I realized

然後最終我意識到

she was reliving 1998,

她在重溫1998年的事情。

reliving a time when she sat by my bed every night,

重溫她每晚坐在我床邊的時光。

reliving a time when she made me shower with the bathroom door open,

重溫一次她讓我開著浴室門洗澡的情景。

and reliving a time when both of my parents feared

並重溫了我父母都害怕的那段日子。

that I would be humiliated to death,

我將被羞辱至死。

literally.

從字面上看

Today, too many parents

今天，有太多的父母

haven't had the chance to step in and rescue their loved ones.

還沒有機會介入並拯救他們的親人。

Too many have learned of their child's suffering and humiliation

太多的人已經知道了自己孩子的痛苦和屈辱'。

after it was too late.

後，為時已晚。

Tyler's tragic, senseless death was a turning point for me.

Tyler'的慘死，毫無意義的死亡對我來說是一個轉捩點。

It served to recontextualize my experiences,

這對我的經歷起到了重新認識的作用。

and I then began to look at the world of humiliation and bullying around me

於是我開始審視身邊的屈辱和欺凌世界

and see something different.

並看到一些不同的東西。

In 1998, we had no way of knowing where this brave new technology

在1998年，我們不知道這項勇敢的新技術在哪裡。

called the Internet would take us.

稱為互聯網會把我們。

Since then, it has connected people in unimaginable ways,

從那時起，它以難以想象的方式將人們聯繫起來。

joining lost siblings,

加入失去的兄弟姐妹；

saving lives, launching revolutions,

拯救生命，發動革命。

but the darkness, cyberbullying, and slut-shaming that I experienced

但我所經歷的黑暗、網絡欺凌和蕩婦羞辱。

had mushroomed.

已經萌生了。

Every day online, people, especially young people

每天在網上，人們，尤其是年輕人

who are not developmentally equipped to handle this,

他們在發展上不具備處理這些問題的能力。

are so abused and humiliated

飽受凌辱

that they can't imagine living to the next day,

他們無法想象活到第二天。

and some, tragically, don't,

而有些人，不幸的是，沒有。

and there's nothing virtual about that.

並沒有什麼虛擬的東西。

ChildLine, a U.K. nonprofit that's focused on helping young people on various issues,

ChildLine，是英國的一個非營利組織，專注於幫助年輕人解決各種問題。

released a staggering statistic late last year:

去年年底公佈了一個驚人的數據。

From 2012 to 2013,

從2012年到2013年。

there was an 87 percent increase

有87%的增長

in calls and emails related to cyberbullying.

在與網絡欺凌有關的電話和電子郵件中。

A meta-analysis done out of the Netherlands

荷蘭進行的一項元分析。

showed that for the first time,

顯示，第一次。

cyberbullying was leading to suicidal ideations

網絡欺凌導致自殺的想法

more significantly than offline bullying.

比線下欺凌更顯著。

And you know what shocked me, although it shouldn't have,

你知道什麼讓我震驚嗎，雖然它不應該'。

was other research last year that determined humiliation

去年還有其他研究確定了羞辱

was a more intensely felt emotion

是一種更強烈的情感

than either happiness or even anger.

比無論是幸福甚至是憤怒。

Cruelty to others is nothing new,

殘酷對待他人並不是什麼新鮮事。

but online, technologically enhanced shaming is amplified,

但在網上，技術加強的恥辱被放大了。

uncontained, and permanently accessible.

不受限制，並可永久使用。

The echo of embarrassment used to extend only as far as your family, village,

尷尬的回聲曾經只延伸到你的家庭、村莊。

school or community,

學校或社區；

but now it's the online community too.

但現在它'的在線社區了。

Millions of people, often anonymously,

數百萬人，往往是匿名的。

can stab you with their words, and that's a lot of pain,

可以用他們的話語來刺傷你，那就很痛苦了'。

and there are no perimeters around how many people

而多少人都是沒有界限的。

can publicly observe you

可以公開觀察你

and put you in a public stockade.

把你關進公共倉庫

There is a very personal price

有一個非常個人的價格

to public humiliation,

當眾羞辱。

and the growth of the Internet has jacked up that price.

而互聯網的發展也抬高了這個價格。

For nearly two decades now,

近二十年來。

we have slowly been sowing the seeds of shame and public humiliation

厚顏無恥，忍辱負重

in our cultural soil, both on- and offline.

在我們的文化土壤中，無論是線上還是線下。

Gossip websites, paparazzi, reality programming, politics,

八卦網站、狗仔隊、真人秀節目、政。

news outlets and sometimes hackers all traffic in shame.

新聞機構，有時黑客都會恥辱地流量。

It's led to desensitization and a permissive environment online

導致了網上的脫敏和放任環境的形成

which lends itself to trolling, invasion of privacy, and cyberbullying.

這就適合於吐槽、侵犯隱私和網絡欺凌。

This shift has created what Professor Nicolaus Mills calls

這種轉變造就了尼古拉斯-米爾斯教授所說的。

a culture of humiliation.

羞辱文化；

Consider a few prominent examples just from the past six months alone.

僅從過去半年的幾個突出例子來看。

Snapchat, the service which is used mainly by younger generations

Snapchat，這個主要由年輕一代使用的服務。

and claims that its messages only have the lifespan

並宣稱其資訊僅有生命力。

of a few seconds.

的幾秒鐘。

You can imagine the range of content that that gets.

你可以想象得到的內容範圍。

A third-party app which Snapchatters use to preserve the lifespan

Snapchatters用來保存壽命的第三方應用。

of the messages was hacked,

的消息被黑客。

and 100,000 personal conversations, photos, and videos were leaked online

和10萬條個人對話、照片和視頻被洩露到網上。

to now have a lifespan of forever.

到現在有永遠的壽命。

Jennifer Lawrence and several other actors had their iCloud accounts hacked,

詹妮弗-勞倫斯和其他幾位演員的iCloud賬戶被黑。

and private, intimate, nude photos were plastered across the Internet

和私密、親密的裸照被貼在互聯網上。

without their permission.

未經他們的許可。

One gossip website had over five million hits

某八卦網站點擊率超過500萬次

for this one story.

為這一個故事。

And what about the Sony Pictures cyberhacking?

那索尼影業的網絡黑客事件呢？

The documents which received the most attention

最受關注的文件

were private emails that had maximum public embarrassment value.

是具有最大公共尷尬價值的私人電子郵件。

But in this culture of humiliation,

但在這種屈辱的文化中。

there is another kind of price tag attached to public shaming.

公開羞辱還有另一種價格標籤。

The price does not measure the cost to the victim,

價格並不能衡量受害者的成本。

which Tyler and too many others,

其中泰勒和太多的人。

notably women, minorities,

特別是婦女、少數族裔，

and members of the LGBTQ community have paid,

和男女同志、雙性戀和變性者社區成員已經支付。