But yeah, they are not using the rope, meaning they are climbing with their bare hands.

不過也對，他們沒有用繩子，也就是說他們是徒手攀爬。

But in case in the event it turns wrong, there is a role, and then they they're not They're not gonna fall at the bottom, so they're not gonna die.

但是萬一萬一出錯了，有一個作用，那他們他們就不 他們不會掉在底層，所以他們不會死。

And the quality of those climbers your super impressed with Yeah, because you know, for me, for me, it's even.

而那些登山者的素質讓你印象深刻 是的，因為你知道，對我來說，對我來說，它甚至。

It's complicated to understand.

這是複雜的理解。

First of all, it's complicated to understand how I could do what I did.

首先，我很複雜，不明白自己怎麼會這樣做。

My, my, my hands, my risk, the piece of shit.

我的，我的，我的，我的手，我的風險，那塊狗屎。

Really, Some of the best surgeon specialize on hands.

真的，一些最好的外科醫生專攻手。

They would they don't understand.

他們會... ...他們不明白。

How is it possible to do what I did?

怎麼可能像我這樣做呢？

Because it's completely it should be impossible.

因為它完全它應該是不可能的。

So I just imagine that if I had normal hands, like normal guys, So maybe maybe I was not going to find that motivation that, you know, to fight, to feel maybe revengeful, so that that is possible.

所以，我只是想象，如果我有正常的手， 像正常的人，所以也許也許我是不會找到的動機， 你知道，戰鬥，感覺也許復仇， 所以這是可能的。

Maybe I became good because I was I was so destroyed, right?

也許我之所以變得優秀，是因為我被我毀了吧？

I was so fucking upset, right?

我他媽的很不爽，對吧？

Yeah.

是啊。

So I will.

所以我會的。

I will never know.

我永遠不會知道。

I'm just explaining you, You know, from the bottom of my heart, I have tried, You know, I have tried for years and years to understand exploring myself, Uh, introspect ing myself trying to understand exactly why.

我只是向你解釋，你知道，從我的心底，我已經嘗試，你知道，我已經嘗試了很多年，多年來了解探索自己，呃，檢討自己，試圖瞭解到底為什麼。

Why I did that.

我為什麼要這麼做。

I did that.

是我做的

I'm still not.

我還是沒有。

Maybe the best answer that I could tell you.

也許是我能告訴你的最好答案。

It's like I was promised toe a great future, and I messed up.

就像我被許諾了一個偉大的未來，而我卻搞砸了。

I was 19.

我當時19歲

I was dead on then.

我當時就死心了。

I didn't accept it, right?

我沒有接受，對嗎？

And so you pushed on anyways and made it happen anyways.

所以你無論如何都要堅持下去，無論如何都要實現它。

And we've seen this throughout history where people get an injury.

我們在歷史上也看到過這種情況，有人受傷了。

And the doctor said, There's no way you could never do this and they become the best in that thing.

醫生說，你不可能永遠做不到這一點，他們就會成為那件事情中的佼佼者。

So it's the human mind.

所以這是人類的思想。

I guess so.

我想是的

Yeah.

是啊。

I am just topic ating what a lot of people did in different disciplines.

我只是話題性地指出很多人在不同學科中的做法。

My, my worship.

我，我的崇拜。